Seed, gotta let it grow
Why ya gotta watch when I let it feed?
Better look into the mirror for the face
You hide away everyday
But I don't give a fuck
I let it roll - I smoke the old
Gotta run, gotta rend,
Gotta maim, gotta make it
Through another maze
Stay away
Please wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you
Looking at me
Motherfucker, get inside
Get inside, get inside
(Motherfucker)
Christ, have you seen this guy?
Make ya sick
Gonna peel away all the impurities
Cuz all you wanna do is
Keep curin' me, but I don't give a fuck
I kill everyone
You'll be mopping up blood
And guts and all the shit
When I'm done
Isn't this fun?
Gimme a gun and
I'll tell you all the secrets I hide
Before I run
Please wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you looking at me
Motherfucker, get inside
Get inside, get inside
(Motherfucker)
Maybe if you look away
I can slip away, gotta get away
(Run, motherfucker)
Right now I stare at shit
I'm a heretic, but I'll never give you
None of it
Tied up in the back of the lab,
Laid on the slab
Got the gift of gab
What you want from me?
I don't even know
I got a damn disease
But I know you wanna kill me
Please wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you looking at me
Motherfucker, GET INSIDE!
Get inside, get inside
(Motherfucker)
Orchids
You hold me inside your iris
Like a terminal stain on life
You condescend to my primal brain
And twist me around like a knife
Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy
Planning your epitaph
Let me tell you
Don't try to be the One
Person who has stayed
Just to say they never left me!
Aggravated, complicated,
Someone say it
God, I never learn...
You keep me hidden behind a curtain,
An audible human display
You feed me orchids to give me courage
And keep me in line with disdain
Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy
Planning your epitaph
Let me tell you
Don't try to be the one
Person who has stayed
Just to say they never left me!
Aggravated, complicated,
Someone say it
God, I never learn...
I have nothing left for you...
You left me with nothing
I live at arm's length and die a little,
Between your constants by day
I want my soul back before it's over,
I can't even wish you away
Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy
Planning your epitaph
Let me tell you
Don't try to be the one
Person who has stayed
Just to say they never left me!
Aggravated, complicated,
Someone say it
God, I never learn...
I never learn
Cold Reader
I can only hurt your case
It's written on your face
You always come to me
I won't be used, but...
I can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up the door
No! I won't! I can't!
Not anymore!
One more time and
I think I'll fucking die!
Why?
Do I always
Have to suffer the consequences?
Stay away from who I am
Cuz I know what you are
I can't believe you're here
Then again, you know that
I can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up my soul, oh...
No! I won't! I can't!
Not Anymore!
One more time and I think
I'll fucking die!
Why?
Do I always
Have to suffer the consequences?
Stop I know your goddamn game
It's always been the same
The story hasn't changed
Neither will you, but
I can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up my soul
No! I won't! I can't!
Not anymore!
One more time and
I think I'll fucking die!
Why?
Do I always
Have to suffer the consequences?
Blotter
I only wanted, only wanted just to touch you
I couldn't bear it, couldn't bear it if you leave
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter if I scare you
I only wanted, only wanted someone else's skin
To feel you there
Touch my face
Keep me whole
Help me see my life
Give me your life
I didn't wanna, didn't wanna be the first one
I haven't ever, haven't ever been discreet
It isn't over, isn't over by a long shot
I didn't wanna, didn't wanna be the only one
To feel you there
Touch your face
Keep you whole
Help you see my life
Give me your life
Incredible and chemical
Before I show you where the secret is
I want to turn you into this
I want to give you all my nothingness
I want to cover you with this
See my life give me your life
Let me see my life
Give me your life
Incredible and chemical
Choose
Hear me
Remember all the times
You bent our truth and crossed our lines?
All things considered, it was just our normal way of life
But somewhere in the middle, we got caught and dragged away
So my tribunal brings us here so I can fall today
All you want is soulless
All you got to break us
All I have to do is
Stop your fucking nonsense
I can't betray!
I can't betray myself!
I stand before you as a victim
As the system rots
I couldn't focus, so
I staggered when I heard the shots
There are no labels and
No rehabilitation here
You are surrounded
By the very fucking thoughts you fear
All you want is soulless
All you got to break us
Hear me
All I have to do is
Stop your fucking nonsense
I can't betray!
