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My poetry. Some if from a long time ago. I never title my poetry. Enjoy.
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God no longer wants me here tonight I no longer trust anyone, everyone shotting lies in every dirction, like a rose tintid triangle on fire... telling me to jump through it Cold hands run down my pale wrists... Tiping my head gazing at the skin... If that's what you want to call my tatterd cloth... I'll never be free from this place... dancing spirts engulf me... they attempt to save me, throwing me against poisoned trees... The virutes people lack.. all reasons lost to the insane can't you see... obsession from hell I drown in my black blood... My black tears tearing m,y heart apart... alone against the walls My curtian is closing... cement is falling from the sky... Instant bloodrush letting the pieces gouge out my eyes... or what is left of the them Pshycopathic pleasure...kill me for I want to die Non-exsistnat pleasure... let me wrap my hands around your throat... Digging my nails into the the fine flesh... Watch it all die... watch it run from ever diretion... colouring your body with eternity, I want you dead... Close off the axis of time. Bitter tears fall from my wrists... piercing my soul blue... Digging my nails into the cut... wanting more... wanting that feeling that lingers after every time... that feeling of you no longer there, the reaction... the pain fogs my eyes... blinding me with pleaure... tearing my life apart, one by one. Do I no longer seem alright? Shattering my heart with your lies... Or... is it... Let me perform my own surgery Touching the glass pieces colourd with beauty only seem through these eyes... The internal interferance will always linger on my tounge... The razor coloured sepia... twisted mind... One day I shall tranfer my tears to you... how would you like to be my puppet? Once again no faith is left... Benith my flesh, the skull answers my call A faint HISS in my earblack powder covering the white faced moon... lying on the ground... tears dropping to the ground... holding myself in these cold arms tonight... locked everything out The voice of the blood and the fog... sqinting my eyes.. A butterfly in a display case Stroking the velvet cuts... my first comprehension... the first thing I understood... I don't want you. Cheated out of my day... white and clean walking down the winding staircase... my left hand on the rail... formerly deserted Never again will I trust myself... No, not this time... SUNdown... paralyzed in this land of darkness My hand gleaming red, above that I saw nothing A shadow... he grimaced as we wiped a tear from his heart I shush myself, anious for more, I don't want to go back. Frozen tears will alawys be cold and slick on these fingers... this is how i feed myself... I dare you... try and comfort me for a little while... I don't want to become what i am for this world spins on the axis of time May society feel my blackend blood I deserve to be melted out of this world Lust refeltcting in the shadows dead branches twist around your voice Innocence was never there Pulsating dreams Let the harm hinder I won't wait for you haunted by burning flesh I will sacrifice all emotion ...let it end... I've never been more alone...screaming inside the box of little knowledge... a dangerous thing indeed behind the Moon lit glass wall..I want my heart to explode... and the blood to run down your lips... ...I'm crying... In this world of hate I hide everything from you anergy... Eternal death... I sooth myself by repeating... "don't be afraid" Faint smears of blood remain Slowly unhooking the fastenings of life Blow me a kiss before I take the last drop and slit your pretty throat Now, who's fucking with who... Crooked dreams... swallowing the razor... singing with blood running out of the corners of my mouth... Listen to the horrified screams... A vague memory of us lingers in my mind --Feed--the--greed--and--take--me-- --Wait--to--catch--up--to--your--speed-- It makes me wonder if you really are that someone for me The more thoughts I unlock in my head the more I feel It won't trouble you... may I ask you for a smile? Sometimes I hope a time like that never comes... --I--see--it's--not--meant--to--be--tragedy--is--in--the--air-- I don't need one more day the skull awaits my purified soul Emotions welled up inside my head and heart Clutching my heart in one hand and the blade in the other I love you but you just don't seem to understand Yet... I... want you to go away... --I--freely--show--my--scars-- Purple tears fall from the fairy eyes I am no one... my heart is stopping I want to feel nothing... everything... I want it to disappear Looking to the sky, I see nothing but rose petals falling from the sky Mixed with a sparkling red dust... --Go--ahead--turn--your--heart--against--me-- I am no one to you... I