Well well well...week thirteen is over already. It's hard to believe. I haven't been updating this site at all because of exams....but now...first year is over! Let me tell you, University of Toronto exams are BRUTAL, especially when you write five in nine days...yucky. Oh well, wahoooo! I've been waiting for this year to be over for eight months! It's been a very bad month or so, mainly because I am a chronic picker, especially when I'm studying. I don't even notice it most of the time. Now that I dont have to study for..FOUR MONTHS (yeah baby!)...it's already getting better.
Anyhow, as for the Accutane stuff...I had my first dermatologist visit almost a month ago now, I have another one this Friday. It went alright...I guess I was expecting miracles though, I thought he'd have more advice for me. He took one look at me and said "I don't see much in the way of acne, what you have you've created yourself." So yeah, I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm a picker. He told me to not even use a facecloth and not to rub with a towel. I already kinda figured that myself. Also, for the arm rash, he told me to put Vaseline on it. It really works, and clears up in a couple of days, but then if I stop putting it on, it comes back. He also told me to use Complex 15 moisturizer instead of Glaxal Base or Cetaphil, so I have been, and when I told him that I already tried Complex 15 and it burned like hell, he advised me to keep it in the fridge. It acually works, what a smart guy! *L* I guess that's why they go to school for ten years or so huh? Vaseline is a miracle worker though, it makes an amazin moisturizer (smear it on at night and then put on some old pyjamas) and DON'T put it on your acne prone areas (like I even needed to tell you that) and in the morning you'll have the most amazingly oft skin ever. It's great!
I am on this stuff for five months, my dermatologist is a firm believer in five months or no months, so only seven weeks to go. Despite how crappy it's been, it's gone pretty quick. Hopefully, I'll never have to go through this again. Actually, I know I won't, because no matter what I won't put myself though this again. I think I've done more crying while on Accutane than in my whole life before. I can understand why people get down on this drug, but not because of actual depression, just because they feel like ugly monsters, cause thats sure what I have felt like. It definitely didn't help when my best friend came home from school in Saskatchewan and asked (in the middle of Starbucks nonetheless) "What happened?" And I thought I was having a good day, and had covered the orst of it up. Ughhhh. I truly though she would have more tact than that. Oh well, when this is over, it'll be worth it.
I've also been sitting outside attempting to get a tan, and no kidding, I think Accutane has made me LESS sensitive to the sun. It is truly bizarre. I have always burned in half an hour, and now, I don't see anything from even longer than that. I don't know if it's a good thing, but don't worry, when it gets really hot I won't hesitate to wear my SPF 60 sunscreen...I've had enough skin problems in my life, I sure as hell don't need skin cancer to top it off.
Anyway, hopefully I'll be back to update this next week, but it's not a promise because I'm getting on a train headed east on Saturday morning and won't stop until I hit New Brunswick (lived there for the first 17 and a half years of my life) I won't be updating while I'm there because my relatives don't have the internet. I hope you are all doing super good, or at least better than I have, especially Carrie, since the wedding must be coming up really soon. Keep your head up, and don't give up. Talk to you all soon...hopefully someone still reads this, maybe everyone gave up because I haven't updated in so long.
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