I can't betray myself!
I watch the hope I had
Disintegrate before my eyes
I take a minute and reflect
On all your fucking lies
Behind the door, you have two choices,
But you don't get to choose
You can survive or you can die
Either way you lose
All you want is soulless
All you got to break us
All I have to do is
Stop your fucking nonsense
I can't betray!
I can't betray myself!
Choose!
Monolith
Is this wrong of me?
I've come so far so fast
I'm in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real to me!
I've consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean
Before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again
Can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again
Someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind
Am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin
Reveal this monolith within
Visions plague my dreams
Oh God, what beast did this?
I couldn't have
Oh Jesus, I just don't know
What's inside of me?
I've desecrated!
My god, I love to hate it!
My hands are bloody again
There's no reason why!
And I hear my wants and needs again
Can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again
Someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind
Am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin
Reveal this monolith within
And I hear my wants and needs again
Can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again
Can you stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind
Am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin
Reveal this monolith within
Within
Inhale
Come one and all and see the broken man
Talking to himself
He sits and waits for something better
He'll never find it here
The people touch his hair
And pinch his cheek
He can't even feel it
There it goes again
He's listening to someone
He hears the bitter laughter
And all he wants to know is
Why does any of it matter?
I can't take it anymore
You've gotta try
The inhale that makes
The exhale so much better
He wipes his hands on anything in reach
He never feels clean
He shakes at night
Because his nerve is gone
Every muscle hurts
Come one and all and see what happened
That broken man is me
There it goes again
I can hear it louder
It doesn't feel good anymore
All I want to know is
Why does any of it matter?
I can't take it anymore
You've gotta try
The inhale that makes
The exhale so much better
Now I know I disappear
I can't find my way from out of here
Everything is fading on me
Someone tell me
Someone tell me
Someone tell me
Why does any of it matter?
I can't take it anymore
You've gotta try
The inhale that makes
The exhale so much better
Why
You've gotta try
Bother
Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
With its memories
Diaries left
With cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I'll never live down my deceit
Blue Study
Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
I can feel the hands on me
Pulls me in so we are face to face
I don't wanna see it
I don't wanna see
Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes
Spots and rats on me
I don't wanna see
Claw the ground up
Get me out of this
Never wanted this
Never needed this
And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And I left you, too
Chair is stained and I can't stay awake
Bring forth evidence to keep me sane
I can't keep this riddle locked inside
Seven ways to keep my secrets tied
Can't believe this
I belong in chains
Separated, it was
Me and something else
Now I'm numbing
Get me out of this
Never wanted this
Never needed this
And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
Oh, but then I left you and
And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And I left you, too
Arms stretched out giving thanks to pain
Spotlight looking down
I'm ashamed
Kneeling with my forehead to the ground
I can't help but flinch before I'm found
I don't need you
Can't you see behind?
Doesn't matter now
Doesn't matter anymore
Maybe made me, get me out of this
Never wanted this
Never needed this
And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And motherfucker, then I left you and
And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And I left you, too
Safe! I just want to be safe!
Safe! I just want to be safe!
Safe! don't you want to be safe?
Safe! why can't you let me be safe?
Take A Number
Never even knew
What you meant to convey
You handed us a retrospect
'Til you didn't have a thing to say
No one questions you
Even someone set out to do
Now it's nothing...
But dead and gone
Let's go
Better with a lie
Than the world's ever seen
You wanted all the recognition
Until you lost the means
No one talks to you
Even someone set out to do
Take a number
Your time has come
Cuz you're another one
You're another soul to feed
To the man's machine
My excuses lay me down
My emotions make me drown
My endeavor takes blame
At least I have a name
Cuz you're another one
You're another soul to feed
To the man's machine
Idle Hands
Stuck to the dog
Pissin' out both ends
I got a hundred lethal weapons
That I call my friends
Ain't a person on Earth
Who could take my life
I wish they would
So a man could get some sleep at night
But my design is
A mixture of descent and decay
I see a monster in the mirror
Fucking everyday
Can a man ever wash his hands of blood?
Perpetual deja vu, isn't that enough?
Peel back the layers
And see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away
I swear it wasn't me!
