Obsession
We have all done it, haven’t we! Wanted someone so much that we thought we were going to die because he or she didn’t want us? And, the more they don’t want us, the more obsessed we become with them. Fantasising about them, and building them up, until they couldn’t possibly live up to the image we have of them. That kind of obsession is alright. Safe. It’s when that obsession turns to hate, because of constant rejection, that things become dangerous. Most of us can handle it - the pain that is, but some can’t, and the object of their obsession becomes their whole life. Both the love, and the hate parts. This poem is dedicated to all those who can handle the pain of their obsession. If there is someone who you want desperately, who doesn’t want you, let me write a poem about it for you. You would be surprised how much it helps to get your thoughts, and feelings down on paper, and may just help stop your love for someone, turning to hate.
Obsession.
By Amanda Jay Clark.
Why is it whenever I
see you,
I’m a child, thirteen once more?
You’re not different to the others,
Yet the one I simply adore.
My knees are as weak as jelly,
And my stomach somersaults.
My heart races like electricity,
At least five-hundred-thousand volts.
My pattern of speech is affected,
And I giggle like a silly girl.
I can’t string a sentence together,
With my head in a dizzy whirl.
It’s no wonder you never come near me,
Or risk a romantic date.
Though I’m convinced that you’re my destiny.
My own romantic fate.
I dream of you every night,
And even more when I’m awake.
I need a cure for this obsession,
For my own sanity’s sake.
I constantly wish that you’d kiss me,
Come to me, for me to hold,
But if you did ever hold me or kiss me,
I know I’d just pass out cold.
I need to pull myself together,
Forget that you exist.
If I don’t do it soon, then I going,
Right round the twist.
I know how stupid I’m sounding,
And how pathetic I am,
But if I can’t have you, I’ll be celibate,
Live my life without a man.
Obsession, is protected by copyright, and remains the property of the author, Amanda Jay Clark.