am nothing but a tattered cloth to you Opening my arms and closing my eyes... I know this time is for real... please... destroy me I know I should not think... I know-- I try and force myself to hate you Trying to throw it all away --In--your--eyes--I--see--lies--and--pruple--lies-- It's impossible to love a creature like you I want to hate you but I just can't... all this tension... I can't feel You never go away... you are a part of me I know but-- I can't --I--just--can't--pull--my--eyes--away Violently fading into darkness I catch my falling tears as they turn to ice Looking to the clock tower I feel only you The clock slows to a stop and a shadow appears The wind sprinkles past me... my hair lifts off my shoulders The clock slows to twelve... now you're dead Dead is when the last door is locked... A hand is grabbing the axis of time The leaves dance around my feet and the spirits rise I begin to wonder --Will--this--truly--make--me--happy-- Lowering my head... I can feel your voice calling within Upon the clock tower I see you standing along the railing On the street light another figures stands His cape blows in the wind... the wind sends his hat into the crimson air I can see through your demon wings and demon eyes Extending my hand... reaching for the demon --I'll... I�ll--be--waiting--here--for--you-- I rely on you to make me happy? No. Don't ever say goodbye, leave without saying anything as you walk past me... I know your kidding... but my heart is saying otherwise I try to clear my thoughts of you by running the blade up and down my arm For it seems to be the best way to clear my thoughts... Now I�m in a trance --I--can--see--you�re--into--your--greed-- Or is this real... Can feelings like this actually exist? All the lessons I�ve learned are indeed not true Catching your vanishing body... Deadly sweet dreams wait... Blood fills my heart up You wear a mask on your face As do I... My fingers caress your purple lips The figure on the clock tower is bleeding white --Wait--for--me--to--bleed-- Black feathers engulf me cutting me blue Closing my eyes... I want to feel you once more You voice pierces my soul... it pierces my heart Now I hate you... or do I? Will you ever love a heartless soul like I? My hand bleeds a deep red... do you love me... Running red along chains cuffed to my feet Touching my cold purple hand to yours The demon loves me... that am all I need I am not the only one with feelings for you now am I? --Your--person--just--for--you-- I crush the glass rose in my hand Holding your body... and dancing upon the vile I love my paper doll I want to find my dream No matter how hard I try... you don't seem to give in Sitting on the chair I relive the moments I spent with you Running the ice up and down my arm Violated by my memories... I want to know everything --Touch--the--thorn--of--the--pink--rose-- The fairies lie dead upon my carpet... I killed them Now they can feel my pain... now they can see the world through my eyes The dolls in my bedroom stare back at me with their heads tipped to one side No feeling on their faces... no nothing... mindless souls trapped in a dolls body Blood runs from their hands... arms... and face The demons lifts his hand and holds a pink light laughing --I�m--nothing--to--you-- ...Destroy me and hate me... I'm too afraid of what I want to believe... Looking to the clock tower I see my fate Looking to the light I see only darkness Please hold that hand of mine that follows the beat of your heart Malice thoughts in your head lead you to love me For fear... for life... give me a sign... --I--follow--the--beat--of--your--heart-- I can feel your pulsating dreams... Please remember I�ll be here for you Holding the melting petals... mixed with tears I let the mixture fall upon the dead fairies I will die alone... I lay down the metal petals My precious cold tears~
Left in a room, broken, without a name. People leave me here to hide my wounds. The harsh painful sounding new seasons. That season that confides with my memory. New lessons to be learned� But� unable to learn them� For I am addicted to being the blue rose. When my blood stain arm burns, it burns the bone as well� and rises up inside me� I�d rather sleep quietly; I�d rather die than see what this has become� what has become of me� I blocked my ears from your mellow voice� another gouge on my arm; you�re melting into it� Sitting in Formaldehyde� I hide my wounds� Sluggishly lowering my head� blood runs from my mouth� every corner of my soul� every corner of my eyes Vomiting blood all over the carpet� just to run my hand in it� and spell your name in it� Another blow to the stomach� another breath I lost� Artificial fantasy� another one of my eclectic tastes� I�m tearing your wings into pieces� fall into my hands and let me crush you. Cutting your wings and your heart piece by piece� Burning you� watching you melt� shall we become one? Shall I learn your every move and use it purely against you? Holding out my hand, with the other one behind me, my fingers crossed� �Care to join me?