| fuck me fuck me stupid knife fuck my mind fuck my life fuck it all stupid knife fuck my soul fuck my veins fuck my wrists screw the stains stupid knife fuck my heart fuck this pain stupid knife i'm dieing again |
| --}random poetry{ |
| i HATE myself. little girls should not be playing with knives. little girls should not be dreaming about dead things. little girls should not be praying to be murdered. little girls should not delight in burning themselves. little girls should not be left alone, drowning in their own blood. little girls should not be pouring hot wax over their open, self inflected wounds... thank goodness I'm not little then. |
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waiting for it to burn psyking myself up for my punishment i've been a bad girl worthless, friendless for a split second as the flame burns and hot wax pours along my scarred skin i forget my badness the first sting feels like Hell i desereve it, i say the rest, an addictive blur burning more and more praying for the grave hoping for a wound to end all others. not so. |
| i think too much. i breathe too much. |
| if this candle, were a knife, i'd be dead ... burn, till i'm numb inside |
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| silence silence silence silence silence silence silence silence silence silence |
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| ..back] |
| what's the point of resisting the urge what's the point of staying clean i feel like a blank canvas full of secrets full of HURT i feel like burning that canvas ripping it open letting the world know what i can't express using words |
| STOP STARING at me you.. you imaGINATIONS in the shadows! i HATE YOU! i will drown. you will the the water consuming my mind till my last pointless breath. [ha..ha.. this one's sposed to be stupid.] |
| ...there is a time where fear overides guilt to create a senceless panic.. only to be ignored by careless waves of melancholy... |
| helpless addictions spinning 'round my head pulling me further through Hell helpless addctions wishing I were dead sanity sold to [a] church bell helpless addictions all these secrets in my head and never being able to tell. |
| I'm in love, I'm in hate, I'm in Hell, life is great.. |
| �r�m a �.�.�:: Take this Cross/Stone do what you will Protect my heart, my mind be still. |