See if you can relish
If you close both eyes
Every time I make an issue of it
Someone dies
Carried out like a hit man
Set in stone
Don't know why I even bother
To be left alone
In my opinion
It's a self-serving fucked-up phase
Got a picture in my wallet
That I keep, in case I
Gotta go, gotta split,
Gotta make it to a higher level than this
But I could be wrong
What I say is wrong
What I really want to say is...
Peel back the layers
And see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away - I swear it wasn't me
Run
It doesn't matter,
I need all the miracles
That I can gather
Run
I can't pretend
I put myself in idle hands again
Here's how it ends
Just a bit too soon
River deep in all the shit
I let myself get into
Doesn't anybody like it here?
Blank looks, television drama, no fear
Let another person
Fuck with your mind
I bet you become the person
Who will fuck in time
Man I just stopped caring
The music is blaring
I feel you glaring
Why won't you stop staring
Peel back the layers
And see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away
I swear it wasn't me
Run
It doesn't matter
I need all the miracles
That I can gather
Run
I can't pretend
I put myself in idle hands again
Get the fuck off of me
Tumult
Goddamn you
Haven't let you in
'Cause I'm in you
Haven't let you in
'Cause I'm in you
Must have been a bitch
Must have been a pain
Take me off the "innocent"
Put me in your vein!
It's improbable
It's improbable
Haven't said a word
'Cause you're still on
Haven't said a word
'Cause you're still on
Mustn't take offense
Mustn't take a bow
Used to be a derelict
Now I have to live with it!
It's improbable
It's improbable
It's improbable
You came back, but i know
Better, boy
Trip my light fantastic
Rub me in your wound
I'm not broken, I'm not plastic
I'm no whore
Used against me
Use me up again
It's improbable
It's improbable
It's improbable
You came back but I know
Better, boy
Sometimes I think I'm crazy
Other times I know I'm not
Got no time to time to time
(Once again)
You don't want me
You don't need me!
Omega
What a skeletal wreck of man this is.
Translucent flesh and feeble bones,
The kind of temple where the whores
And villains try to tempt the holistic domes.
Running rampant with free thought
To free form, and the free and clear.
When the matters at hand are shelled out
Like lint at a laundry mat to sift and focus
On the bigger, better, now.
We all have a little sin that needs venting,
Virtues for the rending and
Laws and systems and stems are ripped
From the branches of office,
Do you know what your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?
Wind down inside your atavistic galore,
The value of a summer spent, and a winter earned.
For the rest of us, there is always Sunday.
The day of the week the reeks of rest,
But all we do is catch our breath,
So we can wade naked in the bloody pool
And place our hand on the big, black book.
To watch the knives zigzag between our aching
Fingers. A vacation is a countdown,
T-minus your life and counting, time to drag
Your tongue across the sugar cube,
And hope you get a taste.
What the fuck is all this for?
What the hell's going on? Shut up!
I can go on and on but lets move on, shall we?
Say, your me, and I'm you,
And they all watch the things we do,
And like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs,
Haven't felt like this in years.
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse,
Let me go, and plunge me into the dead spot again.
That's where you go when there's no one else
Around, it's just you, and there was never
Anyone to begin with, now was there?
Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards
With their thumb on the pulse,
And a finger on the trigger.
Classified my ass! That's a fucking secret,
And you know it!
Government is another way to say "better than you."
It's like ice but no pick, a murder charge
That won't stick, it's like a whole other
World where you can smell the food,
But you can't touch the silverware.
What luck. Fascism you can vote for.
Isn't that sweet?
And we're all gonna die some day,
Because that's the American way,
And I've drunk too much, and said
Too little, when your gaffer taped in the
Middle, say a prayer, save face,
Get your self together and see what?s happening.
Shut up! Fuck you! Fuck you!
I'm sorry, I could go on and on but
It's time to move on so.
Remember: you're a wreck, an accident.
Forget the freak, you're just nature.
Keep the gun oiled, and the temple cleaned.
Shit, snort, and blaspheme,
Let the heads cool, and the engine run.
Because in the end, everything we do,
Is just everything we've done.
1. Get Inside
2. Orchids
3. Cold Reader
4. Blotter
5. Choose
6. Monolith
7. Inhale
8. Bother
9. Blue Study
10. Take A Number
11. Idle Hands
12. Tumult
13. Omega
