His name is Zaini and he has captured my heart. How? You may ask. Well, it's all elementary. You get to know a guy, his personality within his psyche, his aura of perfection and Wham! It hits you. You know you are in Love. It happens to me too :) You see, When I get to know Zaini, I thought we'll just be friends coz I know nobody can melt this icy cold heart of mine which has been dormant since 2 years. I thought I was the strong independant singleton lady I assumed myself to be. But No, I was wrong. One date led to another and I was mesmerized by his ways. I found myself falling into a portal whereby we are engulfed in our own world. Nevertheless, I still keep thinking to myself.....could this be Him with a capital H? Nobody knows. As i wander, i smile to myself and thought, "Dreams don't come true unless you make it happen." And My dream is coming true. :)
*Baby Pics Of Us*
Once upon a time, there were two little kids running around, playing, unaware of their soon to be future. As innocent as can be *winks* ,these two lil' souls had their share of childhood days. On the left, Zaini is sittin snugly wit his adorable lil' smile. Sheikha is the one on the right. It was a time of Naiveness. At that same time, Zaini must have been playing with his transformers at one end of the country and Sheikha must have been playing on the swings at the other end of Singapore. Neither knew of the existence of each other. It was until much much later that fate (and a friend) brought them together....... And so the story continues........ ;>
*SheZai*
Update: 25/06/07 ------>> I'm having the jitterbugs of a bride-to-be...again. There are just so many many things to do. So many plans to make. I know where we stand. However, I am not losing my focus. The mind's eye is so important. What was the main reason why we decided to tie the knot? It was for our love for each other. And nothing else. We are actually planning for our future, instead of that one day. The future we hold dearly in our hands. The future we are going through Together as one. As 2 me's become a We. My Dear Zaini has been saving so hard all on his own, working shifts.. all these just to spend the near future.. with ME. Holding his hands i must, I know i am going to sink, sink without him by my side. He will always pull me up from the deep deep complexities of the world and just made me think of the simple things in life, to stop and smell the fresh air, to just linger, stay silent and listen to the clouds go by. Recently, a friend quote as saying that our relationship is 'perfect'. I beg to differ. A relationship can Never be perfect. Never. It take two. It takes hard work. It takes acceptance, respect, commitment, communication, trust, openness, and the notion that "Just love is not enough". Not the disillusionment of a high expectation of a'perfect' standard.. Not having the intention to change your partner to suit your "perfect" picture of a spouse. So what if my Zaini dresses like a boy in bermudas and cap? So what if he is still into Nike sneaker shoes and toys? I love him for who he is. Not who i want him to be. I respect him. I respect his life and respect his need to be who he wants to be. Along with the importance of respecting each other is the importance of accepting one another. You are tearing down your spouse's self-image and saying he can't be who he is when you are being critical and asking him to change. You can't change anyone but yourself. Changes come from within, when they see that their behaviours are having a harmful impact on the ones they love. Great Expectations. You expect your partner to make the first move. You expect your partner to send you home. You expect your partner to get flowers for you. You expect your partner to say sorry and give in when you're mad. You expect so much. So much, but his little heart can only bear none. Don't. Great expectations kill. Keep that in mind, lovers. I know I will, when i envisage SheZai, 60 years down the road, holding hands and kissing as we stroll down the beach together.
Update: 25/05/07 ------>> It's end May 07. 6 more months to SheZai Phase III. how's preparations you may ask? Truthfully, you have no idea how exciting it is to plan together as a couple. It's great that both of us compromised and have the same likings. Even tough matters melt away by talking them out. We are going to have SheZai's Wedding Dinner specially coordinated for Friends and close relatives on Saturday Night. More of like a party celebration to thank our friends. So it's fun and games all the way, non-conventional. =) Ok, enough about our wedding preparations, more on us. See, when couples plan for weddings, they tend to lose focus on the big picture. Which is their Love for each other. Weddings are just physical, nothing much. It only happens on a day, and people are making a big fuss all over it. The importancy of weddings is so much nano-sized-like compared to the importancy of the life and love after marriage. True? We value more the knot tied instead of the size of the carat. Again, let me quote you a conversation i had with Hon yesterday. Hon said," Dear, some people say they look up to us. Padahal we are just a simple, happy-go-lucky couple. No clubbing, No nightlife, No Guccis No Pradas, Nothing fancy. Just us, friends and what we always do. So why eh?" I replied,"Hon, I think sometimes... It's the small tiny details that matters in a relationship." We agreed. Hon is back from reservist and I missed him so much for 5 days. His SMSs keeps me sane these 5 days when i am stressed at work. Oh how i Love him so much. Will ramble again soon. Gots to catch up with his updates during camp, and he can't wait to meet me too. =) Read SheZai's Blog for my special Birthday surprise from him.