� Pretend not to notice me, as my heart is being devoured into it�s own self-hatred. All the lights die down in my bed room� Stimulate the hands of the beaten one� Horror kisses my eyes, changing to a deadly shade of black chrome; Horror caresses our deathbed. Manipulating little minds with a single poison thorn� The beauties of true nothing. Surrealistic visions� A paper flower is taped to the wall� dropping its petal for each blow. Unstoppable horror� running my blood stained hand on your face� Tilting my head in confusion, slowly moving closer to you, just enough to stab you in the back with my knife. I�m that stupid bitch you thought I was. Desire, a disease. The blood entwines with tears� these tears of mine� Waiting for real love, you never understood the beginning and the end� Born to loose everything. Something in the air� powdered memories scattered on the floor in the shape of a dying blue breath� Love freezes, and shatters into a million pieces, right before my eyes. Not caring, I shove the pieces away� Stepping on the ones under my feet, piercing the skin� twilight assistance. Lay their bleach yourself white and cover yourselves in dust. Under my pillow with a note for you~ which reads: Fuck it, fuck this, fuck you, and fuck everything. I�ll make your tint of light turn to darkness, in a deadly slumber, forever meditating to your scars. I want time to show that I was here� A blur forgotten in the ashes in the floor� in this world of confusing shattered glass dreams, painted with velvet lies. Passing people in my mind� I want you to crumble to my level. A world� not so weak� All of the happiness is deprived. Lost in a purple cyclone� I clasp my hands together and open my white eyes Looking at you breaking down� holding your image tighter than before, absorbing what I have left. Eternal love which I never had until now. Hearing you scream is tender beauty to my ears. Watching you turn your back� I�ll be the one to knock your ladders down. I cannot imagine how it must be to follow the one you love to death. A little uncomfortable� Damage has been done, when my reasons sleep. Tossing my head back, taking the frozen tears to the next level� Testing the blade, I run it across my tongue� an orgiastic sensation� wrapping my fingers around your hand. A razorblade smile, gradually making the winds silent � under my control phenomena. I attempt to shut myself off from the confusing voices� limp I lay. Skeletons hang from the trees, a black and white film has never died. Pointing in different directions, all on display. Skulls hang from the wires in the trees, watch, and I�ll teach you how to unwind your mind. A dark bubble forces me to breathe� slowly growing larger, the need to fulfill my greed. Flowing tears grow inside of me� twisting my mind like the skeletons that hang from stop signs� and the ravens that hang upside-down in the trees� and the fog that covers the sidewalk The little girl in the street cuddling her hopes she placed in a jar. Her eyes bleak. Her lips shut, with a slight tint of pink, her face pure white, her black hair in perfect tresses. The ground around her trembling� The doves lay dead beside her. Running the scalpel down his wrists� I intend on drinking the blood Suffering I don�t forget� Making you feel powerless� I�m bound to my sins. Brilliant starts glisten on the lake� Blank, calm and paralyzed with excitement. Hypnotically� I�m draining away� In my own pleasure� Black in the fluorescence� The pink flesh curling over� deafening myself with my screams My face painted mime white� my lips painted black� my skin devoured in switchblade slashes Violated by my own self-greed. How can you be so cold? Shove me into an invisible wall and tear apart my emotions located in the depths of the cold shadows. Furious thoughts crumble my devotion to live into thorns of roses and stab me in the eye The never dying flower you gave me, I will hold always. Even though we look toward different skies, I�m not so glad I met you� Stabbing your fragile heart� falling into a deadly song Sitting here laughing, I�m a hell lot stronger than you think. Blood for blood, licking what you have dropped from your tattered wrist� Hands trembling, watching as the blood engulfs my skin My eyes grow dark, under the light; the blood is black� I have lost myself� the rhapsody of tears twirl in my head like black glitter falling from the sky. Ripping the cuts open more� watch me burn� digging my nails into the flesh, I hate you. Licking these blood stained hands, this is what I was into� my constant suffering. Bow down to me� betrayed by my own trust� Abducted dreams swirl past my eyes� Searching for the center� I don�t give a fuck if you slip away. Fall astray� I want you to melt into