sunsetbeach by: shelly

“Time and again, there are those changes that we cannot end. As sure as time keeps going on and on, my love for you would be FOREVERMORE…”

–         from the song, “Forevermore” by Side A Band

Love is like a scenery along a sunset beach. Along your way, you’ll see a precious shell. You’ll try to pick it up and get to know that shell. In your hand is a very precious thing, so feeble, so priceless that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart. For so many times, seeing this shell completes your day, or complete the whole you. You have loved this shell so much that letting it go would be like letting go of your life along the beach as well. Sometimes you wish it would just be there forever, lying on the thousandth sands and if ever you want to pick it, it would be so easy. You tend to be selfish at times because you want to keep it for yourself. Suddenly, you’ll know the true fact that you’re not the owner of the shell. It is so hard. It’s hard to let go of the times that you used to view this shell and spend the rest of your time thinking about how beautiful it is. It’s hard that this shell might be owned by someone else who might pass by the seaside…

It’s a twinge in the heart to know that there’s a time to say goodbye…It’s hard to burry that shell beneath the thousandth sand and run away from all the tears and pains. There are times in our lives when we regret that we found someone “so nice” and “almost prefect” but then soon, we’ll realize that you’re not meant for each other. When you have learned to keep that person and consider it as a very special part of your life, it takes time to eradicate it once more. It takes myriad tears and pains in the heart. For some, it takes years of burdens. And even though you do almost everything just to make her stay, it’s really worthless because she slowly detach from your grasp.

In my life, I experienced the same thing. Once I met someone who inspired me the most but then, I learned that she was so vague from me and that I cannot have her forever. She have done so many alterations in my life and truly, she made me whole. I was able to stare at the stunning things in life. I knew how to appreciate everything that befall in my life. That person may be unaware but honestly, she helped me recognize my true self. I became real. It just so happens that life doesn’t give everything which are so precious. Sometimes, life engender a feeling that not everything can be into your hands. They may be taken by others already. For me, it took me a long time to realize that she’s happier in the arms of other person and she’ll experience more freedom if she’ll have a life of her own. We have so many disparities and we’re both strangers from our each other’s world. How I wish I could possess her but unfortunately, I can’t.

Years have passed by since I have let go of the “expecting a love return” thing. I used to cry over and over again. No one can help myself but me. I regret on all sorts of things, though there’s nothing to be regretted actually. I’ve done my best to show that she inspires me the most and that I was so grateful for having her as my one true mentor in life. Even for a short span of time, we’ve crossed roads and she left a special mark in my heart which means eternity for me already. Right now, whenever I deem of her, I see nothing but stars in my skies. I smile. I knew everywhere I go, her presence is with me. She bears with my pains and wipes away all my fears from an seemingly endless struggle which is my life. My love for her can never be erased and she can never be replaced. I promised myself that when I reached my own triumph, she would be one of the first people that I would thank so much.

Many people fear that forgetting is long. But then, letting go of someone doesn't necessarily mean you have to stop loving -- it only means that you allow that person to find her own happiness without expecting her to love you back. You just have to know how to accept the fact. As long as you have the memories and good insights you’ve shared with her, forgetting would not be signified as long.  And also, always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love, that doesn't mean that you failed in love. It’s a “guru” actually so that for the next time, you’ll be able to interfere all the problems. We can all survive with just picturesque reminiscences of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. You really don't have to forget someone you love. There may be times that you fall into loneliness and hatred but then, it is very important to keep in mind that you have to stand up again and love once more – but never force to love immediately. Let the time heal all wounds and a sheer of light will slowly come in your way. Never lose hope because love never dies. It only takes time. Who knows, one day as you walk along your own sunset beach, you’ll see a pebble or a star fish, more exquisite than anything you’ve seen in your entire existence…