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Feeling... constructive Happiness of the day: my boss is back today. hmm. wonder if that's actually good news. hahhaa...oh, and yesterday night, my mom brought my brother and i out for a thai dinner, yum yum. Event of the week: Australian play today, and circus[?] performance on Saturday. hmm...let me count, i have 4 friends bugged by love problems right now. i would love to help, but ultimately i don't have the right nor the ability to do anything at all. it's very disturbing to me, when my friends are in trouble, no matter what kind of trouble. bleah. i get a feeling however, that my friends tell me of their problems as a way of facing up to them themselves. Are they actually expecting advice from me? I doubt it. i think they just wanted to share how they feel, hoping to get a perspective on the problem by talking about it. but frankly, i'm a little confused as to where I might cross the line of being a friend to being a kaypoh. over the years, over the many times of talking about my own problems, or just general discussion, surely they already know what I would say. surely they already know what I know. or at least what i think. save for the guys, who genuinely seemed clueless to a girl's mind and asked me for advice, and I therefore replied with my most sincere thoughts, I'm a little lost how much I should say to the others. i think I'm blessed right now. and that i would tend to have an overly-optimistic view on everything. of course, i'm intrinsically still rather cynical of human nature, so I can be cruel and rather pointed in my judgment of any person, if i so choose to be. but how many times have I said "everything will be fine" even the odds say otherwise? and how many times have I convinced myself and my friends that "communication is everything and maybe it's a misunderstanding". sigh. i'm worried my optimism would hurt someone eventually. See, my cynical mind is questioning my optimism. Hahaha...my mind is kinda weird. come to think of it. why am i so optimistic these days? hmm. and i don't have much appetite these days either. way weird. this is not like me at all. hmm. bad timing for anyone to ask me for advice, because it would not be the usual me talking. not that it'll be good to be asking the usual me. ugh, think i'm getting out of point. hmm...time to get back to work. | |