my wounds. Did these fools actually think I cared for them? Eyes of purple flames have yet to deceive me. Bloodbath scorched in my sadist ways� right away, I know I�ll never come around. This world has destroyed itself. Addicted, we are all victims. Closing my eyes to blind myself� Don�t call my name� The poison falcon. Standing on the revolving platform� pulling myself closer, looking down at the endless spiral of pain. Invaded by the dreams� I still celebrate them. Void to the slots being filled in my head. Fogged out by the stitches in my eyes. Fickle dead memories can dance� WELL WELL WELL Funnels of dead episodes of my past taking over my eyes like a train falling off its tracks. My mind, under the water, tangled up, stalking the sweet nectar of the unknown, twisting the blade on the fingerprints on my heart. Blind and shaking. Star blood from the sixth of June, It�s clear that you never knew me. Adoration of tomorrows tears, �tis a beautiful sadness. Bewildered in the night A splinter that stays in the atmosphere. What we had was so unreal� I have to know� How could you steal this? My inner sense� I believed in something that was never there. Into my crypt, your body is my intimate pleasure� All doors close on the pure souls. Plunge the blade deeper� The lake is now a dark shade of orange. Let the sun goes down on your heart. I�m aware of my hunger. Tensing� watching your face grow white as snow� I never saw it coming. Dreams twisting their double sided lights, All haunting images of what I couldn�t let go, A blur has not been forgotten here� reaching for what colors I couldn�t say goodbye to. The torturous blasphemy� nails harnessed in my brain� the memories making my eyes bleed. Scrambling to my sliced feet, I stumble out to the fog. A bell tolls� and the ravens fly away� take a walk with me� A dead silent street is filled with red fog� Majestic self gain in sympathetic shreds. Love abandoned you, violent beauty, the past can be erased with a snap of a finger� or so I thought. Curious black blood impales my tested shredded soul. Serenity escapes through my fingertips. Blood red trails, and my blood red footprints devour my eyes, blind to all that is beautiful. Tree branches slitting my throat� Be surprised, my grief is yet freed. Waiting behind a mask� a faceless mage. I�d sacrifice everything to clear mistakes made. You�ll never know what you really mean to me. Let the victims hear the voices. The candles have been blown over� by the silent winds� Disaster floods into your hands Enthusiastic shrouds� pulsating neon dreams� lost to the insane. A line growing thin� I can feel your kiss� rain reflects the black blood behind me. Taking the blade� unable to cut the line� A damp mist holding it together. Driving the burning flesh out of my mind� I don�t know just who you are� your mouth on mine� Just look away� You don�t care what I am going to say� A wrong goodbye, a sorrowful haunted cry� Spider webs blocking my path� Icicles running from the broken strands� Misery� mixed with blunt stars, and a crimson touch. The ugly death of what we have become� darkness and light� the splitting of the moon� Orange and black dots begin to fill the void. Open your mind� beneath your heart� you�re a master at this, stalking people in their minds. Focus on the contradiction� Take my deceit. Voices calling from all around� I will never be one of them. All, for self gain� forever� you�re out of sight. Fragmented pity, selfish mounds, no more fears. Vicious mortals� guzzling up lies� Wickedness wiped on his sweet mouth. A splendid smile covers my face, compelling grace, in an awkward gesture. Crackling sounds� as the blood rushes from my arms� blazingly beautiful. No way to brush off the trance, merely paralyzed� bloody hands clenched at my chest� Unbroken Darkness� sweet burning blood and crushed flowers, effervescent colors surrounding him. White mists swirling up around me� my eyes filled with tears� my heart is suffocating Perfumed smoke rises up from the streetlights� forbidden to comfort me. Glittering blood finding it�s myriad little way over the margin of my lips. The coldest terror in my heart� rendered helpless, oblivious to the loss of blood. Seeing you in pain sooths me. Crucified with pleasure. Such a sweet face, not sweet enough to walk down the stair case. Smooth slices� Like feathers crossing over my skin� A stream of gloss, and gleam. �Shut up or I�ll slit your throat� the words loose their balance. Be prepared to love the heart inside others� My hands shaking uncontrollably, blood pouring into the cement� more, and more� Holding my hands out in front of my face� falling to the ground on my knees. A fire, flooding my eyes, my mark left. A profound reflection of my true self lingers in front of me. Vomiting as the pain passes over me. An ecstasy in the flesh. Foolishly, I shut my eyes� close off the darkness to my blind mind.
