| Poems/Songs |
| Home Home. My view of Home was a sanctuary, somewhere to go for support, not ridicule. Home. The word has lost all meaning, shattering that image I once had. My hopes turned to delusions. Home; the tormented hell that consumes my soul. Home. It's foundation built on lies and mistrust, while it's walls made of broken or empty promises. Home or prison of an open mind? Home, where being myself is never enough. Home; broken beyond repair. This is no longer my Home. Home is where the heart is, and my heart is not here. My heart is among my true friends, where I am truly happiest, so please my friend, welcome me Home. |
| Fade Fading away like the dying heart beat of lovers scorned, is my chance for redemption. Is this my Fate? To sit here and suffer? I can only see one way out...but that way is blocked, by my own fear and I cry. My tears fall gently to the soft Earth below, staining the ground with my agony, like the blood of a slain warrior. At this moment, I realize what I have denied for far too long; I am human, nothing more, nothing less. In this, my moment of comprehension, I drop to my knees and weep still yet, letting the emotion surge forth and rush to my awaiting MOTHER below me. With open arms, my MOTHER welcomes and comforts me like a lost child who has finally returned home, washing away the sorrow from my heart. Now it is my darkness that fades... |
| Mother's Love I endure another sleepless night again, Wondering when all this is going to end. My mind races & I'm filled w/ conflict. All this pain, it's making me sick. How could you do this to me? I guess what you wanted, I could never be. Though, thru your eyes it must look different, But until I know for sure, I'll never be content. I have to understand, I have to know why, To get rid of these demons that burrow inside. I'm forced to remember everything you said, It's really beginning to fuck w/ my head, Tainting my precious memories W/ all your lies & hypocricies. As much as I hate you, why can't I just let you walk away? And better yet, why am I letting you make me feel this way? I struggle in vain, but I force myself to see, I didn't matter to you, so why should you matter to me? |
| Halo Always one step behind, I must be losing my mind With every breath I take, I'm about to break. All I want in life is to be happy, who are you to take that from me? What do you want me to do? Swallow my pride for the sake of being w/ you? Now I stand alone, yet another product of a broken home. On the edge silently screaming, lost in thought, tears steadily streaming. Thought I had found hope in you, 'til you took my life and broke it in two. Off my beaten path I stray, losing my faith, but still I pray. Nail me to the cross again, try to rid myself of these painful sins. That's when I found a new love, sent to me from the heavens above, To save my soul & make sense of things as she guides me to a new pair of wings. |
| Mother On this path, I walk alone Always looking for someone to welcome me home. What I couldn't find was here all the time; Out of sight and out of my mind. Just another painful day drifts on by. My dreary mood reflects my ominous sky. And while another part of me dies, I wear my forged smile as my disguise. Have to get rid of this, gotta clear my head Before I do something drastic and end up dead. Bitterness fills my precious heart, Creating my hate & driving us apart. You left me here again & and I begin to cry. All alone, I'm left to wonder why. Tired emotions filling me up, To the point where I've had enough. Can't deal w/ the pain anymore That comes from you walking out that door. My heart feels like its been betrayed, But would be worse if you had stayed. So I guess it's all for the best, Though you never told me why you left. I'm all grown up now, as you can see, So please tell me Mother, why'd you leave me? |
| Tell Me Tell me momma, how�s your life been? Now that you�re free, how�s your life of sin? And tell me momma, was it worth losing a child�s love? And was it worth losing yourself from the Lord above? Oh, I�ve been thinking of you And of all the things that you put me through, Wondering if you�re thinking of me too On these dark days that seem so blue. So, tell me momma, do you like the change? Now that there�s no lives to help arrange? And tell me momma, was it worth it? To just give up and not even worry about it? Oh, I�ve been thinking of you And of all the things I�ve wanted to prove. Just want to show who I am to you Now that your life�s almost through. Tell me momma, did you expect me to cry? Follow you forever until I knew why? And tell me momma, was it a lesson you thought I should learn? To fight for the mother�s love that I yearn? Oh, I�ve been thinking of you And of all the things you put me through, Wondering if you�re thinking of me too On these dark days that seem so blue. Now, tell me momma, what about the promises you made? Do they matter now or should I just let them fade? Tell me momma, are you finally happy? Are you even missing me? Oh, I�ve been thinking of you And of all the things I�ve wanted to prove Just want to show who I am to you Now that your life�s almost through Tell me momma, have you been thinking of me? If so, was it from guilt or sincerity? And tell me momma, would you live your life the same? Having all your choices remain? Oh, I�ve been thinking of you, But only because I�m not heartless. |
