Silence,
there is so much I want to say,
but
the words stick in my throat.
I
open my mouth to speak, and you're waiting, patiently,
like you always do.
We've
been partners and friends for seven years now,
but
still, sometimes
I get scared by your ability to read my mind,
to
look inside my heart,
and feel what's there.
To
make my pain your pain.
I'm
a thinker; I don't open up easily.
That
didn't hold you back though.
It
took time,
but
you discovered how to handle me.
Starsky.
You
are so uncomplicated.
You challenge life,
you
enjoy life's beauty in every way you can.
You
are my teacher.
As
your partner I've learned to enjoy the simple things of life just by watching
you, day in, day out.
You
discovered a part of me that had been hidden for so long
and
you brought it to the surface.
I
learned about Ken Hutchinson, from you.
I
love you.
I
love you, my partner, my best friend, my life.
My
life!
That's
what you are, Starsk,
from
the first moment you walked into my life
and
into my heart.
With
each day my love for you grows stronger,
turning to something I've never felt before.
And
now I can't live without you.
I
can't say the words.
I'm afraid when I say them out loud;
I
may lose you.
Look
into my eyes, Starsk and search inside of me.
That's
all you have to do to find my hidden secrets.
It's all you have to do to find how much you
mean to me.
You
have the only key to my heart,
because YOU are the key to my heart.
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Sonja
Hendrika, 08/22/2000
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