Lingering to the feeling of �loneliness� My faith had been crushed into a million �pieces� I want to find a dream that works�. �Die-- Where they don�t ask why� --cuffed� Where they don�t wonder� --to-- Where they don�t hate the weak �bleed-- Where they run around with bleeding hearts� --reality-- And a knife in both hands �violated� Silk dreams fade into sections �greed� Watching them cut the strands and still staring at you� --feelings-- Reaching to grab your hand�. �Selfish� I want to hold your vanishing body once more �touch� Running to where no one can find me, looking to the lake� looking to the trees for answers �life� Pacing around the room�. Seeing only your eyes� --blue� Why do I have to feel like this? �Fright-- Afraid to feel� --scared� Placing myself in front of others� --of� Repeating to myself� I hope you�re alright --what� Touching my fingers together� feeling the blood rush to my fingers--you� The blood from my heart is freed --might� I didn�t know pain could feel like this� hurting others� but being hurt� I never knew --be� I want to beat my heart out �you� Hearing the flowers I can hear your voice--mean� I can feel your kiss once more --so� Holding it dear, for I know it was the last --much� Tapping the glass rose� Looking to the trees� coiling around my mindless soul reaching for my past and retrieving the present --to� I want to be the look in your eyes� --me� Secrets divide among the lights in the sky �beauty� Unspoken I run my hand up and down the blade --unseen� My thoughts unspoke�. To afraid to cry� or afraid of what I might be �to� I want to read your thoughts --beautiful� Let my break into your heart� to cure all the pain --to� Digging the blade deeper into my soul� I need you here� by my side� --be� To feel your hand across my face� the warmth� the surprise --touched� Picking my life apart one by one�. Awkwardly sharp� buoyant in a different way� --show-- The sleeves of my expression are fading� I can only smile for so long �me-- Vanished from sight� I never thought I�d loose you� My� only� one�. �It-- Increased throbbing� no I think not� but my body says other wise� --can�t-- Confusing this for something real�. �Be-- A stroke of luck� making no attempt to escape�. �Done-- A sandstorm wells up in my body� your voice surrounding me�. Piercing me BLUE --alone-- The angels� dies playing the harp� the clowns die laughing in fear of their skull�. Under there skin �what-- A sparkle of purple floats past my eyes� --I-- Left behind in the obscure garden�. I no longer ask myself these questions foolish children never knew �want-- So much hidden behind the smile� I�m not as happy as I seem�. �To-- The axis of time threw me away today �do-- I�ve run away from everything� I�ve failed to make you� failed to save you� --for-- My hands are clenched trying to bring my anger down to a neutral petal� --you-- Keeling down to a world that has thrown my away� --I-- Shrewd dark eyes fill my aura --need-- Careful consideration, I know I�m insane�. Insane for everything� translucent dolls waver in my thoughts �you-- I want to screw my eyes shut and escape the misery left behind in a trail of flames left behind by me �here-- My arms are wrapped tightly around my drawn-up knees �I�ll-- I need not sustain the worst damage that is yet to come� please� I�m on my knees crying� asking. �be-- Pleading with a host that always glances away �waiting-- Your touch stimulated the flow of blood �right-- Rigorously trying to heal the tension in from of your horrified yes� --by-- �It�s alright� it�s alright�� �your-- I stare at you hopelessly for a moment �side-- A shocked reaction shattered us both �hold-- Impossible. Molded effortlessly into my heart �what-- A fortress more threatening than intended �you-- Lust created in fields of purple� I watch the sparkles pass by� not asking for any one� --lost-- But to have you by my side �you-- I�had a sense of doom�. �left-- Metallic pebbles. Someone is approaching �what-- Disappointed in the laws of faith� --you-- �I never stopped. Not for a moment�� �hate-- Raw willpower and tenacity �please-- Scrambling to my feet, may I lie down beside you? �forgive-- Set off to the dark streets �this-- Maneuvers I wish I never made �evil-- Penetrate my clear cut. Then love. �secret-- http://www.geocities.com/sighzofginnema/mind_expa