| Self Testament Walking alone, along a road that seems to go nowhere, feeling like no one�s out there, like no one cares, When dark clouds hover overhead ominously, casting shadows down upon me, making it too hard to see. And here comes the rain, a projection of pain, Washing all I know--all I love--away, flooding around me, sweeping away all I�ve learned today, Leaving me stripped of all but pride, left questioning what�s left inside, Sifting through the way I feel, wondering now which is facade and what was real. This tempest beats on me relentlessly, trying to destroy me, showing no mercy as it pounds me into self-pity I drop down to my knees, cast away my conceit, and ask for the help I so desperately need. My body aches, my soul is tattered, but I�ve been given the strength to fight on for all that�s ever mattered. Dark of day, dark of night, squeezing my eyes shut tight, but still I fight. I refuse to loose, won�t give in, these demons buried within shall not win. A quitter is something I will never be, not as long people like you count on me, now... Break. Break away from all the agony. Break. Break away from all the misery. Break. Break away from all the pain. Break. Break away, just break away. |
| Everlasting Standing here alone and I wonder what has become of me. Stripped of all but pride, I drop to my knees. Wrapped in a cocoon of emptiness, again I weep. Shedding tears of frustration and fear, I cry myself to sleep. I squeeze my eyes shut tight To force out the demons that come at night. All this--all this is for you, All my pain, all my frustration too, My torment, my anger I go through every day Doesn�t seem like it�ll ever go away My head is fucked, my world crumbles Tried to walk away , but again I stumbled Everything that I could say to you Won�t ever take away my love for you, But still I try and break free From all the hurt and misery that you�ve given me. Night after night I lay here in my bed, Our memories forcing their way back into my head. Just like before, I dropped my defenses and let you in And I just wound up getting hurt again, But that�s okay, that�s alright Because I don�t have the desire to fight. So go ahead, walk out that door, Just like all the others from before. They say if you love something, set it free. Well here�s your chance, so I guess we�ll see, Whether or not it was meant to be, Whether or not you�ll end up coming back to me, But I pray for your sake, That when you realize what you lost, it won�t be too late. But like I said, it�s quite okay, So you just go ahead and walk away, Don�t worry about this heart of mine, I�ve been here before and I�ll be just fine. |
| Affliction Steadily, I die inside and I don�t know why. Have no more tears to shed, but still I feel a need to cry. It hurts so bad as it tears me down from the inside, All I wanna do is run away, find a safe place to hide, A place away from this torture that burrows so deep. Poisoning my restless mind and in these morbid thoughts creep, In the place of what I love is the home they make, Burrowing deeper still, slowly, it�s my life it takes. Slipping away, so far away, within its twisted obsession, Leaving me dead to the world, searching the void for the right direction. (Chorus) Swallowed by darkness again, swallowed once more, Singled out by my life, Done closed my mind, locked behind the door, Strapped to the table, I feel the cold edge of the knife, Cutting thru my apprehension, I feel it release. Release. Release my affliction. Do you like seeing me in my weakened state? Constantly reminding me of my mistakes? Down on my knees, begging for this to end. So much to deal with, don�t know where to begin. I can�t take this another night, Fearing the demons that come and hold me tight, Please won�t you come and cut me free? Return to me what I used to be, Give back what you have taken, Taken from me. (screaming) Give (pause) it (pause) back. (Chorus x 2) Beat me down, break me open, (Break!) Watch the blood flow from within. (Break me!) Beat me down, break me open, (Break!) Let it out, it tears me again. (Break me!) (whispered voice) I�m broken. |
| Suck It Up Inspired by What I Have to Do by Flaw� You�ve been running away, running away for far too long, afraid that your choices might be wrong. Running away from what you can�t see, scared to death of what you might be. How can you be chased if you refuse to run any farther? Running away just seems to make things harder. How can you possibly hope to contend with what seems to have no end? (whispered voice: Just give it up) (Chorus) Caught up in a tempest of self-degradation You cry out for help, but no one seems to answer back. Locked inside your own social segregation, Love and compassion you seem to lack. Only a few of us listen to your call, Doing what we can to bring you truth, But you�d rather us let you fall, Just look around and see the proof Wrapped up in all things that aren�t right, you tend to loose your sight by squeezing those eyes