Author: Ashly
Pairings: one-sided SetoYami
Summary: He was invisible. There but not seen.
Acknowledged but never noticed. Accepted but barely cared for. He was
forgotten. Yami-centric. Hints of SxYY/Prideshipping.
He was always alone. So very alone. Even after being
surrounded by fans…by ‘friends’…yet he was still alone. After all, he was
darkness. No one wanted to be with darkness. Everyone hated darkness…that’s why
everyone steps up into the light…to get away from darkness…to get away from the
shadows…
But Yami always thought black was a cheery color. According
to science in this Ra damn modern world after all, black would absorb all the
light while white deflects all the light. It always confused him. Deflecting light
meant you don’t accept all the colors right?…so won’t that make the color white
lonely? And black happy since it has all the light?
Or maybe that was why everyone was afraid of darkness… that
it might suck them all up…But he wouldn’t do that…they know that right?
But science was against him. And in this world, science was
the God.
Feh. He always did hate science.
After all, it was science that breaks down everything that
was beautiful to little particles and tries to put their meaning in big,
difficult words. Yami thought it was stupid but he was powerless against it.
And he was also powerless that everyone hates darkness…
So maybe that was why he was alone.
Because he was powerless against it.
Because he was weak.
Weakness.
He was weak in this world. Away from his homeland, he was
nothing more but a mere teenager. No more was the great and mighty pharaoh but
merely an odd, spiky haired, teenager that was only good in games was left.
Yes, he was powerless here.
But actually, now that Yami thought about it, he was always
powerless.
He couldn’t do anything to save Egypt (or at least make the
reign of the Pharaohs last as proven by this world). He couldn’t save his
country from whatever troubles it had gone once it was sealed in the puzzle. He
couldn’t protect the future from the horrors of the shadow realm. He couldn’t
even save his memories from being lost in the darkness.
Yes, he was truly weak.
And with that weakness, comes inevitable fear.
Fear.
Despite his usual calm appearance, Yami was deathly afraid
of many things.
This foreign world for one.
So much has changed since his time, and despite Yugi’s
efforts, it didn’t feel right staying here. It didn’t feel safe.
Such unfamiliar people, unfamiliar customs, an unfamiliar
environment and at times, Yami just wanted to go back and hide in the puzzle
and sleep for another millennia. Maybe after awhile, things will go back to the
way they were.
But that wasn’t really Yami’s greatest fear. His greatest
fear, like most people, was death. Ironic really, how a spirit denied of his
eternal rest would be afraid of dying (spiritually this time) and finally
moving on.
Or actually, it wasn’t even death itself he was afraid of.
But rather, the aftermath of death.
He didn’t want to be forgotten.
After all, it had already happened once. Even though he had
been one of the greatest pharaohs of Egypt, he had still been forgotten. His
story lost in time and his name disregarded.
He didn’t want that.
Forgotten.
He hated that feeling. Probably out of the 8,000 feelings he
could name, that was one of the feelings he abhorred the most.
He hated merely floating around every time Yugi-tachi was
hanging out. He hated the feeling of being stepped through or looked through.
He hated the way Jou-kun and the others would keep calling
him “Yugi” despite the fact they already knew about his existence in Yugi.
He hated how the rest of the world only knew him as “Yugi
Mutou” and nothing more.
Yugi does try to bring him out of his soul room
occasionally but most of the time, he was left alone in his soul room, merely
waiting until Yugi needed him again. At times, he wondered why he even bothered
helping since they were practically taking advantage of him. Maybe it was because
he cared about them even though they were a bunch of peanut heads. Maybe
because he had dragged their boring lives into an unending adventure of dark
magic and ancient history and in more than one occasion almost killing them in
the process. Or maybe…maybe because despite the fact they overlook him at
times, they still accepted his existence. That he was still there and that he
strived at the little attention they would give him.
Because there was only one thing that hurts more than being
forgotten…or at least one thing that Yami could think of.
And that was being ignored.
Ignored.
Maybe to most people, being forgotten and being ignored were
the same but to Yami, they were different. At times, the word forgotten can be
taken as an accidental action. Yet to fully ignore someone means you know
they’re existence is there but yet, you do nothing to acknowledge it. It was
painful.
And the most painful thing was it was him who was
ignoring Yami’s existence.
His rival…his respected co-duelist…his grudgingly accepting
friend…his past love.
Seto Kaiba.
Like most things Yami lost, so was their love. Or rather,
buried deep under the millennia of darkness within him…hidden away like his
memories.
But despite that, he could still feel it. The bond that drew
him to Seto. It wasn’t like the bond he had with Yugi…nor was it the same bond
with Isis and Shadi, that which links their past together. He just knew it. An
unexplainable feeling he knew he felt with Kaiba’s past self.
And it was so painful.
Maybe it would have been better that he didn’t get this
feeling…then maybe he wouldn’t feel so horrible that Seto openly denies his
existence.
The blue eyed CEO would never truly look at him. He
could see it…in the depths of those dark blue eyes, Kaiba knew he was
there. And yet, being the skeptic that he was, he never fully acknowledged
Yami’s presence. Ignored him.
And this…this was probably the only feeling Yami truly hated
more than being forgotten.
Being so painfully ignored.
Ashly: Well…:::scratches head::: I hope that didn’t come out
TOO badly. It’s my first time trying out sorta of angst XDDD
Hehehehehehehehe…Saa…this is just basically my babble anywayXDD
Hehehehehehehe…..Me thinks I shall go back to humor now ::sweatdrop::
::gives puppy dog eyes:: Onegai…review desu? It makes
Ashly-chan feel better and happy happyXDDD Hoi~! Hoi~! ::bounces::