Quickly to recount my week....
work... work work work... then on wednesday it was my birthday! whee ha! And as always my beloved friends made it wonderful! I got some happy emails to brighten my day at work and at home we had shish-ka-bobs and pumpkin pie to celebrate. Erin and Lisa came over later in the evening and showered me with amazing gourmet cupey-cakes and good smelling, cool named candles and handmade books and GODZILLA pins and art museum memberships and swifty books on dream interpretation... i also got a little phone call from kyle, but i had to call him back later on with my phonecard (from family for birthday) because my girls were still here.
i was supposed to get together with naythanmaythan around midnight so that we could ring in both of our birthdays while we watched the season finale of ed together and exchanged gifts and eachother's belongings... but i fell asleep by assident and missed it(not accident, because i really felt like an ass when i woke up the next morning)
anyway... we got together the next night instead and watched it and made poptarts and had milk out of those illusion mugs that always make you have more milk than you think... which is cool because poptarts need lots of milk. =) Then nate read out loud to me like he said he wanted to (out of Einstein's Dreams) and i pronounced the German words for him... and i read a few snatches from Nine Stories. and i also revealed the Salinger-Squalor-Snicket connection. If you don't know what that is, then i must regretfully inform you that your life is not yet complete. And then when it was late we walked our merry way home...
It was a nice belated birthday present...
Then the rest of the week was spent working and cleaning to prepare for kyle's visit this weekend. And of course looking forward to him coming here.
Kyle came in around noon on Saturday. The visit was nice for the most part... it had a few sucky moments... but doesn't everything? The general concensus from the people here (namely my family) was that he was kind of quiet and that they wish they had gotten to talk more and know him better, but they said that they like him from what little they know. Kyle didn't say much to me about the trip as a whole yet... just that he wished there hadn't been that sort of pressure from parents and stuff. He said he felt kinda like he couldn't be himself which i partly understand and partly dont- i didn't think they were acting like he needed to hide or be real careful. I still really havent gotten a full review back from him yet though. As for me... well, it was really good to be able to see him and hear his voice again and be able to hug him and smell him and all that stuff you can't get over the phone or on line. I guess that was my birthday present from him.
I wish there was more to do here and i wish i could say that he and my friends hit it off... but there's still time for that i suppose.
I've been waiting around for him to come on line and let me know that he got back okay. He did... i was hoping to talk to him... but he went to bed... *sigh* tomorrow then i suppose...
I was thinking about something lately. I was wondering how things become important or how things come to carry weight in your mind. For instance, with me its things like saying 'whatever' bothers me a lot and i take it as a sort of insult. Or things like you say 'goodnite' or 'see you later' instead of 'goodbye' because goodbye seems like a final ending. (so its okay to use in breakups or final departures and things like that) and other things like the importance of saying "I *insert action* " rather than just *action.* (For instance, "I miss you" rather than "miss you.") I don't know why that 'i' got important or when, but it did. i was trying to figure out why that means so much to me or how it got to mean so much but i don't quite know. I think its because without the 'i' part of something, it seems like a programed statement or like its just words... but that 'i' adds some sort of element of personal meaning. like if someone says 'come with us' as opposed to 'i want you to come with us' that 'i want...' part makes you feel like you're something special. its makes it a more perosnal statement... i think thats why it means something to me... but i still dont know how it came to be that way
and i also dont know if its a stupid thing to care about
naturally, i don't think it is stupid... but maybe i just put too much weight on little things... or is it the little things that matter most. why isnt there some book somewhere of everything that is right so that when i have little questions like this, i can look and see if it is petty or if it is one of those little things that matter... or in that case, look and see if little things should matter.
i sure do question a lot, don't i?
I feel kind of crummy now... so i think this is all for today. if you are reading this then you are at my site and if you are at my site then you have time to waste and if you have time to waste then you definitely have time to sign my message board. besides, it would make me REEEAAAALLLLLY happy and i could use some of that =)
be good everyone. (that goes for you too helen, because you know you are going to re-read this sometime)
