Somethings Not Right - Part 12 by Terrasa
Standard disclaimers apply
Quatre was released from the hospital and came back
to the estate the next day. Duo noticed a slight change in the way
Trowa and him acted around each other, but didn’t dwell on it.
He was too busy trying to figure out his own feelings for a certain
cobalt eyed boy. Somehow over the period of his stay on Earth Duo
had actually felt at peace with himself. He was no longer sulking
inside and thinking his life was nothing but of a failures.
Being with his friends made him forget his problems. Being with Heero
made Duo feel like he was actually needed. Life had a purpose once
again, and he would do everything he could to make sure Heero was
happy.
The once silent boy had changed a lot over the year in which Duo
had last seen him. He was no longer as quiet as he was when a soldier.
Once or twice Duo actually heard Heero making a joke, although they
weren’t very good. As his time with Heero increased Duo found
his feelings for the boy also increasing, and the newest of his problems
was whether or not he should act on them.
The fourth day out of the hospital found all of the five sitting
outside for a picnic. The sun was shining through thin clouds in the
sky, and the cool wind was welcomed. They were seated at the far end
of a big garden in the back of the estate. The sent of Jasmine could
be smelt mixed in with other various flowers and bushes that surrounded
them.
They had been out there for thirty minutes now, talking about their
lives and the end of the war. Duo could clearly see that Trowa and
Quatre were stealing glances at each other every few minutes. He found
it kind of funny how secretive they were being. He was probably the
least observant of the five, so he was pretty sure Wufei had also
picked up on it. Heero, however, seemed to be lost in his own little
world. He stopped talking awhile ago and was starring off into nothingness.
Heero couldn’t get the thoughts of the accident out of his
head. He had been replaying it over and over again trying to make
some sense of it all. He was beginning to forget the warnings the
mysterious voice in his dream had warned him about. It seemed that
as the days went on, he lost more and more of the conversation. Pretty
soon he might forget it even happened and he couldn’t understand
why.
All throughout his life he had an amazing memory. Heero could remember
codes and passwords by just taking a glance. But this dream he had
was shattering and he was desperately trying to pick back the pieces
to little success. There was also something Heero vaguely remembered
that was important. The one piece of advice he was given.
::Follow… something… something is going to lead me…::
Heero sat with the cool wind blowing through his dark hair pondering
what it was. ::pines? No that’s not right… Gah! Why cant
I remember?::
The accident, where Quatre could have died, seemed likely to be what
the dream was talking about. ::After all it was ‘my’ fault
and I was able to save him.:: Heero thought. But something wasn’t
right. It was too easy. If he could just remember the clue, he might
be able to put his mind at ease.
He was brought out of his thoughts by someone yelling.
“What the HELL?!! Get away from me you freaks!!” Duo
was currently running around them waving his hands above his head.
As Heero looked closer he could see two Bumble bees flying in circles
around him. Quatre was rolling on the floor laughing while grabbing
a smirking Trowa’s shoulder for support. Wufei was just mumbling
‘baka’ under his breath with his arms folded across his
chest.
A small smile tugged at the corner of Heero’s lips as he watched
the scenes unfold around him. Everyone seemed so happy, so at peace.
They no longer were in the war, no longer had to kill, and could now
enjoy life to the fullest.
Heero wondered if he could ever become apart of the happiness, if
he could ever let go of his ghosts. But right now it seemed a far
away dream. He could never be normal, he could never live like they
did. Heero wasn’t programmed to deal with peace time, wasn’t
taught the art of ‘having fun’. Even if he wanted to…
his ghosts would always be their to remind him in his dreams that
he wasn’t worthy.
Guilt. Such a terrible emotion.
A person will become guilty when killing thousands without killing
himself.
Heero, the voice in his head will remind him and taunt of his guilt
him until he goes insane.
Heero knew, he knew he might never escape his sins, he would always
be reminded of them.
Yet.
He didn’t know how much longer he had left, before he snaps.
Before he gets sucked into his nightmares, never to come out again.
The thought scared him.
Heero felt himself shiver. Goose bumps appeared on his arms and he
started to rub his hands up and down to cause friction and warmth.
“Are you cold, Heero?” Duo asked.
Heero didn’t really feel like explaining that he was just thinking
about getting sucked into a nightmare and never coming out, so he
just nodded his head in reply.
“Hmmm want to go inside then?” Duo asked, then quickly
added, “I’m a little cold myself.”
He could tell Duo was trying to make him feel like he wasn’t
forcing him to leave. In truth Duo probably wanted to stay out and
have fun.
“Aa.”
They got up, leaving behind Trowa, Quatre and Wufei who were currently
in discussion about the game of monopoly for reasons Heero didn’t
want to know. The walk back to the estate was rather quiet except
for Duo’s soft humming. Out of the corner of his eye Heero studied
the braided boy. He could see that Duo looked happy, more so than
he had been since coming out from L2. A small smile set upon his lips,
but it quickly disappeared as Duo looked at him. He hoped Duo didn’t
notice, but his hopes were shattered as the braided boy started to
laugh.
He felt the blush spread on his cheeks. Duo seemed to not notice
as he grabbed Heero by the elbow, being mindful of the wrists, and
took off running. “Come on, I wanna do something fun.”
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
An hour later, Duo and Heero were peering into the glass door of
an oven. They had decided to try and make some cookies, well Duo had
decided and Heero followed him. The kitchen had flour and sugar everywhere,
there was a little bit of dough in Heero’s hair from when Duo
had thrown some at him, and there was a nice big pile of dishes sitting
in the sink. Heero groaned as he thought of the dishes.