Update: 25/02/07 ------>> *Bliss* 9 more months to being a wife to a husband. 24/11/07 marks the date of our marriage, and 25/11/07 (sanding day) is my Dear Hon's 27th Birthday and ALSO our 80 months' anniversary too!. =) Next month.... it will be our exact 6 YEARS together. Our love is still super strong. I once asked Hon," Hon, what makes us stick like glue all these years eh? Is it our personality? Our Chemistry?" And then Hon said," It's TRUST all the way. Chemistry, everybody has chemistry.. Everybody can have sparks flying. There can be chemistry between you and a friend. But if we don't trust each other, then there's nothing. You see? We don't have to report strength all the time. You always know where I am, where I'm going and when i'm coming home. We don't even have to have that feelng of worry in us. We are so relaxed. We just tell each other where we are and with who, and that's it!" Yes i totally agree with him. Trust is the most important factor in building a strong base. See how can i Not love him? He's flying high in his career now. And yes, along with a good career, there are stressful moments. But when we have our normal outings, he will sms me at the end of the day," Dear, you always take my stress away. i love just being with you." Even my extended family loves him. My uncle once told my sister," Your sister is so lucky to have a guy like Zaini, I can see he is a family man." A smile came beaming upon my face when I heard that. My family, (and yes, that includes my Dad), has made a seen effort to engage in conversations with my Fiancee when we have family dinners outside. My uncles and aunts have even discussed on how to renovate our "Love Nest" aka my room so that they can satisfy this Married-Couple -2-B. Hehehe! Isn't it just magic, folks, this thing called LOVE? Can't wait for the .... wedding night. ;-) A nice Birthday Surprise and 80-month anniversary for my Honeh...heh heh heh.
Update: 25/05/06
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Indulging in a love so strong that it practically drowns me in a sea of bliss. So long since i last updated. So So long. Not that anyone i know is reading this. Wonder what this webpage will turn out to be after our wedding. A fairytale that never ends? Hopefully. An archival of romance embroidered in memory. Yes, now where do i start? Ah yes, our 5 Years anniversary which we celebrated at Dome. Not an eventful one though, but an unforgettable romantic one. You see, once u dwell deep into a relationship, you have to, and i repeat, you HAVE to find things out of the mundane sedentary lifestyle u lead. But no, it ain't that easy to find new things to do around here in this country. Orchard Road has bored the hell out of us, as with work and stuffs. So it's nice to just have a couple's get-away once a month. It doesn't have to be a holiday. It can be a romantic night out where you come home late just for spending that extra little precious time with that loved one. We always did. It's funny that once we got engaged, the time just seems to tick faster. But we never take it for granted that we are engaged. Some might think, "Oh we're already engaged, we don't have to worry anymore about other people stealing her/him. And so what if we never meet each other often. We are gonna get married and i'll just be seeing more of him/her everyday... " If these words are in you engaged couple's thoughts, then it's a no-no. Don't ever take your relationship for granted, Anything can and will happen if you don't take control of the situation. Thus, I leave you with that thought. Next comes my Happy 24th Birthday celebration. Hon bought me a Digicam. I Love!! It's perfect! I can scrapbook most of my memories, private thoughts, personal glances. Oh and I have also signed up for a few insurance plans which i think is of utmost importance at this age. Alongside a very knowledgeable financial planner, Azila, she'll help us with our finances. As of now, my plan is to save and save and save for our wedding date... which is.. on....... **/**/**. You'll know soon enough.. =)
Cheers!
