Also are some pictures of the band that I was able to dig up at various other websites.
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What makes me think that
it'll all work out in the end
Afraid to feel bad,
better off to try and pretend
I'm immortal,
immune to all that is wrong
Just keep on wishing,
crossing my fingers so long
Is this helping,
I'm growing weaker each day
Can't stop whining,
still afraid of what I might say
Or reactions, that control us one and all
It's mine, it's pure and,
as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know,
only the strong survive
Why don't you think about that
So now I'm bleeding
on myself, yes once again
Seems I trusted another decietful friend
My fault, should've known the deal
Keep your friends close,
but your enemies closer for real
Seems easy, but nothing could be so hard
Trying to guess life's dealing,
what's the next card
I'm surely folding,
I don't like this hand at all
It's mine, it's pure and
as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know
only the strong survive
Keep those eyes wide open,
here comes a blind side
Maybe things happen for a reason,
and wherein lies the answer
To overcome the grieving,
of life's unruly lessons
I'm handed in sucession,
it builds my pain which makes me strong
It's mine, it's pure and
as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know
only the strong survive
Why don't you think about that
PAYBACK
There's another reflection involved up in my mind
A wholeness that has just been lost
Striving hard for perfection
but still nothing to find
Some value with a cheaper cost
And as I reach out to hear you
the sound is so muffled
It makes a lesser man of me
So the only thing left to bring up to date is
You suck!
Watch me fall and when I go down
I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with me
then I'll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systematic hype
still means a bit much to me
I'm at the point of retraction
and still slipping further
This place is getting worse for me
There's such a lack of direction
and models to live by
No bright skies ahead of me
And as I reach out for your hand
you turn and then wander
Why I simply just can't see
No seperation of gender
no difference in me
You're just leading me on and on and on
You lead me on and on and on and on
You suck!
Watch me fall and when I go down
I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with me
then I'll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systematic hype
still means a bit much to me
Pretty soon it's gonna come back
and be your turn
Pretty soon you're gonna be the one that burns
Your turn now
Watch me fall and when I go down
I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with me
then I'll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systemat hype
still means a bit much to me
A bit much to me
MY LETTER
This is my letter to you
We started following a certain description.
We started simple and fair once again
Before there wasn't any need for an answer
Things were much different then
But now you question who I am.
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide.
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright.
It's been rough for me
thinking all night.
About the places I'd be
If I maybe,
just did a little bit more
You might've let me,
become a man for sure
And if I might,
express one concern
it seems an issue.
All day at every turn
What's the next step,
the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn now
What's next for me to learn
Engulf myself into a permanent mystery.
No one day just as the next.
not for me
It's so confusing when I look at my history.
I just can't handle that yet.
No
Now you question who I am
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're all right
It's been rough for me
Thinking all night
about the places I would be
If I maybe
just did a little bit more
You might've let me
become a man for sure
And if I might
express one concern
Seems an issue
all day, at every turn
what's the next step
the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn
One more friendship ends.
And then for awhile.
I can breathe again
Hope you're all right
It's been rough for me
Thinking all night
about the places I'd be
If I maybe
just did a little bit more
You might've let me
become a man for sure
And if I might
express once concern
Seems an issue
all day, at every turn
What's the next step
the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn
What's next for me to learn
GET UP AGAIN
Here we go again
A very temperamental process,
beginning with all of our excess
Affecting our very own ingest,
this side of you is speechless
Overwhelmed with an abscess,
creating new diseases
And infecting whomever it pleases,
we've been living this way for too long, too long
Then I noticed a difference,
in the way that I saw other insects
Who were living a life of indulgence,
sheltered by their parents
Such an unlucky existence,
not given a chance to experience
And make their own decisions,
I wouldn't trade my own mistakes at all
Reach out your hands
Out for the ones who,
aid when the going gets rough
Until the end.
These are the ones who,
help when the times get tough
And times will get tough.
Get up again.
Times will get tough.
