Hello, minna! After a long absence from this section of Fanfiction.net, I'm back again! Anyway. I have a very... strange Kurei fic, possibly disturbing, but I don't think so.

Disclaimer: *boredly* I don't own 'em, don't sue me, I'm broke, blah blah blah

Here we go...

{I am the Darkness}
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I am the darkness.

Encompassing, undeniably present.

Imponderable; only I can judge myself.

[Mixed reactions. Hatred and love, defiance and absolute loyalty. Blended into a tumultous emulsion of what is known as life.]

I have seen the light; I have seen the stars; I have seen the sun.

I am the darkness.

I am what light shields; what stars see; what the sun rules. I am the one remaining when the light disappears; I am the one that vanquishes the stars in all their brilliance; I am the one that surrounds the sun, envious yet afraid.

[A void. An empty shell, finding, searching, killing. Clarity beyond confusion, empty understanding.]

I am the darkness.

I have seen the light.

But what right does the darkness have to the light?

In the face of light all the darkness can do is ignominiously accommodate.

[Longing, fear. Diabolical hope, leading, misleading, opium of the soul. Addictive, terrifyingly fatal.]

I adopt a presence of honor, and yet I represent all that is despicable, hiding like a coward behind a façade, shining like the light, but where the light gives out life I give out death.

I am the darkness, standing proud and unafraid. And while the darkness savors the proximity of the light, it can never attain the light.

So close, yet so far.

[Silken strands of hair, smiling eyes, sweet voice soothing as the wind. Wind whispering. Whispering in ears drunken with possibilities. Aim high, fall hard.]

I am the darkness; I am the Grim Reaper; scythe raised, cloaked by skill, blade dripping blood as my hands do.

I am the darkness.

I am the crimson blood.

Bathed in crimson tears, swathed in crimson lies, stained in a crimson existence.

The sun shines, blinding in youth and vigor and innocence. Pure and untainted; cruel sin to contaminate.

[Merciless. Poison, kill. Blood on hands transferred onto infinitely innocuous hearts. Result of death. Confusion. Blame. Regrets coming far too late; damage done; love lost; heart dead.]

I stand for all that the light loathes; I am what the light loved; I am why the light disappeared.

[A lone rose, wilting. A body falling, hitting ground, breath cut off, skin cold, eyes wide open in shock, silent acceptance, wistful smile in radiated poignance. Hopes gone. Reaching for utopia; abrupt entry into a world worse than hell, worse than dystopia.]

I know pain. I am pain.

And I know what is beyond that pain.

I am the darkness; the light is all that I may never understand. Cursed with guilt. Love does not need complete understanding. Love is heart-wrenching; sweet while it lasts; shattering when it is gone.

And yet, when the sun is gone…

Memories stay.

[I wanted to be with you… forever…]

Oh yes, memories stay. They stay, solidifying into bittersweet reminders.

So close, so far.

In life, and in death.

[Aishiteru… Kurei…]

Hai, Kurenai.

In life, and in death…

I am the darkness.

-owari-