God no longer wants me here tonight I no longer trust anyone, everyone shotting lies in every dirction, like a rose tintid triangle on fire... telling me to jump through it Cold hands run down my pale wrists... Tiping my head gazing at the skin... If that's what you want to call my tatterd cloth... I'll never be free from this place... dancing spirts engulf me... they attempt to save me, throwing me against poisoned trees... The virutes people lack.. all reasons lost to the insane can't you see... obsession from hell I drown in my black blood... My black tears tearing m,y heart apart... alone against the walls My curtian is closing... cement is falling from the sky... Instant bloodrush letting the pieces gouge out my eyes... or what is left of the them Pshycopathic pleasure...kill me for I want to die Non-exsistnat pleasure... let me wrap my hands around your throat... Digging my nails into the the fine flesh... Watch it all die... watch it run from ever diretion... colouring your body with eternity, I want you dead... Close off the axis of time. Bitter tears fall from my wrists... piercing my soul blue... Digging my nails into the cut... wanting more... wanting that feeling that lingers after every time... that feeling of you no longer there, the reaction... the pain fogs my eyes... blinding me with pleaure... tearing my life apart, one by one. Do I no longer seem alright? Shattering my heart with your lies... Or... is it... Let me perform my own surgery Touching the glass pieces colourd with beauty only seem through these eyes... The internal interferance will always linger on my tounge... The razor coloured sepia... twisted mind... One day I shall tranfer my tears to you... how would you like to be my puppet? Once again no faith is left... Benith my flesh, the skull answers my call A faint HISS in my earblack powder covering the white faced moon... lying on the ground... tears dropping to the ground... holding myself in these cold arms tonight... locked everything out The voice of the blood and the fog... sqinting my eyes.. A butterfly in a display case Stroking the velvet cuts... my first comprehension... the first thing I understood... I don't want you. Cheated out of my day... white and clean walking down the winding staircase... my left hand on the rail... formerly deserted Never again will I trust myself... No, not this time... SUNdown... paralyzed in this land of darkness My hand gleaming red, above that I saw nothing A shadow... he grimaced as we wiped a tear from his heart I shush myself, anious for more, I don't want to go back. Frozen tears will alawys be cold and slick on these fingers... this is how i feed myself... I dare you... try and comfort me for a little while... I don't want to become what i am for this world spins on the axis of time May society feel my blackend blood I deserve to be melted out of this world Lust refeltcting in the shadows dead branches twist around your voice Innocence was never there Pulsating dreams Let the harm hinder I won't wait for you haunted by burning flesh I will sacrifice all emotion ...let it end... I've never been more alone...screaming inside the box of little knowledge... a dangerous thing indeed behind the Moon lit glass wall..I want my heart to explode... and the blood to run down your lips... ...I'm crying... In this world of hate I hide everything from you anergy... Eternal death... I sooth myself by repeating... "don't be afraid" Faint smears of blood remain Slowly unhooking the fastenings of life Blow me a kiss before I take the last drop and slit your pretty throat Now, who's fucking with who... Crooked dreams... swallowing the razor... singing with blood running out of the corners of my mouth... Listen to the horrified screams... Yank the razor out of my esophagus Look, I'm your little sideshow... the one no one cares for... Glance into the mirror my knees are drawn up to my chest... She look's alright... The spirtis have pinned me in this position Blue under this translucent mask Enjoy the feel of it on your skin. I'm dried a darker shade of blue Checking my chest to see if a heart is still underneath... no sound.. My pupils dialte as I fall to the ground... fuel my fire... with acrystal candlestick to my head Plunge the needle into the streetlight... The lights are a relic. Close your eyes... and then open them... Now, you see it's all gone.
