Writing Away The Pain
Nikki,
I don�t really know what to say. Heck, I don�t even know why I�m writing this letter. I mean, it�s not like you�re ever going to read it. But apparently it will do me good. Or so the shrink says.
Although how she knows is beyond me. Has she ever lost somebody close in such a cold and callous manner as I have? I doubt it.
I�m only going to please Leo. He wants me to take more time off. I think I�ve taken enough. We compromised on the shrink. He�s still not happy. I don�t know what he expects me to do all day. Work is the only thing keeping me sane. Without it, I don�t know what I�d do.
But with it, I suppose this would have never happened. For starters I would have never met you. I can�t imagine that happening. I can�t imagine my life without you. Not then, not now, not ever.
What am I going to do without you Nik? It�s like there�s a part of me missing. I�m starting to wonder how I coped before you turned up at the lab. Because I sure as hell can�t cope now that you�re gone.
I swear, if I ever get my hands on the bastard that did this, I�ll kill him as heartlessly as he did you. As slowly and painfully as possible.
Because it�s his fault that I feel like this. That I�m feeling so many emotions. Anger, hate, loss, but most of all grief. Because I�ve lost the woman I love and nobody is ever going to replace you. Nobody is ever going to fix my broken heart.
I love you, and I promise that, no matter what, you will always have a place in my heart.
All my love
Harry xx