Update: 25/02/06 ------>> whoaa.. It's another year lah!! 2006 already! This day marks 59 months in the making of our relationship. The feeling after that very day of being one's fiance was marvellous and still is. You know, that shy shy feeling when u introduce each other to relatives especially the more aged but respectful ones. They tend to gossip more amongst themselves. e.g. "ohh ini tunang si sheikha....ikat brapa tahun? lama nar...dah buat persiapan ke lom?" .. i even got a remark from an uncle...."eh eh macham dah kahwin, berseri".... and another will go.. " eh eh dah besar panjang lah anak cucu kiter ni sumer eh.. sumer dah nak kahwin.. Alhamdulillah.. senang sikit mak bapak". i.e. daughters were given health, wealth and care, but will soon be passed on to the hands of another (husband) who will take on those responsibilities. I'm so lucky and thankful for Hon. 2 months have passed smoothly and we had so much fun talking about our "new house" with "Hip and Cool Guest Room with DJ console and XBox with surround sound and ultra-Lepak capabilities." 'Berangan' eh. But hey.. We were glad we have the same tastes and likings. hahaha. On another note, I realised that i have to change myself for the better.. My mom has asked me to go to Zaini's house to learn how to cook from his mom as his mom always makes the most delicious meals ever!! And not withstanding my Hon who loves to eat Mom's cooking. I'll deal. Hopefully. InsyaAllah. Oh my, look at the way i talk now! And the subject matter too! It's all about marriage life! SheZai still have the best times together fo sure. Lucky Number 5 years will hit next month!!! SheZai's 5 years anniversary!! Oh hon i soo love you. hmmm....*starts to plan*
Update: 25/12/05 ------>> As I got myself ready in the lovely room with my 'mak andam', i got a notion that his bus full of representatives are on their way. My heart thumps like never before. This is the day. The day of SheZai Phase II. The day whereby my darling Zaini becomes my fiancee. The half-way step to marriage life. As i recollect my past memories of SheZai 2001-2005, the laughter, the tears, the hugs and kisses, i thought to myself ...this is it. The stepping stone. No doubt the stepping stone will be slippery. Yes, we may slip and fall throughout these 2 years that the knot is being tied, but we will very well dust ourselves off and get up again hand in hand. Some people say, "Why so long? There'll be many obstacles along the way. This is the period whereby GOD will test your endurance and patience until u are married." And ALLAH does show HIS powers from what i see around me and experiences with other couples. I thought... there's that word "endure" again. I came to a conclusion - In relationships, there are many Phases, not only 1. And endurance is the key to opening up the doors to these many phases. SheZai has endured school life, army life, working life. The next one to live up to....marriage life and living together, and later on, living with kids. We still meet twice or thrice a week, and we make it a point to brighten each other's day and rub the lethargy from work away. He makes my day every time. Shopping and eating with my hun is always the best. And as usual, communicate, communicate, communicate. We hate those silent treatments and we rarely, if ever, had one before. I'm thankful for this special guy named Zaini in my life. We are going to go for our "Kursus Rumah Tangga" soon. It was like just yesterday that i read this from my 25/06/2003 post. Speaking of which, Reading back my previous posts below, I wonder, when will i stop updating this website? When i'm married with kids? No, i will never give up. Maybe i'll print it out and make a book or something. Copyrighted by me. That'll be cool. Anyway, On Hari Raya Haji, it is my family's first time to visit Zaini's house. To "rapatkan sillaturrahim". How awkward will that be. I'm still very shy with Zaini when i'm around my family. But i thank my Tunang for being the humble, generous and approachable as he is. My cloud of thoughts vapourised away when i heard voices in my living room. They are here. After prayers were said, and as Zaini's aunt made her way into my room filled with my friends' laughter, she finally slipped the diamond ring onto my finger. Lights flashed everywhere. I could never stop smiling for the whole day. The joyous occassion were made even more memorable when his Grandmother (Father's side) kissed both my cheeks and asked," Ini nenek Zaini, kenal tak? Hari tu, Sheikha tengok nenek kat hospital kan? (3 years ago)." I was elated that she could remember me after 3 years! I wonder what my hubby-to-be was doing at his own celebration that day. But what i heard were all satisfactory. The gifts were exchanged. And later that night, Zaini smsed me, "You look so pretty. =) I'm so proud of us today." My heart jumped in joy. Yes, I am very proud of him. He have saved up over the years just for me, for our marriage and future life together. Just for me to be his wife. He saved up ALL ON HIS OWN. I'm glad that I have a loving and responsible man i could call my own. HEY!!! WE'RE FIANCES NOW!!! Oh and happy 57th monthversary to SheZai! It's reaching 2006!