Pain, and simple pleasure taken away by the darkness... I can't return... hidden hatred Snapping between my fingers cold... inside your arms Dulled by what you say Twisting my fingers in your webs of lies Listening to you... saying nothing... doing nothing... Dismissed, crucified, lie my corpse down Drawing a blank... my cards are blank Crimson icicles run down the walls... careless... of the daying pain I'm begging for a sleeping mirror into your mind Good night... Blue roses fall from the sky, as I lay motionless Paralyzed in the fear of becoming myself A body without a heart... A soulless corpse... A plead of where I want to be Reborn into your tears when I was in pain... Silk like skys chase after you I can't control this filthy mind... Can't... conrtol... the spiral Engrave my heart on a rock I can't control my urges I'm upsidedown looking into your naked mind Treatment blood running down my throat Into my black paradise I shall lay Seeing only nightmare, cut the silence, the blue moon has crossed the red moon Dissapear into disaster goodnight, and goodluck ladies and gentlemen
Even now like this My heart is nailed on your wall... for you fuck with I'm not living. Nightmare... morality... Nightmare... I wish Everything lies in a single mistake... Hypocrisy... and contraditcion Can I love? Give me a laugh. This love that doesn't reach you, reaper of my shrouds The fogged streets scream... A torn apart stuffed animal cries alone in the road... Look at me now before time ends... remember I was the one who fucked you up Your final slumber Let your lies seep into your cuts on tonight, this night Forever desolate Bear the silent tears... never cry.... ALLone Deep red flowers blossom in your heart In my sea of blood... w a t c h m e b l e e d Your shredding my heart with your laughter Rotten Fortress... watch it arise A think mist covers my imagination my ADDICTION It can't become words, nor do I want it to I went to hold your hand, but you shook it off as if it were a flea Over your shoulder you smiled at me It will be over before I know it... I close my eyes without changing anything in my heart, I gaze into your blood red eyes Just as I predicted... there is no e s c a p e Condemned, tell me what I have done Void to reality, what are you dreaming emptiness covers my lips... unrecognisable to my shadows Vague lies linger to your scars Blessed sins awaken from your hands... Dwelling on what you never knew Obscure howls... and a raven call The time has come... for you to admit to your lies.... Open the silver blade, let hatred flood your soul
Looking out the window, staring at the cold lake The glimmering lake penetrates purple, scaring me red, opening my wounds pink Don�t cry for me� I�m not permitted to care anymore The Midnight Lake is painted black� with a slight array of blue Your monochrome black eyes fade into a deadly shade of red Quickly free yourself from it� reach into your mind� heart� and soul I�ve seen the final colors, the lake cries, and the snowmelts� I can no longer bear simple tenderness Feel it� feel it strengthen inside� Standing by the window� leaning on the edge� touching my finger to image lookibg back at me I can�t hold back the feelings welling up inside my heart I can�t feel the tears falling down� but I can see them in the lake I can see the stars falling down, but I can�t love them Nothing is free� not even a tear Melting into black blood poured from your fingertips Psychopathic pleasures� hindering on the nothingness in your heart Pulsating dreams rise in the lake, letting the harm linger Sadness, loneliness, and that unchanging silence� and persistent loneliness I�m here to find the lost in the lake My faith bleeds into the lake The ripples pour lust-reflecting shadows upon me I can�t hide these scars of mine Colored into a new season� lost in these hands of mine Hurting each other� we keep trying to hide our wounds, but... It�s about time I got over mine These contradictory feelings subdued, I stand-alone Unknowingly my heart is crushed The lake is as bitter and callous as humans themselves are Torture radiates from the lost dreams� Looking forward to the blackened sky, I feel nothing The fog drapes its arms around my cold pale body Treatment blood tearing me down I�ll be waiting here for you� Alone� Kneeling in the lake, full of negativity Cutting throughout the superficial layer� with my dreams My hands are cold The don�t seem to understand the treatment the lake brings �They can�t fly on stolen wings� In the blue moonlight� I go down upon my knees and began to cry� Pull me closer to the energy in you I�ll never trust you again� The fog reflects shadows in the night� and a vague image of you� in a lost world of ice You waste your life destroying and hating everything around you I know my kind through innocence and blind� Seeing only dreams in the lake� red ribbons dance in the lake Wanting more than tears The lake no longer shines truth Wasting their lives destroying others hearts� in the center of time Treachery beyond belief� why could