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Mood: kinda of sad Fact of the day: event of the week none.
I have a french test in less than 12 hours' time. And my french homework is due at the same time. Have I finished my homework? No. Have I studied for my test? No. Then what am I do online surfing and typing nonsense? I don't know.
I don't know how I managed to get myself to feel down again. I don't know what to do to get out of it. So basically I'm just waiting now. I don't feel like doing french, so I'm not doing it. I don't feel like doing anything constructive, in fact, so I'm just bumming around. I actually feel quite curious, about this sudden wave of restlessness and slight depression. Why do I suddenly feel so unsettled and irritated? I don't know.
But whatever it is, I don't feel well at all. I already took a nap in the afternoon, but the depression didn't go away. I read all those websites that used to make me laugh, but it didn't help much this time. I'm just so stubbornly determined to feel miserable tonight. Argh. Damn it, the night before my french test too. I can just never win against myself. The timing is absolutely brilliant - always when it causes the most damage. I'm beginning to think I subconsciously enjoy self-sabotage or something. Sigh.
But is this normal? Maybe there's a reason why I'm feeling this way. But I'm just not aware of it. True, my life is not exactly as smooth-sailing as I would like it to be right now, but there's nothing majorly wrong either. So why the hell am I feeling so sad now?! Sigh, I don't know.
Now I feel like I'm some sort of a psychopath.
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