Gundam
Wing is not mine. Duo is not mine. Wufei is not mine. Trust me, you can have
him. Natalie Imbruglia (sp?) owns the song "Torn." Don't sue, onegai!
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Duo: OH GOD, NOT AGAIN!
Shi-chan: Under threat of bodily harm, I have written a pre/sequel to
"Told You So."
Seki: The girl actually reads her reviews.
Shi-chan: *shrugs* Well...yeah.... somewhat obsessively...
Seki: *sweatdrop*
Shi-chan: Actually, getting specific, this is a prequel. Heheheh!
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Um, yeah...
"Torn,"
~By Shimegami-chan
Shounen ai, angst angst angst...
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Here you have it, a prelude to "Told You So." This is
what happened a year before, the incident I alluded to. ^_^ 2x5, 1x2. Okies?
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
He had beautiful onyx eyes and smile that was so rare, whenever I saw it I felt
it was reserved just for me.
Where are you, Fei-kun?
You were the light of my life, and I know that I was yours. What happened to
you?
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
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Wufei walked slowly in the rain. Sometimes the Chinese youth scared himself,
acting the way he did. Or maybe he was more frightened of the way he'd been
acting these past months.
It wasn't that he didn't care, he did...but he didn't care for Duo the way Duo
seemed to care about him.
Duo deserved better than a lie.
Wufei told himself that this was for both of their own good, that he was doing
this because he was Duo's friend and it was his duty.
When had he started thinking of Duo as a friend rather than a lover?
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There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what’s going on, nothing's fine I'm torn
Where were you?
I'm not supposed to wake up without you. If you didn't want me, why didn't you
tell me? I need you, Fei-kun. I need to wake up beside you and watch your eyes
open to the first rays of sunshine. I'm supposed to hog all the blankets while
I sleep. I'm supposed to kiss you good-bye when we leave for work.
I wonder why.
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn
Duo~
You deserve better. I'm sorry.
~Chang Wufei
I knew you were a man of little words, my friend, but this is too much. You
didn't care enough to tell me in person. Were you leading me on all this time?
I held the note in trembling fingers. 8 words, that was all it took to shatter
my heart. Didn't you know how much I loved you?
Or did you just not care?
So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn
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Duo was so full of energy, so full of life. I was floored when he told me for
the first time, and for the first time I looked him over as a lover would, saw
his nervous smile, red-hot blush creeping up his cheeks. I never thought he
would have chosen me over Heero. The unstoppable American actually didn't know
what to say, for once. I was in the same plight. He didn't ask if I felt the
same way. He just...told me. And that night, somehow, we ended up sharing a
kiss that intoxicated me so deeply I thought I would drown. After that, nothing
came between us...until now.
I feel so guilty, unable to return his feelings.
But now...what's wrong with me? Why do I regret that decision?
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I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn. Torn.
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It's not too late to turn back, I know. He might not even be awake yet. But I'm
still confused...oh, so confused. Duo...why do I wish I'd never done this, and
yet am so happy I have? I tell myself it's because I don't want to hurt you,
but I think it goes much deeper than that...
Duo...I'm afraid.
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There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn
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Would it be cruel of me to ask you to wait? I can't do that. I don't know how
long I'll feel this way. I love you so dearly, my koi...like I've never loved
anyone else. It scares me so bad. That's not right. That's not the way it
should be.
Forgive me if I lied to you, forgive me for the lies I force upon you now...do
you hate me? I think I would die if I knew you felt that way.
Forgive me for this, my Duo. Wo ai ni ..don't wait for me, koi, just know that
I love you. Even if I can't show it the way you need me to.
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I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I wonder what this means.
I was so sure of our relationship. He's taken a piece of my heart with him...
I slowly get dressed, ignoring the absence of his clothes in the closet. His
toothbrush in the bathroom. His shoes by the door. Am I in shock? That would
seem a good explanation.
Maybe I don't need to go to work today after all. Sally will wonder where he
is. And if she doesn't, she'll know why I'm not there.
Hell...does it matter anymore?
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I slump back down on the messy bed and stare at the ceiling. Maybe I'll just
quit, that way I won't have to worry about their questions. I'm not going to
lie to them. I'll just stay away.
If I lay here forever, would I just fade away?
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Would you come back to me then, my love?
You're a little late, I'm already torn.
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Shi-chan: Ooh, angst. Now read "Told You So." and you'll have the
whole sob story!
Wufei: You're heartless, onna.
Shi-chan: No, YOU'RE heartless. Read the fic I just wrote!
Wufei: I already did.
Shi-chan: See!? You meanie!
Duo: *crying* Wufei! How could you *sniff* leave me like that!?
Wufei: Maxwell...
Heero: I would advise taking Shi to see a psychiatrist.
Wufei: I would have to agree.
Duo: I actually kinda liked it...IF WU-CHAN HADN'T LEFT ME TORN!
Seki: The fic is OVER, Duo, for God's sake!
Duo: *cries*
Quatre: *pats Duo's head* He gets so into these things...