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Feeling... sleepy Happiness of the day: going out with Jun. Event of the week: www.com this Friday I went out with Jun today, since he has a one week break, and I'm going to start my attachment tomorrow. Today was possibly the last time we'll be able to meet up for quite some time. [Yes, I'm starting my attachment tomorrow. wowee...I'm pretty excited. After waiting for one month, finally. Heh. Funny how I'm looking forward to working, isn't it? I do think I will enjoy it though. ] Jun looks a little thinner than before, but also better than before. Apparently the army helps guys clear up their acne problem. He's not the first guy whose face actually looks better after being exposed to the elements in the army. Hmm. Mysterious component of the army rations? or the army soap? or the army bunk atmostphere?? really quite intriguing, isn't it? But the main reason he looks better now is more likely that he's darker and better built now. I poked his arm jokingly once, and it actually felt firm. Hehehe....not bad not bad, the national service is making our boys men. Hahaha... We chatted for a long time, over dinner, over coffee, on our way home, for the entire night. Mostly about his relationship problems actually. Sigh. To think, why am I always playing the role of a romance advisor. I must appear rather experienced and wise, isn't it? Haha.. I doubt this boy is going to listen to me though, seeing how much he still loves his ex. I'm not sure that is love, because I also know how horrible a boyfriend he is. But he seems determined to make things better, so perhaps I should trust him. I just wish he would move on though, seeing how small his chances are. Sigh... I don't want to see him getting his hopes up and then crushed. Why do guys have this thing for a relationship that is already past? I'm probably not a fair judge, since it's not like I'm really that experienced. But from my point of view, especially for a relationship that lasted 3 years, and when the break up is not a result of any special incident or circumstance, the break up has to be for a reason. When one thinks about the romance, naturally he thinks only of the good times. But what about the difficulties that led to the break up? Is there any point going back to something that proved to not work? It's funny he's saying he would rather get this girl back, than chase after another girl, mainly because they've been together for 3 years. My dear boy, you're only 19. There're so many more possible 3-year-relationships ahead of you, before you even have to choose a wife. Surely you have to give yourself [and other girls] a chance? Everything is destined to happen for a reason. Maybe this first girlfriend is destined to just be your first, but not your last, and not your only. Not all endings have to be labelled as either "happy" or "sad". Is it possible that it's really an ending that came simply because it is time? I guess I should admire him for his enthusiasm though. That he cares so much for this girl. That he wants to try, despite the odds. I gave him a time limit though, so he knows when to stop, and face up to reality, whether the girl is moved by his efforts or still determined to just remain friends. I hope he will succeed and be rewarded for his efforts and love. and if he fails, I wish him the courage to realise it. Jun is of course not the only friend I have who has difficulties in love relationships. It seems like this age group of 17-25 has the tendency to be bothered mostly by the heart, isn't it? The age where are old and mature enough to feel for the opposite sex. And too young to worry about money. Compared to my friends, I don't feel that I have a lot of problems, perhaps because I am such a chicken when it comes to this. I tend to run, hide and just let go, if it hurts. Sometimes I think I let go too easily. I believe too much in being gracious in romantic dealings. Maybe I should learn to fight for someone the way he does. So far, comparing fight and flee, I always chose to flee. But I refuse to believe that I will forever choose the easy way out, cos I think all it takes is a very special someone to inspire me to fight, that's all. Just cos I've not fought before doesn't mean I won't. In fact, I'm sure my friends can't wait to see me fight for a guy. Hahahaha... but sorry guys, you'll have to wait a little longer. I will have to find that someone first. Heh. | |