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He would ask so many questions about my thoughts and ideas my views....
master_nomad: want to know you, big things, little things things others would not think of asking."
Yet when came time to ask of Him, He was a very private man and was only beginning to open up to me even after so many months. For six weeks He was gone and i did not know where or why. Some said accept He is not coming back, had moved on, it happens. But i knew the man, and that was not His way. I knew that and held tight to that faith and belief. on His return we talked for hours about what was ahead for Him what He was going to be facing. He offered to release me but i knew whatever came i was going to be there for Him just as long as He allowed. He used to ask me ...
master_nomad : tell Me..what do you have?"
It took me time to realize what He was asking i look back at my answer and realize now how simple it was and laugh at how i struggled to understand what He was asking.
still_simply_s: You ...a man i trust with all i have...all i am... a faith that tells me will not be lied to ....will not be used or betrayed or hurt . a Master who makes me a better me, who accpepts me with all my faults and is willing to guide me and make me see how much more i can be.
Was important to Him always that i know what we shared was more then a sexual encounter...more then simply orders given and followed . He cared about what people think and felt and wished for. He cared about helping me be a better me. In the past some told me i was not "a true sub" and i let them convince me that perhaps was true. They said i was too strong, too verbal, too quick to chat with others when should have been giving all my attention to them. That i did not hold back my views and desires as a "true sub" would and follow their guidlines on how i should behave and deal with things . i see now it was just that i had not met the one who would bring me to my knees willingly, and that is not something that can be forced He never made me feel the need to change those things. He told me was what attracted Him to me why would He then want to change them..change me.
master_nomad : thou is your mind that stimutales Me "
master_nomad : as I've seen how strong you've become "
master_nomad : in a few ways."
master_nomad : one..no matter which room you go to,,you know you have a Alpha Master "
master_nomad : one that will lay back,,but knowing I'm here when needed "
master_nomad : a strong sub? aye,,a strong women,omg yes "
master_nomad : thou,,one that needs One,,to guide her,,as you've walk alone for so long. "
He made me feel pride in my strength where others made me feel the need to hide it Was not until after His return that He had me change from still_simply_s to still_Nomads_s
still_simply_s:.you had told me did not feel a sub needed to carrry His name....to know where belonged. i understood this and had no problem keeping my name unchanged Sir You know that. "
master_nomad : aye that I did "
master_nomad :But wanted you to wear it as I know how happy you'd be and you have shown Your true strengths. now want all to see that you are Mine, and I am yours. Is how it is and how it shall remain"
master_nomad : as being Mine is a two way street "
still_simply_s: know it is one i wear with pride "
I did wear His name with pride..always. Some doubted Him, doubted U/us in HIs long absences. but i never did. I knew in my heart.