September 16, 2004
Why did this have to happen?
She's too young to go
She wasn't even 16yrs old
She was a great daughter, sister, and friend to all
Her life ended like the leaves in the fall
Just wondering where she is boggles the mind
I'm so filled with emotion no words can describe
I'm angry because this happened
I'm sad because she's gone
Why did he decide to take her life?
Why her, out of all the fish in the pond?
Where to go from here, how do I move on?
I just can't believe that my friend is gone
Why did he feel it was her time to go?
What was his reasoning? No one will know
We all miss her dearly
For she touched all of our hearts
And now that she's gone
We're broken apart
Lauren, I miss you, how much? You may not know
I am deeply saddened but I do not let it show
This was written in your rememberance to show how much I care
Life just isn't the same without you there
R.I.P
Lauren N. Zinsavage
September 5, 1988-August 18, 2004
(Meine liebe, meine schmerz, meine leben...)
My Love: The one man I can't be with because of the past.
The families that keep us from being together.
The one thing that I'm sure of.
The one thing that brings me back to reality.
The feeling in my heart when I speak his name.
The one, of many,thing that causes...
My Pain: The one thing that makes me cry.
The hurt I feel when my soulmate isn't near.
The tears that fall down my face.
The feeling of being torn between my love and my family.
The pressure of raising a child alone.
The loneliness & despair that are a part of...
My Life: The gift that keeps on giving.
The thing that makes me try harder.
The most screwed up thing I have ever heard of.
The one thing I cannot fail in.
You left me...
I thought that we had something great
But all that's left now is pure hate
You left me hanging when I needed you most
Now you act as if I'm a ghost
You haven't written back, you won't take my calls
I guess we weren't meant to be after all
I want to know what made you leave
Did I do something wrong or was it just me?
I know about the others but I just don't understand
You were my boyfriend and now you're not even my friend
Maybe you couldn't take us being apart
But now here I stand with a broken heart
You had me believing that you just might have cared
With the way you kissed me and played with my hair
The way you talked made me feel badly missed
But when you stopped calling I became severely pissed
I don't mind that you packed up and left me
But I'm so over you now that I wish you could see
I've known you for a long time now
And I'm getting feelings way deep down
Right now I can't tell you but I feel like I should
Do you think we'll make it? I think we could
I can't begin to tell you why I feel this way
I didn't even realize this until today
You're not in my dreams but you are in my heart
We're not even close to growing apart
Everyday we grow closer to each other
But not so close that you are my brother
When we're apart I miss you like crazy
I want to much to be your lady
It's too soon to tell you that I feel this way
I'll just give it a few more days
I don't know why my feelings have changed
But I like it and I hope it stays
We used to be just friends but now I want more
But these feelings run deep, right down to the core
I'm trying to figure out what changed my mind
It's one of those things that happen over time
Feelings change and I guess mine did
So now my heart is up for bid
I am falling apart without you
Because you are what my heart demands
It is tough in this world today
But at least I have a good man
Your eyes are like the sun
They brighten up my day
You make me happy in every way
And I am glad you're here to stay
I don't like being out of your arms
Because I'm not safe from the world and harm
I run my fingertips over your curves
Because you are the one that I deserve
You always make me happy
I could never cry
But the way I feel about you
I feel like I could die
You're always full of suprises
Everyday is like a new adventure
We explore our love in different ways
I can't wait to reach our future
My love for you will NEVER fade
For you always make it right
I love the way you touch me
And when you kiss me goodnight
I have too many feelings
In which some I cannot express
But while you sleep soundly
I am awake upon your chest
What happened to the days when we used to get along?
When we argued about nothing and smiled all day long
When we used to laugh and joke about the troubles in our lives
What happened to the days when you wouldn't let me cry?
What happed to the days when everything was right?
When you used to call me in the early morning light
When you used to come and see me because I was missed
What happened to the days when all we did was kiss?
What happened to the days when we would never fight?
And even if we did we'd apologize with all out might
The days when I thought that nothing could go wrong
Now we think there's no reason to carry on
