100801, 1140hr, Singapore time.

i have quite a lot of things to do. first of all, need to finish up my revamp here. my glbt page isn't complete yet. my pictures aren't all scanned yet. which is the tedious part that i hate. grr. should i buy a digital camera? grr.

i also need to complete as many assignments for my pol sci classes as possible, before my fall semester classes start, and these pol sci [correspondence] courses start interfering with my regular classes.

need to meet up with a lot of people as well. you know how you don't realise you've not met up with so-and-so and him-or-her until one week before you're due to leave? argh. thank god at least i'm finally going pubbing this saturday. i would be damn pissed with myself if i go back to the states without having gone pubbing at least once. it's not so much cos i'm a party animal, but cos i know i won't go once i get back to campus. it appears that the people i hang out with in the states aren't quite pubbing/clubbing people. bleah.

also need to pack. which is a big deal, i assure you, because it involves choosing the clothes i want to bring back, and squeezing them all the two small bags i brought back. eek. not to mention my photo albums that i already messed up, trying to choose the pictures to scan for my webpage. double eek.

my life is in a mess right now. i'm not talking about the stuff i mentioned above. it's something else...sigh...that something else that doesn't necessarily become better just cos i spend one afternoon on it, unlike packing, or scanning pictures. sigh. there's some sort of a time constraint to work things out - presumably 1 week. which is enough time, i guess. so it's not like i'm stressed up. but it's just something that's bugging me. something i need to deal with, despite my wishes to run away. i once said something like, i should indulge myself, since i'm only 21. well. apparently, being 21 actually means i get tired more easily, y'know, that thing about old people less energetic? haha...sigh. i'm tired of this shitload of crap, playing games. i guess this is what it means to become older. needing to cut away all unnecessary crap from one's life, in order to conserve energy. energy for other things...like my studies.

yup. i think so. so god help me.