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Mood: confused Fact of the day: In the Exudos, the Israelites were led to freedom from Egyptian oppression by a man whose name is actually not Hebrew, but Egyptian - Moses. event of the week Memorial Day on Monday, no school!
I'm so so so near to buying a car, and yet I'm so scared. It's such a big decision. And I've always hated making decisions. The money, the commitment that will come after the purchase, the fear of being cheated....all weighing down on my mind: I think I'm going crazy soon. Argh...but there's really no point trying to delay the decision. The owner will be leaving town in less than a week's time, so I'll have to give him a reply soon. But let me think just a little more...
I'm now corresponding with one of the guys who will be coming to uiuc this coming fall semester. It's a wonderful feeling - being able to help him think about this courses, tell him which books to buy and just generally making him feel welcomed even before he's here. Not something that I enjoyed last year. Maybe because I was very difficult to reach, or maybe because I'm too passive by nature, I didn't get much help from any of my seniors before I came. And because of that, despite my attempt at trying to remain optimistic, my heart was filled with so much uncertainty I think I was depressed. I hope this guy wouldn't feel as helpless as I did last year.
I've grown a little lazy with my cooking as well. There is a limited variety of ingredients I can use, since both lynn and I are very stingy and lazy with buying groceries. Especially eversince I realised that I don't need to prove that I can cook, I've become less motivated to cook. Yes, isn't it stupid, besides the excitement of cooking my own food, part of the reason why I was cooking so enthusiastically was because I wanted to prove that I actually can. Oh well...fact is, I don't cook really that well, and frankly, nobody really cares about that either. So what the hell...now, I'm really good with just doing favours for lynn just so that she will cook dinner in return for the favours. I usually just take a nap and wake up for dinner only when she's done. Heh. But I do want to learn how to cook chicken rice..hmm, need to experiment a little. This weekend probably, since it is a long weekend.
My friends in Singapore are at a chalet right now..I wonder if they're thinking of me...are they playing water bombs? Eating nice barbequed chicken wings? Playing bridge or Tai Tee? How I wish I can be there as well.
I think I'll call home tomorrow morning.
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