| Some of the Roof words. i wrote a lot of random lines. these are some of them: I think maybe everyone was right all these years they�ve been saying I�m crazy. I think something is really wrong with me. I wish I could be like you Feelings so faint they can�t be detected I wish I could go through life having thoughts that aren�t worth the effort to complete or explain, I wish I could go through life letting words fall carelessly out of my mouth It didn�t occur to me that nothing occurs to you Until now I wish I were you So I didn�t have to notice how f*cked up you are You don�t care enough not to care I told you we�ll see how things go but, boy, I�m not seeing anything. ... You said you�d write me back I�m sick of waiting for you to come around By the time you do, I�ll have come around too- I�ll have come away from you. I cried rivers for your and my banks are overflowing. The levy is going to break and then you�ll drown in those tears and I won�t be there to throw you a life line Yeah maybe the problem isn�t you- maybe it�s all me and my head but you know, you�re only making it worse and I don�t know why I was so afraid to let you go. Inside but I�m chilled to the bone Thinking about you I feel so alone *(things that I needn�t mention)*�. You forgive him. Is it because you love him or because you�re stupid? � Says he loves you, what does he mean by that? Never tells you. What are you so afraid of? Being alone? |
| some elliott smith lyrics from his album figure 8. don't download the songs- buy the album. you won't regret it. I had tender feelings that you made hard It�s your heart, not mine, that�s scarred� I know you don�t think you did me wrong And I can�t stay this mad for long Keeping ahold of what you just let go You�re just somebody I used to know �I wish you luck, I really do with the problem with the puzzle whatever�s left of you I heard you found another audience to bore A creative thinker who imagined you were more A new body for you to push around and pose it�s all about taking the easy way out for you I suppose. I told him that he shouldn�t upset her And that he�d only be making it worse. Involving somebody else But I knew that he�d never forget her While her memory worked in reverse to keep her safe from herself And oh my, nothing else could�ve been done She made her life a lie so she might never have to know anyone� � and then you�ll see that all I want now is happiness for you and me� I�ve got a long way to go I�m getting further away A lot of hours to occupy it was easy when I didn�t know you yet Things I�d have to forget But I better be quiet now I�m tired of wasting my breath Carrying on and getting upset Maybe I got a problem- but that�s now what I wanted to say I�d prefer to say nothing I�ve got a long way to go getting further away. |
| notes that correspond to journal 19. |
| note to the reader: Things may not really be this bad... i needed to vent and to rant and i was upset. So keep that in mind. |