tight, Crying about how bad it is, but your sorrow only seems to lessen his. You try so hard for absolute perfection, taking just yet another step in the wrong direction. Your blinded by your own tragedy, eternally consumed by agony, you forget all about friends like me, (whispered voice: The ones who love you) (Chorus) The wrong people tend to lead you astray, but you have to suck it up, live on another day, Just take a look around, then come back and tell me what it is you�ve found. Is it really so bad? Sorrow consumes all the that you�ve ever had? Why do u refuse to see the facts? Why can�t you see that you�re worth more than that? (whispered voice: So much more) (Chorus x 2) (screaming) Save yourself! Save (pause) your (pause) self! (soft melody) Damn it, I said save yourself, You�re the only one who can. |
| All For Nothing You look at me and I don�t know what to say, So I say nothing and just look away, �Cause your icy stare fills me w/ unbearable pain; Everything I�ve ever said to you has been taken in vain. I�ve run out of solutions, so please tell me why I should even bother? It�s not even worth it to try. I dropped my defenses and let you in And as usual, I ended up getting hurt again. So now I�ll just escape into my shell, My haven away from this personal Hell, But what the fuck does that matter to you?? I was just your fucking scapegoat to get you through. I tried so God damned hard to be Everything that you needed; anything as long as you were happy But what the fuck did that earn me? Another fucking heartache and more feelings of misery. All your promises only promised me pain. Knowing that, how in the hell can I stay sane? Tell me why all this shit is happening?? Why aren�t MY FEELINGS worth a God damned thing?? Don�t you think I�ve had enough agony?? For once in my fucking life, just let me be free. You�ve left me with nothing but resentment. Why can�t you just let me be content? You�ve taken all that is there to take, Now leave me be; there�s nothing left to break. You�ve already broken my pride, And what�s left is steadily dying inside. So this is it then, I�m back at the beginning again, Left alone when I couldn�t have needed you more, But that doesn�t really matter to you, I�m sure, Only concerned about your greedy little heart, It�s the thing that�s driven us apart. But now it�s my turn to be greedy; Because I need you now, just as you once needed me. |
| I Dream Slipping back into my fantasy, I comfort myself with images of you and me. I close my eyes and dream away, Lost in love, together we lay, Taking in your sweet intoxication, Exchanging soft, fiery kisses of appreciation. A depiction of my endless desire, A passion for you that can never tire, It burns so bright from within, Coming to life in my dreams again. I dream of exquisite gardens where our souls play Under the moonlit sky until the break of day. In the garden where time seems to stand still, I surrender to you my life, my will. Spellbound by your indescribable beauty, I take you in my arms and hold you passionately And together we dance, Never wanting to awaken from my trance. Rhythmically, we move as if one, Dancing until the rising of the morning sun. I dream of an unparalleled paradise, A mystic sanctuary free from emotional sacrifice, And I can see you there standing in the rain. You take me by the hand and kiss away my pain. The drops of rain roll together with your tears, And as they wash away your troublesome fears, I stare into eyes so deep, Undecided if I�m still asleep, And suddenly the clouds break and the moon shines through. Basking in it�s shimmering radiance, deeply, I kiss you. In my dreams, I feel a love so strong, A love so pure, it couldn�t be wrong. Flowing together like an orchestrated symphony, Our eyes meet and I touch you delicately. My fingers run softly across your supple skin, Taking us to a level we�ve never been. You shudder slightly from my tender touch, Entranced in a love we�ve wanted so much. And now that I�ve found that love within you, I have awakened to realize my dream came true. |
| Guardian Angel You do something to me that I just can�t explain, It shows in the way you wipe my tears and kiss away my pain. You take away all my sorrow, And when I lose my Halo, it�s yours I borrow. I feel right at home in your arms Where I�ll always be sheltered from harm. Now wrap your elegant wings around me, Gaze into my eyes ever so lovingly, and kiss me softly. Be my guiding light Always shining bright, A beacon of love Sent from the heavens above. And from the bottom of my heart, I�m truly thankful That God sent me you, my Guardian Angel. |
| Angel's Eyes Can you see it? A love so pure, a bond so perfect? Our souls entwine, Bound together �til the end of time. As I speak these words, you gaze at me with eyes so sweet, Filling that void in my heart, making me complete. Eyes left untainted, shining bright and innocent, It takes just one look and I�m content, My woes seem to disappear And I�m left without a care. They sparkle with wonder and simple delight Every time you kiss me goodnight. Burning with a passion I�ve never experienced before, This isn�t love, it�s something more, Something of higher degree; My love for you, and your love for me. You make me feel so alive, So addictive, you�re my highest high, And it�s such an incredible surprise To wake each morning and look into those eyes, Eyes of an Angel from the heavens above, My darling you, the one I love to love. |