Get up again
Here it comes once again
WHOLE
So maybe I am bound by fate
A problematic scarring,
induced by hate
It never seems, to all pan out
Is that what all this teaching,
is needed to scout
You seemed to have,
a bad effect
Your rules and contradictions,
I would neglect
Though not my fault,
you made me feel
Like my own education wasn't truly real
Then you came right in,
tearing out my soul
How could all this loss,
be your only goal
I'm left standing here,
desperate in the cold
Since you took your life,
mine has not been whole
So there I stood,
a scolded child
The reasons never questioned,
my pain's been filed
Inside this place,
that makes me feel
I learned life is unfair, and that is very real
Then you came right in
tearing out my soul
How could all this loss
be your only goal
I'm left standing here
desperate in the cold
Since you took your life
mine has not been whole
My life is just not whole
While you try to overcome the lesson
Making the most of those questions
that just keeps me guessing
I'm looking longer, harder, further
than I ever have
Solitude breaking me down,
you always seemed glad
To put me down
and stick me in that little pit
Personal growth as a child
that mattered not a bit
Then I became
the person that you hated most
Disrepecting the father, son and holy ghost
A small example
of what the things you've done to me
Have changed in my little life
and changed the things that I can't be
I'll never be
Then you came right in
tearing out my soul
How could all this loss
be your only goal
I'm left standing here
desperate in the cold
Since you took your life
Mine just has not been whole
My life is just not whole
AMENDMENT
Come on embrace your fate
Engulfed up in the rat race
we hold our futures down
So just resist the plot
and find the answer etched eternal
as we self destruct
day by day
one by
one more example of disrespect
that you seem to offer no more than
complete neglect
a generation with fate all tied
this ain't a game
we dont enjoy this ride
try to perceive the lie
all caught up in your own high
opinions of yourself should be
concerned about your life
there's been enough strife
to crash a persons hope
and as the days delay
our every other move we've been
consumed by apathy
that's right
it has become a pain
inside my brain is screaming
look what you've done to me
one more example of disrespect
that you seem to offer no more than
complete neglect
a generation with fate all tied
this ain't a game
we don't enjoy this ride
Break
its just the break we're givin' 'em
Break
its just the break that you're givin' 'em
Break
laid to waste out in the open
turned away once again
this isn't right
this ain't supposed to happen
now life's too short
we shouldn't have to die
and I have had to stop
all of my emotions
why oh bittering faith escapes agian,
agian just look at what we have done
will you look at who we've become
priorities astray
it goes on and on each day
we've wrecked their only try
and still we wonder why
we're recipients
Of hate
Motherfucker break your back just once
and then you know you gotta face
your fright that's right
yeah with your five second morals
and your three second smile
you just face your fright
that's right yeah with your five second morals
and your three second smile
you just face your fright that's right
yeah with your five second morals
and your three second smile
you just face your fright that's right
yeah with your five second morals
and your three second smile
SCHEME
It woke up in me years ago,
how this was meant to me
All of those falsehoods plain to see,
they dug and hung their greed
Will there be profit you could see,
if only we were blind
Lonely and sheltered,
your life is free but
it's still one step behind
Just like me,
they tied their rules on me
They tied their rules on me
They tied their rules on me, me, me
I broke those chains and fucking split
And so you, and so you,
and so you, and so you
Pass all the facist asses,
ignore those classes,
of bottleneck masses
Producing an all but awful stench,
Delivering a section of all the money
stole and spent
As you start to recognize,
you're in the game
Growing afflictions head to toe,
this never should have been
But placing blame is cowardly,
restructure must begin
Will there be profit you could see,
if only we were blind
Lonely and sheltered your life is free,
but it's still one step behind
Yes and the playing board is you............
