Characters are not mine, appreciate comments though.

Ayumi

Hush little bird the world is asleep

And does not want to hear your joy

I can hear your steady rhythm. It eases my worries. But it does not ease yours. I know you are afraid although you do not show it. I know this man threatens everything you have made and it angers you but it frightens you even more. Frightened you would not succeed. Why does it matter so?

If you had been a lesser man than this, if you had only been a farmer, a beggar, a priest. If you did not have a country to conquer, if you had not been held like a king. Would it matter that I would love you just as I do now?

You were not a god when I first laid eyes on you. You were just a man. A man I loved.

Every time I see you lost in your ocean of followers, I cannot help feel the jealousy. They take you from me a little at a time. And I know that it is only a matter of time before you drown...and I will come to you if you asked me too. And I will drown with you as well.

This dream of yours, that which consumes your every thought, your every strength. And sometimes I wonder, am I in your dream as well?

Could you not walk away from this? Could you not forget this? Could you not consider a future with me?

But I know the truth. It would kill you, I know. Asking you to give up on your dreams is like asking you not to breathe. It would kill you I know.

All I can do is look on, as you take the man I love away from me. And I perceive how far your dream will come and how soon we will end. No matter how much I chose to ignore it, there is no place in your dreams for me. Your ambition is the death of my love. And I smile, I am not sad. This is your dream; this is what you are supposed to become.

So I will take what I can. If you don’t mind, I would like to love you until I am unable to anymore. Maybe you do love me beloved, but sometimes that is not enough.

You’ve made me so happy Shishio Makoto. Never have I felt this perfect.

Tonight I hold you in my arms, and tomorrow you will leave me behind to become what you need to be. And perhaps when night descends you will return to me, perhaps you won’t. So before I lose my right to feel this happiness let me give you all of me.

If you don’t mind.

~end~

my shortest fic to date!

Sad, sad, sad. Poor Yumi!

But he did love her, didn’t he? Oh yeah he did, Yumi is just saying that she accepts that she will forever be second to Shishio’s dreams and she didn’t care. Thus the saying in the first part, she had no right to feel this happy because she was being treated like dirt, but she did.