| Bleeding Heart If I told you that I miss you, would you tell me the same? If we were to be separated, would your feelings still remain? If I were to show you my sorrow, would it make you cry? And if the truth would hurt me, would you tell me a lie? Do I take my chances and play along? Or are these feelings telling me something wrong? My room spins as I lay in bed, With thoughts of you steadily filling my head. Beautiful, but deadly; sinful, yet pure. Heart beats steady, but still not sure. There�s so much that I want to say, But can�t find the words and you walk away. And as you leave me behind, Only one thought lingers in my mind; To my heart I must stay true. I whisper softly, "Why can't you see that I love you?� |
| My Butterfly ~}{~ Crazy, sexy, cool; the one who broke your heart was surely a fool, But forget it, it�s done, now in your life is only one, One that loves you for you and to your heart will always stay true. You call me your King, your world, your everything; But baby, I�m far from being royalty, just fallen for you completely. Before you, I was always so stressed, forgot to count how many times I�d been blessed, But now I got you, so now there�s no need to sing the blues, My angel, my baby, the only woman for me. People will say what they will, but it doesn�t matter �cause I�ll love you still, It�ll be you and me, girl, against the world. They can hate, they can love, they can send their praise to the good Lord above, But as long as you�re happy, that�s all that truly matters to me. I�m going to stand beside you forever, �cause believe me baby, there�s no one better; You�re everything I could have ever asked for, everything about you I simply adore. So as I write to you about what I�m going to do, I want you to hold back your tears, smile strongly, and pray with me for promising years. We�ve been through so much, both you and I, but above it we will fly. Gracefully fluttering through the sky, forever cherishing my love, it�s you, my beautiful Butterfly. |
| Zombie Bury me tenderly under soft dirt. Buried with tainted thoughts in my mind, Take away all the pains that still hurt And give back to me what I had to leave behind. So much for my immortality, Nothing but another facade in which I was fed, My constant reminder of your superiority. Down in the hole where I was led, Trapped under dirt, it�s where I will remain. Above, black roses begin to bloom. My life, my sanity, I struggle to regain, Staring upwards at the roof of my tomb. The sun rises and down here I sit, Steadily losing my reasons for trying. Just another day confined to the same old shit. My agony, my torment remains undying. I feel my face, it�s steadily decaying, Flesh rotting; a zombie of my former self, Seems to me it�s too late for praying, My humanity stolen away and put back on the shelf. A soiled soul encased within my infected shell, It�s all that I seem to have been left with. Sentenced to live my unlife locked away in this cell. Rain begins to fall and still, down here I sit, Down in my hole where I can�t ever be saved. Above, the thunder systematically rumbles, But to this dank pit I�ve been enslaved. With no where to hide, my sanity, it steadily crumbles. With my body, my mind begins its decay, I feel it slip out of reach, I�m losing my soul, I feel it diminish with every passing day. Cast to my grave for doing as I was told, Down in the hole where I can�t ever be saved, Decomposing, festering, look at what�s become of me; Left to rot in my shallow grave, Sullied into nothing more than a restless zombie. |
| Solace Painful tears fall silently to the floor. Taken from you was those you adore. Can�t hold on to all this pain Caused by the lives that were taken in vain. Try to breathe and try to reflect On how you feel and how to accept. They may be gone, But their memory lives on Inside of your heart and inside of you, Trust me darling, my words speak true. And if you need me, I�m always here, Forever supportive and completely sincere. I�ll be there to dry your tears And to expel your fears. I�ll be your strength when you feel weak, And wipe the tears gently from your cheek. I�ll be your eyes when you�ve lost your sight, Guide you through, making sure everything�s alright. It�ll all be okay, this I promise you, Just keep faith and you�ll pull through. |
| Muse Stripped naked before critical eyes, I am studied, observed, and scrutinized. Measured by standards and practices Set by society�s masochists, I�m looked upon as nothing but a drone, A puppet to guide, a servant to hone. Pieces are picked apart, flaws are magnified, Cast stones of conceit upon what�s left inside. They attempt to mold and shape me, Into another victim of conformity. Ignorance of the masses that blindly follow The propaganda that they�re forced to swallow Corrupt and consume like a cancer, Mindlessly searching the void for an answer. But try their best, try they might, To break my spirit and dwindle my light. They can�t break my dedication To my own individuality�s preservation. I am strong, I am free, But most importantly, I am Me. |
