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Duo looked at his head resting by his hand. He had been watching Heero for the last hour, listening to him breathe. He ran his hand through his disheveled hair and let out a long sigh. And after almost five months, after such a long time, he let himself smile.

Heero had been with him all this time. Forcing him to feed, bathing him, soothing him when he had a bad dream, drying his tears. He had always dried his tears.

He drew him into the bed.

"Hmmmm….Duo?" he said waking himself.

"Hush Heero, come under the covers, it's cold." He said holding the blanket up. Heero reluctantly joined him in the bed looking at him as if he'd gone mad rather than display the first sign of sanity in almost five months. Duo chuckled at this.

"Listen I am tired and I don't want to talk about this, can we just let it go for now?" He pleaded. Heero nodded apprehensively and laid his head on the pillow beside Duo's, he too was tired.

He stiffened as Duo wrapped his arms around him and his heart stopped as he felt his breath warm his neck. He had not been this close to Duo in such a long time. He closed his eyes and tried not to think as he felt his shirt being undone and soft hands explore the skin on his chest. Nimble hands began to wind their way into his trousers. He held his breath in anticipation, not wanting to move lest this dream should end. And as he felt Duo's hand close around him drew his hand away.

He faced his brother's questioning face. "I am sorry for everything." he said his eyes not meeting Duo's. "If I could take back everything I would. If I could bring you back to where you were most happy I would. But I can't." he whispered placing his forehead on the younger boy's.

"I am not asking you to Heero." He whispered stroking his cheek. "Let's just let it go." And he closed his eyes as he turned in the older boy's embrace and placed his head on his shoulder. Something they had done when they were children. Something that had always made everything all right.

***

They never talked of those five months, nor was Trowa's name ever spoken again.

"Look." Catherine pointed to the roses growing beside the pond. "Aren't those beautiful?"

"Yeah." He agreed, his eyes straying to the figure in the tower talking with his generals. "When will Heero join us?"

"Well, he isn't actually available at this moment."

"That's stupid." He huffed marching up the stairs and barging in to the room.

" Duo!" Noin greeted him.

"What are you doing here Duo?", Treize asked.

"Kidnapping the prince!" he smiled taking Heero's hand and pulling him away.

"Wha…" the other generals exclaimed while Noin laughed.

"Oh let them have their fun." She said taking her sword and leaving the room.

***

Duo came running down the hill dragging his older brother with him.

"Duo!" he called as they stopped before the reed birds' pond. "What do you think you are doing? I was in the middle of a very important meeting!"

"What could be more important than spending time with your favorite brother?"

Duo sat down beside the pond motioning for Heero to do the same. When he did so Duo wrapped his arms around his waist and sighed placing his head on the taller boy's shoulder. Heero sighed.

"You can't keep doing this Duo." He whispered after some time.

"I know. Just let me get away with it huh?" he stopped watching the fishes swim by. "I wish I could stay like this forever." Heero stopped looking at his younger brother.

"Come on!" he said after some time, getting up and dusting his trousers. Heero slumped, disappointed that it should end so soon. But he got up nonetheless and began to head toward their summer castle, where they had brought Duo to recuperate.

"And where are you going?" he turned around to find Duo with his hand on this waist. He pointed at the castle gates and Duo sighed, exasperated as he pulled his brother by the hand and led him into the woods.

***

They began walking, faces bathed by the sunlight that fell from the forest's canopy. Saying nothing. Holding each other's hands.

Duo looked at his older brother. He was walking faster than he was and he could only see a small part of his profile from behind. He sighed.

Ever since that night when he fell asleep in his arms something had changed within him. And in the months that followed, as he saw his brother slowly return to his duties as successor he found himself longing for those nights when he watched over him, never leaving his side. Something refused to be kept in the shadows once more.

Something shifted to their right and a doe jumped across their path. Heero looked back at Duo and his eyes seemed to scream 'did you see that?' and Duo chuckled.

When they were growing up Heero had always played with him. No matter how tired he was from his lessons he always obliged when he wanted a piggy-back ride or a cookie. At night when he got scared he would run to Heero's room and slip inside his bed. Closing his eyes and feeling secure in his heat. He was the one that first gave him a bird's nest he was the one that had always made him wooden boats. He was his best friend.

And ever since Trowa left, he had always taken care of him. He actually had a crush on his older brother, but he never told anyone for fear of being shunned. He would spend the night thinking of him. Wishing he could crawl into his bed once more.

And when Trowa came back, it was all a blur. His need to be touched, his loneliness, his estrangement from them, it all meshed into this haze that entangled him and made him fall in love with someone he wasn't supposed to. So much like the promise he made. He would do everything in his power to take that pain away. Everything.

Perhaps in his need to take this pain away he had forgotten to consider the consequences of what he was doing. The pain blinding him and Trowa's touch so gentle and warm. Perhaps he felt a bond with someone who, like himself was betrayed by the family he loved. Perhaps he was not suppose to love him. Perhaps he was already in love with someone else.

