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Feeling... down Food: antibiotics [actually not considered food Hmm.] Book: 8 Days CD: CD player died! argh. Happiness of the day: I'm going swimming later Event of the week: working working working... I miss my friends a lot. Funny, isn't it? Now that I'm back in Singapore, I still don't see my friends as much as I want to. I've been meaning to watch Shrek and Bridget Jone's Diary for a long time, but I don't even have the time to arrange to go out and watch a movie. I don't have a social life, damn it! Maybe I'm just greedy. After all, I saw Po Chin and Agnes just last week. Hmm. And it's not like I'm being antisocial, lazy or anything, I am busy with a lot of things, there isn't a day when I go to bed without feeling completely exhausted. Or like I have wasted my time in that day. Work saps up a lot of my energy everyday, because it takes a lot of concentration doing the reading I'm doing. I don't know if I'm actually really supposed to be this serious about my work, but I don't want to sloppily just skim through everything either. Besides the work itself, and I also try to go swimming regularly, just to have some alone time. But I realise that doesn't leave much time for me to meet up with my friends during the week. And I don't get to have dinner with my family on the days I go swimming. I feel quite bad about that. And not to mention the correspondence courses I'm taking now. The website revamp I'm still rushing to finish by August. The books I want to read. I haven't had a lot of time to deal with those things, and I'm feeling very guilty about it too. With 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, minus my alone time in the swimming pool and my working hours, I want to commit my time to my family, my friends, my homework, my website, my cross stitch and him. Hmm. Seeing that I spend 9 hours a day in the office during the week, 2 hours each swimming trip and typically 5 hours of sleep during the week and 8 hours during the weekend, that's at least 92 hours gone every week. Which means I have 76 hours left to be split up 6 ways. If I split everything up evenly, I have about 12.5 hours for each. Which isn't much at all...that's just about less than 2 hours everyday. Man, I take more than 1 hour just to get home! Sheesh. This doesn't make sense. Sigh. Of course, life is not as simple as counting hours like this. some things are more important than others. People are always more important to me than anything else...which is probably why I'm feeling a little down these days, to not have enough time or energy for my favourite people. Damn this stupid job, I don't want to work anymore! Ggrr... | |