everything be inverted into the lakes eyes Holding the droplets in my hands� penetrating the colors of my hopes and emotions� molding it into the beat of my heart Holding my spider captive� the evil one My blackened pearl� my lonely love A girl to afraid to walk down the streets for what people will think of her� loving the lake� drowning for comfort The lake disappears in the fog� no longer scared to dream A shroud� wrapped, and bound to the locks that open your heart Love� dwindling into the vacuoles of hate Black widow spider� my stolen spider Holding myself in my cold arm� to protect myself from my rage My cold hands� the lack of my conscious Looking into the distance� this is no longer a dream� I�m begging myself for mercy I haven�t lost control� No, not yet I can see your eyes through the control I have kept I see the people as they are The lake has brought you back to me Empty words� better than words full of lies My emotion is feigned I�ve told myself for a long time� the longer I wait for you, the longer I know you will never come back Reaching for you hand by extending mine�reach out� to someone The spider crawls back to his resting place� lying on the pure imperfect snow surrounding the lake I sit on a chair near the window� pondering if the lake was ever real Or if it was a scrap of my dreams Stained to my feet, I look behind me to only see you are gone Is it night? Or is it dawning? The rose petals lay on the ground� buried in the snow� I�m waiting for you� in a dream� locked in a casket
I�m tired of being held in your arms� I�m tired of looking into your pale eyes� forces are driving me to look away The pierrot stops dancing� just to torment you, it gazes into your eyes� pumping black blood into your veins� I dare you� scream I took the hand that you drew near me� and you strangled me Before my very eyes� you scream a terrible shroud of bitter innocence� �tis beautiful rapture to my ears Without laughter, you stare at the red razor that freed me� the shimmering innocence of the blade Another me is whispering into your ear� filling your mind with lust filled dreams The tormenting that has bestowed on you, was it her or I? I want to break away, striking myself with selfishness� striking myself with something I have never felt before I don�t want your words; I no longer want to hear you, the Pierrot speaks for you� bleeding red blood from his little finger tips As if I could stop myself� it was for love� my light one would call love I will decide you, the fate of your pathetic little soul Why can�t you understand or feel the way I do? Why do you force your thoughts inside me�? A pale familiar ghost walks into my heart touching its hands with mine Lowering my head, I give everything up� loosing control of the maddening thoughts inside my head� The coffin spins on the axis of time and the wheel slowly stops turning� bleeding blue blood The lights reflecting through the tree branches makes my heart pound in pain� Looking up, releasing my hands from my face� I can see the pure snow falling The lights carry the merry side of my destiny The disturbance in the sky entwines its arms around your frail motionless body The rainbow embraces the black shadow being held in my hands A pale ghost�s soft embrace touches my hollow hands I�ll be waiting� feast on my emotions Behind the light I can�t reach� beautiful, dazzling, yet to tender to touch I am maneuvered by the dictator of time� purple blood arises from your pale face Only one flame is sent to the darkness� slowly closing my eyes, it can�t be retrieved Digging my razor sharp nails into my face and dragging them down� down�. D O W N � letting the droplets of life filter my heart Darkness overflowing my heart, and arising from my feet, slowly moving it�s way up to my hands� I�m used in despair� so sad I can�t stand up Vanished, abandoned angels drop their pearled tears on the razor Cutting the seconds, I drive it in further� deeper� Dreadfully quick I stop my little breaths and turn around to see feeling drained from your eyes� your smile has fled your violent face Hanging on the verge of sorrow, will I ever see the truth? I ask� bleeding crimson blood I can bear the pain alone, running in an endless labyrinth, show me you don�t care My vision is a blur, and has become tainted with wounds� No hesitation, but my hands are shaking� waiting for a shroud from my ghost Sepia-colored eyes haunt me� and continue to chase me through the labyrinth� holding my hand to my eyes to block the vibrant lights Time breaks my piece of mind, and I awaken from my dream Not being able to predict my destiny is destroying my rose colored heart Now� everyone closes his or her eyes�. A loss of aqua marine blood A gap forms between the clouds, and I see you grinning� turning away, your coat and hair being entranced by the wind I take back all the words I said� with my temper flaring at the thought and images of you I am no longer concealed in the blinding light You�ve crushed something� that was so beautiful to me� that I don�t ever want again