WHAT I HAVE TO DO
Well it seems as though,
everyone's been led astray
far away from
From what we know,
still can't find a reason
or the right words to say,
it'll be ok
Wrapped up in all the
things that are wrong
It's the only trial so far,
as the verdict falls down
you still break away
Caught up in a social degradation,
you can't even see the truth
We're only half as good
at personal relations,
look around and see the proof
Only a few of us go in the right direction,
even though we're singled out
It's the only thing that
keeps me alive,
I do what i have to do
How was I to know,
force fed corporate trials each day,
every single day
But we must grow,
echoing the single most important thing in the way
Wrapped up in all the
things that are wrong
it's the only trial so far
as the verdict falls down
you still break away
Not slipping, drifting, falling,
one step further from the norm,
what is the norm
Not living, longing, trying
so much harder than before
What if I, what if I,
run
far away
Would i still be seen the same,
break away
It's what I want
INNER STRENGTH
Here we sit,
all alone in an outnumbered fight
Led to decipher between wrong and right
And some may fail,
at this joke that some of us call life
Yes at this game that some call life
But the system can't bail me out of hell
I've made this discovery and it has helped
All i've got is myself,
I have faith in that
Believe and one day,
you'll do just as well now
As you were, you little puppet,
you pauper, you freak, that's right
That's what some of them have said to me
So I object, and try to figure things out for myself
I'm building up full emotional wealth
The inner strength, is what the hate,
it wants us not to feel
It's time that we helped,
there's no room to fail
You already know the way out of hell
All we got is ourselves,
I have faith in that
Believe and one day
We'll put the system in jail,
we'll put the system in jail
I made it through, scraped black and blue
But so can you,
I made it through, so black and blue
But you can too,
I made it though scraped black and blue
But so can you,
i've made it through
We'll all make it through
BEST I AM
Long.
I've Been
Running away for far too long
Afraid of what
Afraid of what I know
is soon to come
I may not be much of
an example right now
But I can give you all of
my knowledge on how
to get along in this place
right now all I can say
Is that I will do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that
You'll understand
you deserve the best that I am
you deserve the best that I am
It's so hard
so hard to think about when
I was child
so angry at life
I blamed the world for
such a long long time
But
Things happened so quickly
some people just go
I needed answers to heal me
I wanted to know
how to get by
and now its my turn to say
That I will do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that
You'll understand
You deserve the best that I am
You deserve the best that I am
This is all for you
everything in this world
everything in my world
everything in your world
things won't always
go right in this life
there's always changes
we'll make it
That's why I gotta do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that you'll understand
You deserve the best that I am
You deserve the best that I am
OUT OF WHACK
Maybe noboday told you about this life
Maybe nobody answered your questions why
Simple revelations, they come in tine
Those liars told us things would all be fine
Born out of whack, give him something possible,
you thought it would've mattered
Not likely to change things,
we've come too far
Where innocent young kids
are put behind bars
But it's an easy decision
banished so far
You're not as civil as you think you are
You say we're all all born out of whack
Well, don't act so suprised now,
there's been a lot going on
Since you realized that we're
all just kids trying to get along
So answer one thing
Are you gonna stay inside,
are you gonna stay inside our minds?
Are we all born wrong?
RELIANCE
So you think the area's gray,
but it continues each day
A bad example of the attitude you portray
Act like I owe you my life,
you should be burdened with strife
Can't find a single reason
I could live with you as my wife
So I continue to pray,
and hope that you'll go away
A bad addiction to a home wrecking thing who plays
With my heart, and that's the bottom line
I feel so empty
What can you give me,
I can't give myself
And what part of my life can you fix,
that I can't fix my damn self
God I'm losing patience each day,
I've put myself in harm's way
Can't seem to justify
none of the shit you say
Can't find another way out,
there's nothing left but pure doubt
I'm on the verge of pulling my hair straight out
So if you listen to me,
not to the powers that be
We're not supposed to be together
can't you see
Indecision is the bottom line,
I feel so empty now
I'm gonna show you now,
this time i'm getting out
I've said it many times,
but this time I have figured out
Just how I'm moving on,
it's taken way too long Inside
I know I'll feel much better,
when you're really gone
ONE MORE TIME
There must be something you can recommend.
I have lost my faith in man again
So sick of trying to pretend.
Same pain over and over again
How much longer do you think we'll stand.
So little left here to live for
By the time my life is at its end.
I want it back
one more time
Let me try one more time.
Live my life one more time
We never seem ready for this
It keeps on haunting me day after day.
Am I going about things the right way
Which truth's to pass
and with which truth's to say
It's all so hard
I'm just so damn afraid
Had about as much as I can take.
So little left here to live for
By the time my life is at its end.
I'll want it back
I need the chance to
live my life one more time
Give me the chance to live my life one more time
1. Only The Strong
2. Payback
3. My Letter
4. Get Up Again
5. Whole
6. Amendment
7. Scheme
8. What I Have to Do
9. Inner Strength
10. Best I Am
11. Reliance
12. Out of Whack
13. One More Time
