okay. so i haven't been online or able to mess with my site
in months. i'll give you a little bit of an update...


Trip to ER at Hospital = $4,800.00
5 day Mental Ward Vacation = $37,000.00
4 weeks of partial therapy = $5,900.00
Being in love with Katy = Priceless

If you want to get to know me:
check out the pixel art images I made below











i like so many different things, and i'm not sure what all i'm going to
add to my page but for starters i guess i could go with...

            
yes i am gay. I apologize, actually, no i don't. I'm not the type of person
who appreciates being labeled or judged. I don't go into places, nor do i ask a person
when i first meet them "are you straight?" because secretly i hate straight people.
I am not racist, homophobic, or heterophobic. My only phobia consits of lizards or
the dark and scary ass noises.I just really don't like 'em. eef!

i just don't understand sometimes, really, why straight people
get so crazy when it comes to "dykes and fags". like we're out to spread disease and corrupt
the minds of todays youth. it's not like i woke up one day, dry humping my barbie doll too hard, and
decided ohhh i think i feel like eating pussy today. why, "i do it cuz it's trendy and cool!" lol.

blame it on DOMOKUN it's all his fault!

i LoVe PiXeL aRT!
          It's sooo the shit, n shit. eh hehehehe!          
I started doing it in October. I saw an image on deviant art and I was completely
amazed with people's work. So, I decided to try it... I had no clue it was so much fun, yet hard.
It takes a lot of time doing it pixel by pixel, but I've learned to make my own brushes. to see
my pixel art... go check out my art page. YaY!

If I were an action figure...








Photoshop nEoNe?
I happen to also LoVe photoshop cs. i make my pixel art in there. but i also like making all of
my own web graphics... i started getting into swish 2.o, which is a shockwave/flash program
that let's you create your own SWF stuff. I mainly just used it for my menus.







 Me a Computer Geek? 

Why yes, yes i am. I've been tearing computers apart since I was 12, looking
at all the parts, and wondering what they do. By the time I was 16 I knew
computers inside and out and started doing modifications to them with LED
lights setting around the house and cutting windows in the sides to display
the illuminations. When I finally moved out and got a place of my own my friend
John would come over and we'd tear apart computers and try modifying them so
they would fit into a TV, VCR, or whatever we could find to build them inside of
I now have a fascination in re-buiding them and painting them with fading colors

For now I'm happy with this, but soon within the next few months it will be
black, red, and white. Not bad for finding the case at a junk yard. I'm not
the greatest at the exterior, but I like it more than the basic colors they come in.
As of April 14th, 2005 this is what my computer looks like...








 Web Design 
I absolutely love html, css, flash, and javascript. I started learning basic html when I was 13.
Just enough to have a basic page up. I got into a little bit of trouble on net and stepped away
from the online shit for a while. Around 18 I got the internet back and played around
every so often with html, but mainly programming progs with Visual Basic. In 2003 I saw
a website I enjoyed immensely and started teaching myself web design all over again.

So here's my webpage... 6 months to pull the shit out of my ass, an hour or so to make the
layout and about a week of designing the images and putting the shit where I want it, and tada
You've got dyke in a box. I've had a lot of people bitch about my last layout because for some
reason it made me a newb for liking frames, well boo hoo. Even with my new red layout I still
like my frames! If I had one whole day where I could design my site I'd whip them out like
crazy, but I only get to spend an hour here or 20 mins there. For those who
do want to make a simple page or even go crazy, do it. It's a lot of fun.

 Don't know HTML? Go to these sites and learn  

tizag:   beginner, html, css, xml, javascript, php, perl, mySQL tutorials
dynamic drive:  html, dhtml, javascript scripts and tutorials
codebrain:  applets, javascript, perl scripts







Lyrics eye liiiike!