Update: 25/11/05 ------>> Happy Birthday to you, my Zaini! Gosh, knowing you for almost 5 years has opened my eyes to a lot of things. You are my pillar of strength come 2 yrs time and I have never been happier with anybody apart from you. You have given me the strength to face this cruel cruel world. And on this day, it marks our 4 yrs and 8 mths together. It still feels like just 8 months. Where have the 4 years gone? Are we so much in love that time just flows like water? Most probably. Dear Readers, My father as of last Sunday, has finally made known that he has accept Zaini in his life. Oh God, Alhamdulillah. After 4 years plus of agonizing mixed feelings in me about my strict Dad accepting Zaini, finally the day has come and gone. On the day that Zaini's family came to ask for my hand in engagement, Dad has agreed for SheZai to be together, on a notion that we should be matured and not waste our time on the streets of the bright lights. On that day itself, the kind Dad has agreed on our engagement date and tenure. What makes me even more appreciative of my Dad, even though i do not talk to him much, is when he said.... "The guy taking care of my daughter should be a good and responsible man, that's all i ask. If i accept/agree to the proposal, it means that I accept him and find him fit for my daughter." Oh , Ayahku telah merestui percintaanku dan Zaini. Syukur Alhamdulillah! Oh the drama. Zaini honey, my Dad has accepted you. Finally. And he is willing to let his daughter go to your safe, strong hands to take care of. I know you'll never let me down, my darling. You never have. Let's enjoy the joyous occasion of your birthday and this great news. Remember dear readers, Your parents are the only ones who can 'merestui' your relationship, so don't let them down. Countdown to SheZai's engagement date: 25/12/2005.
Update: 25/10/05 ------>> I have a confession to make. Why a confession, you may ask? Well... this is only for those who did discover and read this e-page of mine. (I wonder who bothers). I prefer not to pour out my feelings on our blog and prefer to be more discreet there. Only to those who know this link... I'm excited... due to the fact that it is less than 2 months. WHAT is less than 2 months? It's... our engagement day! Yes! SheZai is getting engaged! Today marks our 4 years and 7 month. SheZai has plans...as said before. On our 57th monthversary, we're gonna embark on our Phase II of our love-life. I know, to many, it's just an engagement. An ordinary day most couples go through. But if you were in any of our position, and deeply in love knowing that you have found The One whom you are gonna spend the rest of your life with, you'd feel the way I do. Raya is coming. His side is gonna come to my house to "merisik". Oh Gosh. My heart's skipping. Nobody knows ....yet. Preparations are not even done yet! I'm panicking... Mom has been a kind soul to let the cat out of the bag to Ogre. His reaction? You guess? *Sweat on my forehead due to nervous breakdown* He said...... *suspense, not to be told*. I'm so scared of the merisik day, truthfully. I've been having nighmares of Ogre saying things he is not suppose to say that will make me cry on that day much to my embarrassment. My Dear friends (or anybody who bothers to read this), Please pray for me. Please pray for things to go smoothly with my Ogre Dad. Please let Dad accept my Zaini into his life. I'll stop here for now. Will update again soon. Thanks. On a lighter note, HONEY's Birthday is coming!!!!! And i've taken my work leave for him. Yeah! Precious time will be spent together. Love you, honey! Kiss kiss!
Update: 25/08/05
------>> I admit. I admit. Life is so much difficult once couples in love have started working. As adults now, we have to shoulder much much more responsibilities, not only towards work, but also family and friends apart from spending that LITTLE quality time with Honey. But Alhamdulillah again, SheZai has seen yet another turn of the months. The wheel is still spinnin' strong. We still confide in each other like "best friends" especially about work. My bank job has taken the burden on my time and little is left to the imagination of how i manage to still spend time with my Hun. Meetings, briefings, trainings at work almost everyday which lasts till 8pm. And since Hun is on Shift work, Saturday and Sundays he may not be free, while i am. But these are just merely a Challlenge to SheZai and We are never, ever giving up. We still trust each other. And yes, we still do enjoy ourselves with our friends too. I don't know how to describe this feeling i have. It's of mutual understanding. The feeling of deep security, knowing that my Hun is never playing behind my back and has never had. If any girl were to tease him or "menggatal" with him, i take it in my stride when he tells me about it. And we will again laugh it off. hahaha! I even tell him about the messages i get from guys on these common friends' network. No secrets to hide from each other. That's what keepin' us strong. And i have never so much as to worry what's goin' on at his work, ever. Neither does he. Thank you God. Thank You honey for all your precious time with me and pouring your undying love, making me smile after a hard day's work and kissing my forehead and shoulders where u know i would feel loved. I have started on my savings. =) InsyaAllah, things will engage and evolve in..... December.
P.S. I know what to get you for your birthday... And it's NOT a pair of NIKE SHOES OK. Happy 4 years 5 months my Darl.
Update: 25/06/05 ------>> I've got a new job!! A decent job!! Oh Baby, please be proud of me. SheZai has been talking to each other a lot lately of how and when we plan to settle down. Engagement, Marriage, Buying a house, buying insurance for our future, saving up. All these issues are laid out like cards on the table. We do not keep anything from each other. We have been faithful throughout our relationship. No outside party has made any move to seduce any of us. If there were, well, both of us will tell each other every single detail and we will laugh it off as a passing joke and said, "See honey? You're still as attractive as i met you 4 years ago! ahhaha!" "Don't worry honey, it's only you i have eyes for.." It made me smile. Smile so wide. The past is so long forgotten. The future is where we're headed. Sincerely. Thank you Honey. Thank you. I'll promise to save up for our wedding and future with this new job i'm in ok. I love you, Honey Dearest.
