Stupid boy, he tries so hard, he wants to have power, but can't control what he already has. maybe i should go and talk to him. April's gone today, i could try, then she wouldn't interfere, he has a right to know his mother and who his father was. not just the brand he was given when he died. more Narsis he was a good man, a good captian. if only Bronze wouldn'y of killed him. he deserved better. not to be slain by his fellow were. then again he deserved it, marrying to a wendigo, bedding with her. and Wolff came out in the end. they knew if they had children that that chikd would be mistreated. i'm just glad Wolff isn't dead. he looks so much like his father...and the fairness he has from his mother. i should get back to work, to much is going on the war will come, and we must prepare.
August-20-03
i haven't been able to talk as long as i wanted to, but sometimes i know it will come. i'm hoping that the prophecie shall come and all will be well. " one made of both good and evil, who's heart is tarnished, who has looked death in the face twice and has laughed. one who has killed but has mourned for the loss. one who is of both pure of heart and pure of mind." i have a feeling of who it shall be but...i'm not sure. some of it doesn't add up. i have to keep looking. or were all doomed.
August-21-03
soon it shall come, i can't beilve that a war will start. and thiers nothing i can do, but prepare for it. i don't even know what tribe i em fighting against. i'm hoping the bonegnawers they are few in numbers, and don't have that much strength in their blood. i can only wait and watch.
August-29-03
the war is on everyone's mind, though no one talks of it... at least not around me. they know i em worried and they don't want to piss me off right now. i hope that it shall be soon...when i find the rest of the prophocey. then we will know who will come out in the end.
August-31-03
i try so hard but i can't help but think thiers something wrong with Wolff he's been acting funny. maybe it's just something i'm not aware of. maybe even girl troubles...no Wolff never did that sort of stuff. i have to put my mind at ease, but with talk of a war. i can't help but think.
september-31-03
never in my life, have i seen so much chaos. people killing on the news, terrorists bombing places. what is wrong with these humans, don't they know that thier killing each other. why do i try, i mean my own kind used to kill each other for sport. we still do slave trading, but here the slaves aren't treated badly. thier just like servants. like a maid or a buttler. i don't know whats going on in the minds of these humans, and i wish i never will.