Paint It Black
Song by-the rolling stones
fic by-The Goddess Of Death

Noin walked down the street clumsily, drunk from the bar she had just come from. As she walked around in the setting sun, she noticed a bright red door leading into some girl's clothing store and winced.
Nothing should be that color.
It should be black. Everything should be black.
She didn't want colors anymore, just black, like everything inside of her. She stopped when her world was titling and swirling, and when she managed to focus she saw a group of five girls, all dressed in daisy dukes and tanktops walking down the sidewalk.
The purple haired woman turned her head to the side so fast she looked like she had just been slapped.
Darkness filled her body, and if Noin didn't turn away something horrible would happen.
And he wouldn't like that.

(I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes )

They walked by her chatting and laughing with their snotty voices, and Noin continued on five minutes later, feeling more contained.
She looked to the side at the cars that passed by on the street.
Red, green, blue, white, yellow, purple....she lost count of all the colors. Black.
*Everything* needed to be black. Nothing needed color because colors were happy.
And she wasn't.
People saw her, saw the Captain of Victoria Base, and amazing woman in her time, and looked away in shame.
She felt and looked like shit. Her eyes were bloodshot and had bags under them. Her skin was pale and dirty. Her clothes were wrinkled. She looked homeless.

(I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev'ry day )

Noin reached the front gate of the mansion and pushed open the gate, having to walk another mile to get there.
She sighed as she felt no happiness come into her anymore. Just blackness.
Her heart was like that now. Not red like that shop's door, but black.
Her shrink had told her to look on the bright side and cheer up.
It's not easy to look up when your world is black.
Maybe she'll just wither and die and then she'd be lucky.
Noin reached a fourth of the mile's point and kept wearily walking.

(I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black )

She looked at the setting sun, it's bright colors shining beautifully. She glared at it, it seemed to mock her, remind her of how she used to be before him.
Love, happiness, everything in heaven seemed to laugh at her.

(If I look hard enough into the settin' sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin' comes )

She remembered the girls, and ran to a bush to throw up. They were so disgusting. Sluts.
She groaned and stumbled forward, barely catching herself. She was half way there. She didn't need to pass out now.
Noin thought about her actions today. The red door, the cars, the girls.
What had she become?
What he wanted her to become. He acted like he loved Relena to death, and was overly protective of her. He didn't give a shit about the blonde in real life, it was just a cover to keep anyone from guessing who he truly liked to spend time with.

(I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes )

The slaps, the hits, punches, anything else he could do to her. Rape was now a common occurrence.
She remembered the first...time...it had happened, how she fought and fought and fought.
Now she didn't bother, it didn't work anymore. She was just a plaything he had and wouldn't leave her be until he got bored with her and went to find another.

(Hmm, hmm, hmm,... )

Noin let a solitary tear fall down her cheek before she wiped it away, and she then reached the mansion. She looked up at the glorious thing, with huge pillars and balconies.
And she spit on it.
Noin then walked over to the door, and knocked on it. She rubbed her eyes to make them look as happy as possible, and straightened out her wrinkled clothes. She brushed the dirt off of her arms and face.
Noin looked better, though her eyes and the baggage under them remained. But that could be blamed on heavy work in the Preventers.
Relena opened the door and glomped onto Noin.
"Noin where have you been I was so worried and scared and..." the girl practically sobbed. Noin gave a small smile, something she hadn't done in years, when she saw the concerned girl. No one seemed to care anymore except her.
"That's enough Relena," Heero's voice rang out, and the girl let go of the purple haired woman, and nodded.
"Well, then, I'll let you get your sleep," Relena smiled, and skipped back to her place next to him.
Noin nodded, and looked over at Heero. She saw that light in his eyes, as he smirked. You could barely notice it, but she did. That smirk of control.
Noin walked into the house and brushed passed him. His arm grabbed hers.
"Noin?"
"Hai?"
"Sleep well," he gave a mocking smile and let go. She plastered a smile on her face and turned away, walking away.
"I wonder why she's so sad as of lately," Relena sighed, and Heero shrugged.
"No clue..." he said, and led her to her room.
"Rest koi...you look tired,"he said lovingly. The girl nodded and cuddled the teddy-bear he gave her as sleep consumed her.
The Japanese boy walked out of the room and started toward Noin's...to teach her a lesson about staying out too late.

(I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah! )

Owari~

Well?
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Thanks for reading minna~san!

GoDdEsS

Diclaimer:I DON'T OWN GW!!! OR this song!!!!
Noin:thank God!
Heero:What did I do to deserve this?*sulks*
Relena:Omae o korosu Goddess!!!!*pulls out gun*
Goddess:and that is why I shouldn't own GW...*starts to run away from the blonde* now now Relena-sama....calm down....put that away....total pacifism is the only way!!!!