Update: 25/04/05 ------>> Alhamdulillah! I've graduated with a business degree. My Zaini has been supportive of me all the way along with his family. Oh God. Thank you. On the day of graduation, came a surprise to me. My Dad, so lovingly said YES when i asked him if I could bring my boyfriend along for dinner. It was awesome! No feelings could describe just how.... ecstatic , happy and nervous i was at that point of time. It was just after my convocation and Dad fetched Zaini from Home!! And my Dad even sent him home after the dinner, cruising along Orchard Road after that , just the four of us!!! Me and Zaini in the back seat, like youths in love, stealing finger touches....Can you just imagine the excitement in me? I'm gettin all icy cold inside! So there we were, Mom, Dad, Zaini and me at Amiran's cafe. My Dad tried his best to make some lame jokes and although it did went down the drain, Zaini, being a gentleman that he is, laughs politely. To make the occassion even better, i mentioned to my parents that My Darling has gotten a promotion in Nike. My heart jumped. My parents are accepting him. This Zaini that i love soo much. They have accepted him into their lives. Willingly! That night, Another veneer lifted off my shoulders. When do i tell my parents about engagement? *ponder*
Update: 25/03/05 ------>> HAPPY 4 YEARS of LOVING , Honey!!! Oh My GOd, We made it to the 4th year. Well, This website has aged gracefully too. And I do not even plan to change anything. Let it be the nostalgic way it is. For 4 years, SheZai has held on to this relationship. We have strived, we have survived. My family has slowly been opening up to me about him especially my Mom. Zaini comes to my house when i asked permission from my mom and things and relationships form smoothly. Even my sister likes Zaini. She treats him like a brother she never has... And i'm proud of her. Zaini honey, you have opened many eyes when you crossed their paths. I really can't wait to be your fiance. =)
Update: 25/02/05 ------>> SheZai has seen the making of a new year!! Yet another new year!! And the fact that we are still so strong together makes the turn of the new year even so much better! We were holding each other's hands all the way in our journey. Today marks our 47 months together. 1 more month to our 4 years anniversary! Gosh! 4 years!!! Smooth-sailing! I don't know how to express what i'm feeling inside. Well....what i love about this relationship is that we think maturely when handling relationship problems and never let our childish feelings affect us. I'm in the midst of a job change career being busy and so is he. But we never let Time (or the lack of it) being together get on our nerves. We accept what is going on in our lives and respect each other's need to be adults. We have grown. BF is in the midst of his career growth as well and i'm sooo damn Proud of him. It seems like yesterday that I was still schooling and bf is in NS. But Time has passed by. And yea... there are Plans..... This......... Year.
Update: 25/11/04 ------>> Happy Birthday My Darling!! Oh man. I'm so excited this year as it is your birthday as well as our 44 months of being together exactly on this special date. But the MOST important thing of all is.... You Have Finally Met my Dad to gain his blessings. The Man most difficult to get along with, the man with quick tantrums, the man with a hot temper, and the man with a heart of stone. Yes, My Father, whom i called Ogre. And oh Darling, how i loved you. Just for being yourself. The Zaini that you are. I was so nervous that my heart was in my stomach. I thought of telling what to say or what not to say, but alas, i thought nadda of it. Because i know with your bubbly personality and your trusting nature, my Dad will open his heart to love you. I prayed to God every night for that day to happen. For it to get along fine. And God has answered my prayers. God Almighty Thank you! I have hoped for the best. And indeed, you SCORED well with my DAD< of all people. They even joked and talked!! Oh God! Is that even bound to happen? But it DID! Oh BF, Do you know how PROUD i am of you?! Nobody, i mean , Nobody, has EVER talked or more so, joked to my Dad, especially if it's a GUY. And you, Darling, are the First and Only one to gain his trust. You are like my knight in shining armour. Remember i told you that when u asked me to be your girl? That day was the happiest day of my life and this day that u met my Dad is another one. I felt as if a huge boulder of a weight have been lifted off my shoulders and chest. We Are..... meant to be together, Darling. InsyaAllah, Because, YOU have done what no MAN has done before....entered the dungeons and.. Gain the blessings of my Difficult DAD. I love you Honey. Happy Birthday. You ARE the BEST! I hope you love the 5 things i got you. *winks*
