| okay then so i'm watching braveheart today... just caught a bit of it. it was that part after the guy betrayed wallace and all the men got slaughtered. some woman was walking through the bodies and she looked down and saw the guy she was looking for and she threw herself down on the ground beside him and cradled his head in her hands, her lap. it made me think of kyle. not because he is dead... i dont really know why... but i wanted to sit beside him and cradle his head in my lap. love sure is crazy as all heck. i'll write more later. i'm gonna go swing on the swings. i wonder if he'll write or call when he gets home. |
| June 3, 2001- first installment 7:10pm |
| So I�m really into this book I�m reading, right? I�ve been reading it all day long and I�m stuck in it now. I keep getting interrupted all evening. Startin to get exasperated� so I�m laying down on my bed reading and ralphy shows up in my doorway. Hey Helen, me and joey are really good at fainting on our beds. I could tell by the way he was smiling that he wanted to show me. I didn�t want to get up again. Can I see you do it? Yeah Let�s go So I watch them show me all the different styles of fainting and the different positions that they can land in. Okay guys� want me to turn off the light all the way or just dim it All the way Yeah all the way Alright. Goodnight Helen Goodnight ralphy I love you I love you too Helen. Music. My hand hurts Lemme see joey. Want me to kiss it No Okay then. I rub his stomach Don�t that tickles Ralphy blows me a kiss I catch it theatrically and put it inside my shirt so I don�t lose it and blow one back. He catches it and puts it in his shirt I put it in my heart-safe. I smile� what can you say to that? Goodnight Helen Goodnight joey. I love you guys. See if I heard them right the first time I love you Helen Yeah I love you Goodnight. |
| added at 9:39pm |
| an email from naythanmaythan... hey nafe, if you want me to take it down, just say the word. i don't mind one bit. =) |
| Sherlock Holmes seemed to have each case solved before the person explaining it could finish...he had a well trained, shrewd mind. I was not blessed with one of those...my mind works as does most peoples...hardly at all. I think that I will tell you what I wrote down on the piece of paper yesterday...I said that you two would stay together...and after reading your journal stuff, it seems like I solved the case much like sherlock holmes does. Change isn't always bad, and in this case that applies...you now know to a fuller extent just how muchly you love kyle...enough to over look his indifference, and instead look to what makes you happy...being with him. If you are saying to yourself "but naythan, nothing has been decided yet.", I suggest you reread your new journal additions and then maybe you will realize that you decided even before you questioned it. I hope that you have a delovely talk with the birches...their advice is often better then mine...the sounds of silence. The book store sounds great and we can do the movie thing whenever you are free. For you and kyle it is elementry my dear helen...no, maybe it is love. Nathan Maythan |
| i like birch trees! |