010302, 1010hr, central time.

i'm flying off to stanford in about 2 hours time. i'm feeling kinda stressed up, a little depressed, and absolutely reluctant to go. it's been a terrible terrible week, and i feel like crap. and very anti-social. not exactly the optimal emotional state for a seminar where i'll be talking to people i don't really know, but also kinda know [since i've probably seen most of them for some kind of psc event before anyway.] it's like my worst nightmare, that i'll have to smile and pretend to be interested in what everyone is talking about, when all the while all i really want to do is run away hide in a corner and cry.

i don't want to go. but bye anyway. sigh.