Update: 25/10/04 ------>> My oh My.... 4 months have gone by since i last updated. First of all, Happy 3 years 7 months anniversary to you My Darling. You have been a very sweet and loving boyfriend to me all these while.. Recently, my environment changed when i just graduated from SIM and found a temporary job with an engineering company. Despite the working environment being scattered with 80% technicians, My honey trusts me, loves me and believes in me nonchalantly. And I on my part, gave him the assurance he needed that I will Never go against his back. And 3 months have gone by successfully. Boo those people who don't belive that couples won't make it in a new environment. SheZai pulled through, Alhamdulillah. A few weeks ago, my Darling suffered from a terrible hurting foot rot. I can't bear to see him in pain. I asked myself, Is he worth the while for me to take Off work just to care for him and be by his side? The answer is Yes. He needed me there. And I was there. I asked myself again will he do the same thing if i was in the same predicament? There was no need to think anymore... Because I DO believe in him. Yes. I believe he will. Hari Raya is coming soon and the Baju kurungs this year will be of a Royal Blue colour. Yes, we have decided on the colour. :)
Update: 25/06/04 ------>> Oh Baby, What would I do without You? Recently, He has started on his career at Nike as Sales Consultant and i'm damn well very proud of him. It's a job that he's always wanted and out of the thousands of applicants, he was one of the 8 that was chosen. Is it fate shining our way for him to get a job so quickly, a job that he yearns for, in his most favourite brand, Nike? I don't know. But i hope fate is smiling upon us. We have the greatest talks and we consoled each other whenever we have outside problems. We are open to each other and tell directly where and when we are jealous or hurt. It will then become enlightened, and we both pass it off as a silly joke, as a team. Forgive and forget, a rule we hold dear. 3 years 3 months have come. Happy 39 mth anniversary to my Sayang. We HAVE been through a lot. wow. P/S: Thanks for the Burberry's Bag you bought me for my birthday, Honey. Always remember. Do not try to exceed your own expectations, I love you for who you are, the Zaini that i met at Youth Park. *mwahs**huggz*
Update: 25/01/04 ------>> I'm sorry i have not updated for ages. It's the becoming of the new year. And it's already 2004. 2 more months till our 3rd year anniversary. It gives me time to reflect on our relationship. The best times. And the not too good. But that rarely happens. I realised that his family has come to accept me for me. Like they always have. Recently, his Mom would always kiss me on the cheek whenever we go out on an outing together or whenever i drop by his house. His Grandmother makes the best Dishes for me to eat whenever she knows i'm coming. I feel ecstatic and loved to know that his family appreciates me more and more everyday. As for my family, my mom has made a seen effort to accept him when i bring him along for family chalets and also Raya outings with my friends. The veneer covering us has been scraped off. Thank God Almighty. I have been praying to God The Great One to keep our jodoh alive and also for my family to accept him and see him for the goodness that he is and will always be. He has been very playful to me whenever i throw my mood swings and nag at him. Instead of scolding him for accidentally putting chocolate around my eyes, when he starts laughing, the whole world laughs along, and that includes me. I tried my best to keep a straight face, an angry face. But i couldn't! I burst into laughter when he joked with me. Haizzzz.. Sayang.. sayang. He's also been supporting me financially every month. I didn't ask for it but he insists, Since he's working now. I feel very grateful towards him. Thank you Zaini Dearest. I love you. Mwahs. Sigh... *_,*
Update: 25/9/03 ------>> Happy 30-Mth Anny Sweetheart! I love you more and more each day. Well done in securing the temporary Job.. i'm so proud of you, haven't i told you that over and over again? :) Yes, My Dear Zaini has started his working life. I feel elated. Gracious. Starting it slowly but surely. I have a feelin my sweetheart is growing inside me. He has taught me to be strong.. And recently, i just can't get enough of him. I cannot imagine my life without him. He treats me like his future wife, advising me if i did something wrong or something that might've hurt him. He has never scolded me or raise his voice at me.(unlike my dad). He's such a caring Darling. P/s: That ring is still on my finger. :)
Update: 25/7/03 ------>> There's just soo many things to say... soo many things to express... soo many loving thoughts in my mind... A month passed... we became closer than ever before.. how, you may ask? Personally, we share secrets.. and we talk our hearts out.. we don't keep anything from each other.. He knows all about me, my family, my past, my character, my everything... and i know his all, his past, his family, his problems, his happiness, his mind, his heart.. His recent tonsil operation has gotten me all worried...Especially when he can't talk becoz of internal bleeding.. and to make the matter worse, i have to be far away from him.... at Pulau Redang, for a family holiday. I've learnt not to take TIME for granted. I've learnt not to take things for granted. I've learnt a lot just being with him... I will not deny the fact anymore.. He has changed me... a lot... for the better. I used to be a scared, timid, couped-up girl becoz of my father...I never knew how to talk in public, i never knew how to express myself, i wouldn't know how to stand up for myself...... but Zaini brought me out of my shell. He taught me the meaning of life, happiness and how real love felt like. I'm in tears now just writing this becoz i can't imagine my life without him... He's my all. Happy 28th month Anny, Love.
