Reflections

O.o You know, you could send your AK reflections to me and I'll post it if you'd like to minna. This isn't just a page where I can rant. x.x Maybe if we get enough activity, we'll get a message board. @_@; ::wonders how to do that:: ... Man, I'm so rusty on my HTML....

Wow, I haven't updated this page in a while. @_@ Everyone's still in a lull... x.x; ::sigh::

4-28-01

^_^ Saa. o_O So everyone's back, save a few people. I wonder if they'll come back. Most likely, no. -_- I wouldn't kick anyone out for no good reason. I wouldn't. I care about AK too much to do that.

Yeah, I did that test. To see if you guys were really in for AK. I don't WANT another restart happening. I know you've all heard me rant about the restart before. So it was natural I play something like this in revenge.

But really, I was doing this for a higher reason. I really DID hate restart. I mean, 2 years gone to waste. Really guys. You know I was complaining everyday. @_@ For those that kept it up during that slump, AK meant a lot to us. I had a slump too, I didn't post for a few months. But still, I was plotting, I really was. I've plotted so far and had soooo many plots for AK. I had many characters. I offered to do ANYTHING to keep AK up. I emailed those who were inactive and asked if they were still interested. I was lucky enough to get less than half the responses I mailed out. I waited a few more months. I hated having characters that were waiting for those who wouldn't post. So I made my characters move to characters I could interact with that would post more than a post every few months. I told everyone I would even substitute for any character that had no player. I would interact with everyone. I asked if anyone was lost, if they needed help or summaries. I would be there for them and tell them what they needed to know if they had any questions. I asked and did all these things for a very long time. I emailed, I posted, I IMed, and god knows I've had headaches on trying to be fair and trying to boost morale.

Not many answered. If they did, they only posted once or so.

So I was thinking that AK was dead. I didn't want to kick everyone out. What would boost AK's morale? What does everyone else think? So we did that poll thing. It took the last stretch to get all the votes together. I'm sorry, but it does NOT take 3 months or so to gather 9 votes. Yes, it was supposed to be only 9 votes as I kicked off double addresses and Andrea. She just wasn't answering. Oh well. Fine. So restart won despite there was 6 votes, and 4 votes to keep it. Restart still won fairly despite someone cheated. Whatever.

I was so disappointed. I didn't realize there was 6 people who wanted to restart. So fine. We did. I was crushed, as all the plots I had were gone. All the mystery and coolness were gone. Everyone knew who Ryuu was, who Okami was, who Houou was. It's hard to create that magic when everyone knows what's going to happen. It's even harder when you don't want to change their character. How many plots do you think I had to drop? I had a basic plot and storyline going on. I know I'm the only person. There were the other 3 people who voted to keep the old storyline. I'm very sure those 4 people were the ones keeping AK up and had their own plots. There was SO much going on right before restart happened.

The catch with restart was, if everyone didn't post, then old storyline came back. A lot of us were very passionate about restarting because we had to stop our kickass plots. They WERE kickass plots. Plots that took time and a lot of planning and everything. Now we'll never know them. I mean, going on for 2 years... all the relationships between the characters are gone now. We had such a solid foundation for plot building and everything. I hated that. To lose every story and to start over to create ones to try to create the magic. That sucks. I tried my VERY best to keep AK up, I asked if anyone needed help. No seemed to be the answer. -_- Tch. To lose all those 2 years. Damn that sucked. I even learned HTML to make this peeji for minna to boost spirits.

I don't see 6 restart people posting. Some people didn't even post. I know it was a busy time of the year. I did the test. I thought this restart was useless as only a handful of people were posting. If another restart happened, I would be SO pissed. I would NOT wait another 6 months. I decided to see who was really loyal to AK and would stay. @_@ I pissed lots of people off. Heh. Ok, maybe not a lot. But still. I made a lot of people suffer.

If I kicked someone off, if they wanted back in AK, they would tell me, hai?

But now you all know how it feels. To just have everything stop so your character couldn't do anything. I waited many times in the RPG for people to post. It was pretty much the same thing with being kicked off huh? To just not do anything and wait for something to happen. I lost all my plots. My story. I have billion of fanfics but they're all spoilers. Other people had their say in it too. Why didn't you all take responsibility? I really did try to make AK fun. I posted, I would interact with your character, I had plots.