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| Breathe: Inspired by a collection of songs by Garbage� I don�t need an examination, I know I�m not alright. But still they give me medication To fight the things that come at night. I wear myself thin worrying about you. They tell me that it�s senseless, Stressing over all the little things you do, It�s just another of my dependents. But lately, I find I�m the only one Who�s fighting against everyone. Can�t bear to face the truth, It�s a losing battle and I am the proof, But the trick is to keep breathing. My fingers are blistered and bloody From probing at the walls of my cell, Nobody gives a damn about me, I can�t even save myself. Face is smeared with blood and tears, These scars of a tainted heart are ever present. I�ve been fighting alone for all these years, And still, I�m labeled as �co-dependent�. But lately, I find I�m not the only one Who has trouble trusting everyone. Can�t bear to let go of my pride, Despite it�s what�s killing me inside, But the trick is to keep breathing. Always the one who has to stay strong, But still the one who has to get dragged down. Ironically, I�ve been the weak one all along, Maybe I�ll just give up this time around. And somehow the blame is laid on me, Still bearing the label of �co-dependent�. I�m not as durable as it may seem And I�ve had my fill of this resentment. But lately, I find I�m not the only one, My fears will affect everyone. Can�t bear to lose the ones that I hold dear Because I was too scared to face my fear, But the trick is to keep breathing. I won�t be the one who�s going to let you down, (The trick is to keep breathing) Going to continue fighting this time around. (The trick is to keep breathing) I won�t be the one who�s going to let you down, (The trick is to keep breathing) Going to continue fighting this time around, I�ve got to keep breathing. |
| Downfall Pick myself up, Seems I�ve been here before. Dust myself off, Can�t help but want more. It�s such a bitter taste, The mixture of blood and decay. The memory of your face, Oh how it haunts day after day. (chorus) Penetrate my skin, Feel the pain linger within. Cut me off, Make my heart stop, Right here, right now, I will stop it somehow. Hands unsteady, Palms all sweaty, I�ve been left alone, Can�t do this on my own, Can�t be on my own. Now I�m locked here in this place, Driven mad from my descent. Lost everything as I fell from grace, My faith, I�ve begun to resent. Lead me to the brink, You lead me astray. My pride, it begins to shrink, I will make this go away. (chorus) My stitches, they have come undone, Thread by thread, I behold, See the blood begin to run, Drip from wounds both new and old. Blood and tears smeared upon my face, Festering wounds that scar the heart. Can�t help but wonder if it�s all a waste, Not even knowing where to start. (chorus x 2) Will I ever leave this place? Or am I doomed to live in such disgrace? What is it that I�m hidden from? Is there nothing more to come? It�s always so dark in this place, Surrounded by all that I refuse to face. All my hate I cannot fake, In this place is where I will break. |
| Slave No More And I ask myself, why am I lying next to you? You must be blind to all I say and do. Then you told me that I was �The One�, But just as I gave in, you said, �It�s over and I�m done�, And still I wonder what went wrong, Must�ve been a lie all along �Cause I don�t feel it anymore, I�m left numb. Don�t touch me, you said you were done, Now leave me be, let it lie, Just go away and let me die. You said above all, we were friends, But guess that doesn�t matter in the end �Cause you were quick to turn on me, To turn your back so hastily. And your kind words, they steadily kill, Plunging the knife deeper still, While your hatreds, I�m immune, Your agony I seem to consume, Taking it in and making it my own, Now you see the side I�ve never shown, The whirling depths of which I hide, The monstrous loathing I keep locked inside, Not just for you, don�t be so vain, For anyone who�s given me this pain. I�ll make it my strength or take it to my grave, But I shall not become just another of your slaves. So again I ask myself, why am I lying next to you? What have you made me succumb to? Surely it was not of my choosing, This is all so damn confusing. But still, here I lie, next to you...and to myself About so many things locked with me in my Hell. Do you know I�m faking when I try and look you in the eye? I can feel myself shaking in the very depths of my mind. I can�t stomach the sight of you anymore, My revulsion, my companion from once before, It�s one and the same to me these days, All the color gone, nothing left but shades of gray. Stupid girl, just a stupid girl That used to be my world, But now it seems you�re my enemy, Poisoning that world for me, Playing these vicious head games, These childish things meant to maim. I hate you, maybe more than I hate myself, But your chapter�s over and I�ve put the book back on the shelf, So why is that you still hurt me? Why is that? Why can�t you just leave me be? Is it pleasure you gain From seeing me in pain? You�re a leech, a parasite, that�s what you became, Preying on others; their love, their life, you drain. And in that thought, I seem to find Understanding and peace of mind. So now I take every thing you say And blow them the fuck away, Before you, calmly I rise, The surprise swirling in your cold eyes, You command me to return, The desperation in your voice, how vividly it burns, But still I chose to walk away, Taking with me, my life today. |