And he could not shake the feeling that he had betrayed Heero.

Now as he watched his brother walk with him, something fluttered to the surface, a feeling long since buried. And he decided he was ready to start over again.

"Where are we going Duo?" he asked stopping. Duo came up beside him and smiled.

"Nowhere." Heero just looked at him, held his hand tighter and walked on.

***

It was getting dark and they had wandered so far into the forest lost in each other that they had forgotten the time. They needed to feed.

Heero placed a finger on his lips motioning for Duo to listen. A man was shivering the trees' shadow. He moved closer praying it wasn't the blonde that he had shared a moment of weakness with months ago. He was only a complication that would ruin any chance he had with Duo. Not that he was hoping.

He sighed relieved, it was an old man. They closed in on him, not making a sound. Their eyes, bright with the hunger feeding them from within. Heero came behind him, pinning his arms as Duo came and lowered his lips to the frightened old eyes. He kissed him once siphoning all the life he had inside, forcing the man to die and leave his legacy behind.

He stood up and drew Heero into his embrace.

"No. I can find another." He whispered drawing away reluctantly.

"We can share him for now." Duo answered needing to keep Heero in his arms. And he closed the distance between them. Force-feeding Heero the life he had in his mouth. Their lips lingering. He held on tighter to the taller boy's neck.

Heero closed his eyes. Feeling the soft breathing against his skin. His hands strayed to his waist desperate to breach the space between them. Pulling him closer, his tongue meeting his in the middle. He felt Duo's hand begin to caress his neck, the other falling on his chest, he found his tangling themselves in his partner's long hair, relishing the feel of it.

Duo swallowed, the life on his lips soon becoming an intoxicating poison that pulled them into a dark pit of ecstasy. It heightened every feeling, every scent, every sound. He felt the other's heart race and his own blood rush down below his waist.

Heero stopped, he heard it. A soft moan crushed between their lips. And he wanted to pull away but his body had taken over. He wanted this. He needed this. He felt him stiffen against Duo, ashamed at first until he felt Duo's own pushing against his.

And as they lay on the ground he knew he could no longer stop. Nothing would be able to make him stop. He felt frantic hands pull his shirt out of the way. His own almost tearing Duo's garments off. And as he settled back on top of his now bare-chest brother the feel of skin on skin made him pause for a moment. Did he really want this?

"Heero…" it was a plea. A god-answering plea. And he let go.

Duo tilted his head and moaned as he felt Heero's hand come into his trousers and caress him, he arched into his touch, a little too enthusiastic. He too had wanted this for so long. All those nights alone, pleading that he dream of blue eyes and hands callused but gentle. Now here he was flesh and blood, eyes closed, breath ragged as his, his body trembling as well.

Heero brought his hand slowly up and down Duo. His eyes never leaving the beautiful boy's face beneath him. His fingers rubbed against his smooth skin and rested upon his tip coaxing, demanding, teasing. Small words fell from Duo's mouth, little cries that made him want to take him then and there. But he restrained himself, wanting this to last forever. His own erection hard against his own clothing, the friction making himself moan, he began to pant faster yet never quickening his pace.

Duo clutched at his back, anticipation driving him mad. He moved with his rhythm he crushed his groin against his, urging him to go faster. He arched into the hand circling him wanting to be inside its tightness longer needing it to stroke him faster. He wanted this, god he wanted this and the damn idiot was playing with him.

Rising up to Heero's ear, bringing his tongue close, licking it slowly and smiling as he heard the other gasp.

He stopped his assault of his ear as he brought his lips down around his nipple, feeling its hardened tip brush against his lips, swallowing it as well. Sucking in time to his hand driving Heero to the edge with him. Teeth closing around the pink mound, drawing blood and sucking him so forcefully that Heero had to stop in his task and let out a moan of his own, grinding his teeth closing his eyes tighter. Duo trailed his mouth to the other swallowing blood from it as well. Heero had placed both of his hands on either side of Duo's head, supporting himself, letting Duo do what he wanted.

Duo grunted in displeasure and took the opportunity to pull his trousers off and open Heero's. He marveled at Heero's length and the feel of him in his hands was exquisite. His mouth leaving the now bleeding pair and moving lower to the Heero's weeping end his hands giving way. Heero had just begun to recover from having Duo's hand stroke him when he felt Duo's grainy tongue circle his shaft.

"Du…oh Duo." He called as Duo began licking him on the sides. Taking pains to make sure each lick was excruciatingly slow. He lapped at the moisture on the top and suddenly without warning took all of him into his mouth. Heero held on to Duo's head knowing he was coming close oh so close, the other's long hair falling across his thighs as they exchanged places, Heero suddenly boneless. His mouth caressing his lover's private part, his tongue meeting every bit of moisture released, his lips blowing slowly around the cylindrical body. Hands massaging his chest but Heero took one into his mouth sucking his fingers, needing to give back some of the pleasure he was receiving.

