Sudden inspirations or cravings:
Screaming.

I feel very very tired now. The mentally and emotionally tired kind of tired. I mean, after 2 weeks of teaching, I seriously don't think I enjoy being bullied by my students. Maybe Agnes was right, that I should keep a distance from my students, instead of being so friendly from the start.

Yes, I now know that I was wrong.

I have never thought of having to use my authority over them. I never thought that I would actually have the urge to scream at them. In fact, I never thought that I would be defeated by my own students.

Today, I was happily asking them if they understood this certain topic. They said no, so I explained everything from the start. Half-way through, I just felt that I had revised all that before already. I turned back and saw all the grinning faces and knew that I have just been played.

I was really pissed off.

To make things worse, they seemed to be in this very good mood and had the perpetual buzz all around. You know, the kind of murmurs that if very hard to trace.

I just felt really tired then. Like why should I crack my brains trying to please and teach this bunch of ingrates. Damn it, I have taken my exams, your results have got nothing to do with me right?

Damn it I am pissed.

I wish one of these days, I can just go in and flash a transparency that says something like," You do your own tutorials, since u people think you are so damn smart. This is not my problem anymore. Talk. Go on and talk. JERKS."

I refuse to even use any exclamation marks there.

Pissed as I am, tomorrow I shall have to refresh my smiley face and try to teach those jerks again. *smile* So is there any questions? Is there anyone listening to me? Excuse me? Hello?...