I'd rather be dreaming than living, Living's just too hard to do
It's chances not choices, Noises not voices
A day's just a thing to get through, Living's just too hard to do
I'd rather be dreaming than talking, There's nothing to hear or to say
With ears covered mouth closed, The world is opposed
Nothing gets in or away, There's nothing to hear or to say
I'd rather be dreaming than thinking, Thoughts are small comfort to me
Dreams might be pretend, But atleast dreams end
And I just can't stop thinking you see, Thoughts are small comfort to me
I'd rather be dreaming than sleeping, Just sleeping you're just as well dead
In dreams I can fly in dreams I don't die, That's why I lie here in this bed
Just sleeping you're just as well dead, I'd rather be dreaming.

-Loudon Wainwright III "Dreaming"

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All I know is the bleeding in my heart
And the healing in your touch
All I know is that you gave everything
So let that be enough
'Cause it's all I know
I dont know how your love works
How you cover me in grace
I dont know how you swallow all I am
When I can't stand my taste

-Matt Wertz "All I Know"

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i take a breath and pull the air in 'til there's nothing left
I'm feeling green like teenage lovers between the sheets
knuckles clenched to white as the landing gear retract for flight
my head's a balloon inflating with the altitude
i watch the patchwork farms' slow fade into the ocean's arms
and from here they can't see me stare
the stale taste of recycled air
i watch the patchwork farms' slow fade into the ocean's arms
calm down, release your cares
the stale taste of recycled air

-The Postal Service "Recycled Air"

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Scream at me until my ears bleed. I'm taking heed just for you
She's figured out... all her doubts with someone else's point of view

-Greenday "She"

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by now i should have been somewhere or gone to school or fixed my hair
back down, tell it to someone else who gives a shit and needs your help
cuz i've found what i needed and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall you are not the one that who has cope and deal ...All my problems are for me
my god look at his tattoos and those earrings he could never get a good job
go home and beat your kids so they don't turn out as bad as me

- Smile Empty Soul "All My Problems"

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i don't have time for your solutions and i don't wanna deal with your mistakes
no matter how much medication the doctor says i need to take
i still say.... you're the ones that kill your babies, you're the ones that fuck your kids
you're the ones that throw each other away, you're the ones sitting in church every sunday
and i don't want your religions, and i don't need your sympathies
and i don't want a part of all your hatred no matter how much you yell at me

-Smile Empty Soul "Every Sunday"

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i try to be the man i am, in times of broken lives and shattered dreams and plans,
standing up to fight the pressures and demands, staring at the knife
and holding in your hand what used to be your life.
this world is crazy ...my dreams are fading ...i want my life

you fight your fucked up holy wars, fire anti-christ, jesus will come down
and help us win tonight, now how should i feel? i think i feel alright,
so tell me where to aim. i'm blinded by the light
this world is crazy ...my dreams are fading ...no one can save me ...i want my life

and when i wake up you'll be here, and it will be the way it was, the way it was
...i want my life

-Smile Empty Soul "I Want My Life"

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the silhouettes above the cradle hold me down, they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how in the end all the sinners have to pay

i don't wanna live like my mother, i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father, i don't wanna give up before i die

he worked so hard his bones are breaking he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how i don't ever want to end up like he did

i don't wanna live like my mother, i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father, i don't wanna give up before i die

when i have kids, i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't i'll tell them this...
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough

-Smile Empty Soul "Silhouettes"

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It's a cruel cruel world, so conventional, sometimes love just wins you over
I've come to life it's true, it's not intentional, every time when we move closer
And I'll take the fall, a twist i know, you just see right through me.
It may be wrong but all long, it keeps on turning, turning

-ATB "Mistake #2"

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Doing everything that I believe in. Going by the rules that I've been taught.
More understanding of what's around me. And protected from the walls of love.
All that you see is me. And all I truly believe. That I was born to try.

-Delta Goodrem "Born to Try"





You ever wonder what it feels like being a cat?? I do! Livin' it up in
a house you don't pay for. Free food, free drinks, free snacks, plenty of love
(sounds like someone I know!) being massaged all the time, having fun....and
then there's the times where it would really suck to be a cat stuck outside
in the middle of the road...not knowing which way to go ...




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So, I guess I'll get a lil deep about myself,
or at least try to...

Erased!
Sorry I don't feel like everyone knowing my life story anymore
After therapy I've decided to let go of my past and make a new life for myself