"Unnnh" Duo moaned causing vibrations that made Heero bite down on the delicate fingers in his mouth. Duo yelped and brought his hand out of his mouth. Heero grunted and brought them back in, pulling Duo on top of him, massaging his inner thighs.

Duo watched him devour his fingers, so enchanted by his handsome face creased with ecstasy he did not notice Heero's own fingers finding his opening.

"Ahhhh." He whispered, as one digit entered, causing him to stiffen.

"Duo hush, relax…" Heero instructed stroking his back with his other hand. Duo nodded biting down on his lip to keep from crying out once more. Two. Three. And he wanted to scream.

Heero pulled out all of his fingers. Duo shifted, making Heero climb on top once more and he placed his legs on his shoulders bracing himself for his lover's re-entry.

"Duo…?"

"Please….please" he whispered.

"I…I can't." Duo looked up shocked.

"What?" he asked frustration making him want to kill.

"I am not a replacement Duo!" he ground out.

Duo laughed and then slapped his face. Heero looked at him, stunned this time. Duo got up on his elbows "You idiot." and crushed his lips against Heero's forcing part of his life into him, telling him he was first in his heart.

"Now finish this. I have spent too many nights fantasizing about this to let it slip away." He smiled drawing away. And Heero positioned himself, his fantasies too finally coming true.

***

He lay on his chest his head on his arm. He felt wonderful.

Duo felt something roll on his other arm and he faced his new lover. Smiling. Heero held up the orb he had in his hand, urging him to finish his meal. He popped the eyeball in his mouth and came down on Duo, pushing it into his. Duo bit down and they shared the prize of their first night together. Drinking the thick liquid and settling in each other's arms.

Satisfied.

***

Trowa was out hunting as was his nightly ritual. He would set one of the humans free, telling them that if he caught them they would die an excruciating death. And then he would hunt them down. Covered in piss, scared out of their heads. He would hunt them down and devour them.

Tonight he sent out an old man. Thinking it was an easy kill, not really wanting to hunt all night. But of course someone beat him to it. They had strayed into the east without knowing it. And he sat there crouched in the shadows watching them devour his prey.

And he saw them make love. His trousers suddenly getting tighter as he saw his former lover do the exact same things he did to him. He marveled at Heero's muscular back and at his flexibility. And as he saw Duo's mouth close around Heero's shaft he couldn't resist and he touched himself. Pretending it was one of the lithe boys he was watching, coming as they did, wanting to be the one grinding beneath Heero, wanting to be the one a top Duo. And he clenched his teeth, as he lay there spent, his hand sticky with milky fluid, his body covered in sweat, his eyes straying to the two lovers laying in each other's arms.

Duo had betrayed him.

His hand fell upon a rock, coarse and dirty. And as he watched them eat the old man's eyes he held the it so tightly in his hand that a stream of blood dripped on its edge. And he waited. And waited.

And the two fell asleep.

He came close beside them careful not to make a sound. And he raised it to the sky. Duo had wakened the moment the rock had begun its course toward the earth again. Too shocked to even scream, his new lover's blood covering his face. And the rock was raised again. And again. And again.

And he saw his hand come up, not really feeling it. It was like his soul was watching himself and not really part of his body anymore. He saw himself stop Trowa's hand, he saw his face covered with Heero's blood. He saw the rock stained with blood. He saw himself fall to his knees beside Trowa begging him to stop. He saw his eyes stray to the rock falling from his former lover's hand. And he saw himself being pulled by the hair to one side. He saw himself getting hit. Once. Twice. Thrice. He lost count and just looked away.

And he felt himself come back into his body. And his eyes strayed toward the rock once more. Grasping it in his hand. Wailing as he brought Heero's blood to his lips.

"Why Duo?" Trowa whispered angry.

"I…I…"

"You have betrayed me as well!" he spat out. Duo looked up at him with clouded eyes. On his face a smile appeared. "Why do you smile? Answer me!!!" But all he did was open his lips and laugh. Laugh at Trowa's murdering face.

"Cease your laughing!" he screamed. His pendant suddenly broke free from his clothing and shimmered in the moonlight. And Duo's eyes came upon the silver circle, his hand resting on his back where a likeness of it rested and he laughed even harder.

"Shut up! Shut up!" he screamed. "Duo you traitor! Don't you see? Heero took everything form us! I thought you understood that! He took everything from me! He took you from me!" he pulled Duo's hair.

"You're the one that does not understand Trowa." Duo whispered. But it wasn't him. It was his voice but it wasn't him.

And Trowa's hatred flared. He pulled his hair tighter in his bleeding hand turning him to face Heero. He placed Duo's wrists on his thigh as he came down on one knee beside him.

Duo's laughter still echoed.

"He will never have you, not while I live. Do you understand that?" he whispered menacingly and he brought out his dagger and crossed the wrists raised in supplication. He dropped him on the floor as red fountains gushed from his hands.

Note: ehehe this is my first lemon so excuse the inexperience…I'll get better somehow I promise!

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