Well, now I don't see 6 restart people. It doesn't to make a difference. But what about the people who want the old storyline back? ::shrugs:: I guess that's what I'm trying to answer. We'll see. I just want AK to be good. Really I do. For 2 years, I talked about AK, planned for AK, played with characters with people. O_o I really am serious about making AK my life project, which is why I don't want people who aren't interested or waste time and etc.

-_- So yeah. I hated this restart because you have to think of new things to do, etc etc and all that. It's hard when you had characters you liked toturing in the peak of the RPG. ::sigh:: What do you guys think? I want you to know these consequences, when you don't post, leave people hanging. It's not fair. Again, replies are always welcome.... o.O I mean, I'm just saying what I feel. You guys can too.

4-22-01

It's not like anyone will read this. It just shows how much confidence in AK I have, doesn't it? Oh well. Are any of you reading this right now? Eh. I might as well put something here. Saa. No activity. Fun. I'm that bored.

What's happening now? I don't know. You tell me.

It's nonsense. It will make sense once I explain it.

4-18-01

Hm. x.x I don't think I really have one... x.x; ^_^ but I really want to emphasize a few post parts of mine...

"Aniki." She looked up, bit her lip, and shut out everything else.... the corpses, the soon-to-be corpses, the mutilated entrails, the blurs she saw and felt and...

with an immediate and automatic reaction, she reached up to her ribbon.... and found the flower in her hair instead. Again, the flower's brilliant 'blaze' lit up, the enchanted energy of calm giving her a familiar power. The girl smiled easily, and with fast reflexes, she took the flower into her hands gently...

..fingered the petals with care...

and offered it to Ido with a grace that she had learned from watching someone so long ago. "Hana desu. Akai hana desu. Aneki no namae wa onaji desu. For you."

^_^ That is Aori. ^_^ Isn't she cute? ^_____^ ^_~ Ne. Aori is originally Dana-chan's character, but I borrowed her. ^^; My post. XD I want you all to really read that. ^____^ Exactly 'why' did the flower become a sort of blaze? ^____^ Of course, these questions are for those who really know the characters. Ohohohohoho. Those who figure out the answers will figure out the future....

^_^ Also.... *REALLY* read into the last line... (Translation: A flower. A red flower. Just like big sister's name. For you.) ^_^ I'll put up some clues... but... really. ^_^ ... Think about it.

Saa. ^_^ Another point. ^_^ If you look carefully in my posts, there are lots of little tidbits of information I show in my posts for each character. ^^ You can see I like to start mysteriously and then let you know about the character... check outthis post. It gives out a LOT of information... about everything in AK... at least, for what *I* plan. ^_^; It's a real interesting read. To me. ^_^ Really. Any comments?

o.O One last post question... ^_^ why do you think I put butterflies in a lot of my posts?

x.x Ok, that's enough. x.x; It's stupid. -.- o.O I forgot what Ir eally was gonna post. ^_^ But I might as well rant away now. As I have been ranting in the past, I really see something of great worth. It isn't some half assed RPG. Look at how much it grew in 2 years. All the plots and relationships and powers. @_@ I know I know, this is nothing new coming from out of my mouth. But I see AK as some intricate pattern of stories mismatched together to form a beautifully fabricated story. As I look back (O.o Why, when I was a lad~) I remember how simple it was. How it was simple, get seishi, do drama, summon the Goddess thing. But then all these characters popped up, and all these technicalities formed. Some people formed their own plots, etc... it was just... great.

@_@ I mean, I've finally come to discover that muns are supposed to hate their characters. x-x That's true. (Thanks Amy-sama!) x.x; And I also get good advise on how to do things (@_@ Thanks Amy-sama!) and opinions (Thanks Kiri-neesamaaaaa~! Danaaaaa-neechan~! Test subject-chaaaaaaan~! Nyoko-aneki~!) and gifts (Wah minna-san!) and everything. x_X Man, this sounds so cheesy.

XD I even remember having that 3 hour conversation or whatever... NYOKO! DANA! AHAHAHAHAHAHA! o_o Hm.I love forming theories and plotlines and everything. ^_^ Oh well.... z.z that's all I'll say for now...