It had been actually a fun hour, Heero who had no cooking skills
at all had found that baking cookies was not all that hard as long
as you followed the directions. It took them two batches to get them
perfect, since Duo had accidentally mixed up the salt and sugar in
the first batch.
The oven chimed and Duo gave out a “woohoo” as he opened
it up to take the cookie sheet out. Heero had to admit, they did look
pretty good. Duo had said that round cookies were too boring, so instead
they had ended up making giant scythe shape cookies. They were a little
too chubby but could altogether be recognized as scythes.
“AH! We only have twenty minutes until the cook is back!”
Heero smirked as Duo raced around the kitchen in a panic. “Well,
don’t just sit there! Help me clean up.” Duo had his hands
on his hips and was holding out a spoon towards him accusingly. He
was wearing a plaid apron with flour covering most of it. His face
had speckles of vanilla from when Heero had almost dropped it on him.
All and all, Heero found it highly amusing and his smirk was replaced
by a smile.
“Hai, Hai.” he said while walking over to the sink to
start the gruesome task of cleaning pans and bowls. It was pretty
hard, he had to go slow in order to not hurt his wrists anymore and
accidentally break the stitches.
He was halfway done when he got distracted by Duo’s ass sticking
up in the air. The braided boy was currently scrubbing the floor giving
Heero a perfect view of his but. After a few minutes Heero realized
he had stopped washing and was staring. His face turned a deep shade
of pink before he quickly turned away hoping that Duo hadn’t
noticed.
Duo had noticed though. He had heard the water running without the
usual click and clank of dishes and so he took a quick glance over
his shoulder. He smiled when he saw Heero was looking at him, then
blushed as he realized exactly ‘what’ Heero was looking
at. He turned away and soon heard the dishes being cleaned again.
::What the hell was that?:: He smirked inside. ::This could get interesting::
Throughout the rest of the day Duo noticed Heero staring at him…
a lot. Although he wasn’t making it easy for the poor cobalt
eyed boy not to stare, Duo had been non stop flirting with him.
Duo was being extremely clumsy today in Heero’s eyes. So far
the braided boy had managed to drop two pencils, a wash cloth, and
various other item. Each time he had to bend down to pick them up
and Heero found himself staring and blushing. ::What’s wrong
with me? Since when can I not control my emotions?:: He was getting
very irritated at the fact that he was losing his head quickly.
Heero was however oblivious to Duo smirking every time he caused
Heero to fluster.
~~~~~~~~
Evening came and Heero was sitting in his room by himself. He had
finally convinced Duo to let him be by himself for awhile. The emotional
turmoil he had gone through today was making him exhausted. Not to
mention the fact that he wasn’t totally healed yet. He had already
started to eat regular meals again and he was almost back into his
regular sleeping habit. But the running around he had done today made
him feel exhausted all over again. And Duo had not helped with his
flirting.
Heero had finally figured out that Duo had been playing with him.
Much to Heero’s annoyance, he didn’t like being played
the fool. He growled in frustration. The braided boy had been on his
mind all day and he was trying desperately to stop thinking of him.
::Well I’m not going to get anywhere sitting in my room staring
at the ceiling:: He thought to himself.
Heero stepped out of his room and took a deep breath. He could smell
something like mint tea coming from down the hall somewhere. Going
on instinct he walked towards the smell and found himself standing
outside Quatre’s study. Voices could be heard inside which sounded
like an argument. Pushing his ear to the door Heero could hear a little
of the conversation.
“There are places that treat things like this you know…”
Definitely Quatre.
“No way in HELL am I just going to sit back and watch as he
gets put in one of those damn places! He is not some mental case damn
it!” Duo’s loud voice startled Heero for a second and
he almost jumped. Luckily he didn’t and he did not give himself
away.
“It’s not a mental institution Duo! it’s a treatment
facility, they can help him with the nightmares and…”
Quatre was cut off by something Duo said, he was now talking in lower
tones and Heero couldn’t make it out. But that was enough, he
backed away from the door slowly and walked to his room not caring
if his footsteps were heard.
He closed the door behind him and slid down against it until he was
sitting on the floor. His eyes were wide as he relayed what he just
heard.
::They know. They know about my nightmares…:: His breathing
came faster and he felt his hands starting to shake. ::Duo told them
about my nightmares:: He was hyperventilating now and he had to force
himself to clear his mind in order to stop. He tried to focus on something
else but his mind kept spinning around, ::I trusted him… He
told… They know… Oh god! They want to send me away!::
The room started to blur out of focus, he could feel someone trying
to push against the door. His body wouldn’t move though. Voices
filled the room and he just kept staring as the darkness slowly surrounded
him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Duo sat by the bed staring at the sleeping boy. Quatre, Trowa and
Wufei were also crowded around the bed with confused looks on their
faces.
“What happened?” Quatre asked after several minutes of
silence.
Putting his head in his hands Duo sighed, “I think he heard
us.”
“Shit!” Wufei swore as he started to pace the room.
Their attention was soon redirected to the sleeping boy as he started
to moan in his sleep. Duo took Heero’s hand in his and watched
as Heero started to toss and turn. Everyone’s eyes widened as
soft moans turned into loud screams.
“Heero! Wake up!” Duo now had his hands on both of Heero’s
shoulders pinning him down to the bed. Trowa and Wufei were also by
his side keeping him from kicking. “HEERO!”
After a couple minutes, cobalt blue eyes opened wide and took in
his surroundings. Relief rushed through Heero as he saw he was out
of his nightmare and back into the reality that was his room. Duo
was peering over him with a worried look on his face which caused
his chest to tighten. The cold soldier mask fell into place and Heero
looked expressionlessly at all of rooms occupants.
“Get out.”
“Heero wha-” Duo was cut off by when Heero glared at
him.
“I said. Get Out.”
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TBC
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