Update: 25/6/03 ------>> My Baby's Out of the Army Lo!!!!!! He obtained a good testimonial! ANd i'm so proud of him. His unit got best infantry unit and best combat Unit.. never happened for so many years in 1 Guards. wow wee~! ok.. now he's in search of a Job... a relaxed one.. just for cruisin and fun and dough... Some of my close friends are like askin when we're gonna get married.well... my answer to that question will be sometime in 4-5 years. :) yea... we need to settle down slowly, finish up any unfinished business like schooling, Ns, Stablize our jobs and stuffs.. and then we'll together go hand in hand to a "kursus rumah tangga" later on.... yea...Both of us decided to let our moms have a taste of our earned pay b4 jumping into marital bliss... above all, i'm still havin a hell of a blast being with zaini.. he always makes my day. love u, dear.
Update: 25/3/03 ------>> HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNY, LOVE~! Gosh, I'm feeling utterly ecstatic! I realised how much Zaini and me have gone through these 2 years!! It's amazing, how our differences, our similarities, our behaviour, our attitudes have worked us both very well and how much we enjoyed the company of each other. Recently, we got together and Zaini has been giving me clues as to something that he got me for our anny. This has been going on since last month. He wanted to bring my birthday 3 months back and celebrate the delightful occassion of our 2 year anny. In accordance with him finishing his NS army life, and how we survived that period. It all adds up. He kept asking me to guess and it's something that is gonna determine our life in the future. I really ponder hard! But i still don't have a clue as to what that present is! And then comes the day..... We were at our special place, complete with background music of N'Sync's "this i promise you". He came up to me with a paperbag. My hands were shaking as i held on to the gift. What could it be?? I slowly opened the paperbag one by one (yes, he made it more suspenseful by wrapping it many times with paperbags). As i arrived at the last package, i saw a small little box with "Tiffany & Co." on it. Tears started to well up in my eyes. I started to cry... thinking,"no... don't tell me... oh my GOd, Honey!!!!!" I opened the ribbon, then the box. Inside, there was a diamond ring. He took it and slipped it onto my finger. I was utterly speechless. I really dunno what to say. By the time the song ends, i gave him a tight Hug and a kiss. As he said," Dear, this is a promise i make to you, I am going to be your husband in the future. You really deserve this." My heart was in my throat. I keep on mumbling," Hon, I love you." I could never ever let go of that hug. It was a day that i will always always remember. And guess what song came up next in his MD? Yes, it's Ashanti's "Thank You". Thank you Dear for everything. For being you. For being my honey. For being Indispensable As my lover. I love you. *mwahs*
Update: 1/1/03 ------>> IT's the turn of the NEW YEAR!! Gee Whiz does time flies by extremely fast! And that means.... my baby will ORD sooN!! NO MORE Army shiets! DAmn that's Great! Hari Raya has come and gone, a time of ultimate patience and endurance. I was engulfed in sadness and despair during this period. The powers of God had been shown to me through us being in the same cab that my father was driving. We were in the queue for a cab. There were people in the front and behind us. As one by one, the cabs left with their passengers, we saw our cab driving slowly to a stop in front of us. As we went inside, my heart skipped a beat when i saw the familiar face of the cab driver. IT WAS MY FATHER'S CAB. How ironic it might be that out of a billion gazzilion taxis, that the one we took would be my father's cab. There has to be a reason for this. God wanted ZAINI to meet my DAD. Yes, i know i do not talk to my Dad much as he is always not at home bringing the bread home for my family. So i could not tell him much about Zaini. But this is utterly FATE. I'm still pondering till today, why. Maybe GOD has his own plans for me to open my mouth and introduce Zaini to my Strict Dad. Maybe GOD wanted to show me HIS powers. But THANK YOU GOD. My baby has been very very very nice and patient with me. i'm confident that one day, me and him will build a nice palace in our kingdom. Yes, we will be together in the future, married, with children. :) Insya'Allah. I just can't imagine my life without him coz HE made me see what Life means.. I love you very much babydear. *mwahs* p/s: Get well soon k Darling.