| Redemption Would you take a walk with me? Take a little time to just talk to me? Would you take me by the hand, And make my fantasy a reality again? �Feel me up with loving temptation, �No time for contemplation,� I said, �Just provide me with that tender sensation So that I may rest my tired head.� I see redemption in my sight, Honest and pure, I can feel it burn. I feel you there making sure it�s alright, Now give to me that which I yearn. (Chorus) Would you fly away with me, To a place no mortal eyes can see? Keep you in this spell you�re under, If only you�d take my hand, never will there be another. Lost what is gone, Can�t have what can�t be replaced. Need you here just to carry on, Need a shoulder to bury my tear-stained face. Feel so damn empty, like I�ve lost my soul. Stuck in a self-induced confusion, I struggle to maintain control, Watching you adoringly in sweet, devoted illusions. Something�s missing, it�s left behind Now I�m tumbling back in time. I�ve been here before, Need to feel the one I adore. (Chorus x 2) There�ll never be another. |
| Linger Patiently, I sit here alone, waiting for you. Separated still, but it�s all I can do. Undeniably, All your heart belongs to me, So, still I wait until we can be. Anxiously, I rap my fingers to the tune, To the rhythm to which I�m consumed. Faithfully, I�ve waited for you for this long, Lost deep in memory of our song. Dependently, Longing for your body next to mine, To feel the warmth just this one time. Nervously, I wait as months turn to what seems like years. One by one, the days drop like shallow tears. Closely, I watch the seconds tick on by, Until it�s time for you to arrive. Ardently, I embrace you, my dear, So long I�ve waited for you here. Cravingly, In your arms, I have longed to be, To capture your radiance before me. Peaceably, I can finally rest with your body next to me. I am forever yours, your tired little devotee. |
| Medicated First time you found me, I was chasin' down Nothin' but pipe dreams in a field of emptiness, But who'd have thought I'd end up chasin' you? I was beaten down and kicked around, And it felt like I was bursting at the seams. I was jilted, I was jaded, Thought that love was over-rated, But then you took me by the hand, Told me you understand, And gave reason back to a dying man. I need my medicine, I can feel it from within; My body�s withdrawing again, And I need you to calm this addiction. There's nothing that I wouldn't do To stay around and be close to you, But when you're gone, life gets so complicated, So I need you here to keep me medicated. |
| My Imagination Just my imagination, A fantasy of my creation. Everything is as it seems In a world built of childhood dreams. Just my imagination, But still a welcome presentation Of the games we used to play. Just wish I could stay, Here in my imagination. Would be a refreshing vacation From this grey reality, Won�t you come join me In my imagination. My imagination, What a sweet intoxication. We can live for the trials we once had, Or let them go and simply be glad. Be thankful that for this long, we could survive, Carry on in a life that won�t let us leave alive, My verification of hope and aspiration. Drift back to my illusion, My sweet, comforting delusion, Tucked away in childhood memories, Living out this life�s fantasies, But at the end of the day Comes the end of the game I play. Just my imagination, my imagination. But tomorrow brings new expectations For a world so cold and strange To become a world of change. It�s not my imagination, my meditation; It�s become my inspiration, my dedication To make my world of fantasy Into a world of reality. No longer just my imagination, But a dreaming mind�s adaptation To drown a dying society out, And replace it with things we dream about. You say it�s just my imagination? Well, what are you doing to end the degradation? |
| Suffocate (unfinished) I could take all the things she�s put me through And bury them deep within, Keep them hidden even from you, But I can feel it rising once again. This hollow torment that forever haunts, Coming in the coldness of these lonely nights, It drowns me in my very own thoughts, You�re gripping my throat and holding tight. And it�s you that suffocates, Smothers everything that makes me real. And it�s you that brings my heartaches, That won�t let these wounds heal. You won�t always hover over me, With your shadow stifling my light. Playing in a head that hangs lowly, Making sure nothing is ever all right, And I gasp for breath as I suffocate, Struggling to understand Why you feel the need to decimate, To deprive me of everything you can. |