Update: 25/11/02 ------>> Baby~! It's ya birthday today Darlin'~!And also our 20-mths Anniversary! Damn, the road ain't smooth. MAny rocks blocked the path, but hell, we managed to kick them away! Hey, We still strong. Don't anybody assume we not. Today, i feel so happy and sad at the same time, if such things do exist. Happy because of the fact that we had a wonderful, romantic, outing together. As usual, i got him 5 things for his b'day. A Birthday card, his favourite cornflake cookies i baked for him, a CD, a personalized EZ-link card, and a boat trip down the Singapore River.... I'm so glad the day turned out alright despite the fact that some jinx had casted a spell on me a few days back. But now, i'm feeling sad. Sad coz baby's gonna be in a dangerous mission for 2 weeks. And the fact that Hari Raya's coming straight after that freaks my mind out. I don't get to spend time with him for these 2 weeks. And still, people don't realise the endurance we are going through. Sigh.. nobody would ever understand how strong our love is and how we have strived high together. Luckily, we managed to do some shopping together for Hari Raya. Our colour for this year is maroon! He's gonna look handsome! oh How i love him! He's soooo Cute and playful!!! Sigh... now all I have to do is........ endure......... again.. I'll be waiting to spend the time with you again Sayang. TIll next next thursday, Take Care, Insya'Allah, nothing will happen during your mission. *sob* I Love you Dear.
Update: 25/10/02 ------>> My baby was ill recently.. and only God knows how i feel. I'm worried sick about him. Burning fever and tonsils syndromize his body. It was our Saturday outing as usual, and well, he seems terribly under the weather. Therefore, i decided to grab a cab and follow him home. His mother was surprised and the both of us took him to the Doctor. Today, my baby is strong.. and it's our 19 months of being together. i got to see him for the very very very first time ON our anniversary. Usually, he'll be bz wit Army Duties. And for the first time, we celebrated our 19 months together.. I bought mango cakes for the both of us *yum yum* we fed each other under the stars.. Although it was not a big hoo-haa of a celebration, i felt sparks and as we gazed into each other's eyes, we reminisced of the times 1+ years ago and chuckled to ourselves.... We had a great time... and a great 19 mth anniversary celebration. *hugz* baby!
Update: 25/09/02 ------>> Look at us~! Look At us Both~! My My, Updated as of today, our existence has witnessed 18 months in the making of SheZai. Our Love is still strong apart from the Excuse of my PMS! haha~! He has been a DArLinG to me and really been patient wit my "PMS Mood Swings" so to call it. Nope. It's not gonna spoil our Lovin all right. Never. Coz he understands me... And I understand Him. A lot. Yesterday , we went to the Botanic Gardens. It was about a mile to the exit gate when he said to me," Dear, I'm gonna carry you from here to the gate. And when i can make it, I Will marry you in the future." Imagine my heart racing as i sat on his back, (he not minding the weight and all! Ahakz!) AND AS HE REACHED THE GATE, My heart pounding, he slowly put me down at the exit. And we hugged.....awaiting a bright future ahead of us... AIN'T HE THE SWEETEST?!?!
Update: 25/08/02 ------>> Hey Hey Hey~! It's 17 months today~! And I am SO Lucky.. A WHOLE lotsa stuffs hav happened in the past months...Nope. You're wrong. It's Not any dishwalla hoo-haas you think it might be, but it's the most FUN i had with him EVER! First of all, there's the "Mississippi Day" a.k.a "Breakfast-in-bed Day"+"Ogre-Avoiding Day"+"SHOP-A-LOT Day"+"First-Time-Neoprint-Taking Day!" where only Me and my love would know what it's about.*winks* Hon! And then He trained me to jog and swim... I've never been happier in my life. Happy 17-mth Anniversary Sayang. More to come, i'll be waiting for your ORD!!!!! *mwaaahhz*
Update: 25/06/02 ------>> TODAY marks our 15th month anniversary!! As usual, there's our lucky number 5 in it! And we believe that we are still going on headstrong nonetheless. I've just came home from a 3-day vacation to Tioman island and Zaini has been a DARLING to me. waiting for me patiently although he has the days off. He stayed at home and waited for my calls and he sms me every single day that i was away. Now THAT'S what i call a Very Loving Hubby! How I MISSED HIM when i was there. But it's okay, we are going to spend 3 days together next week!! I SO love MY ZAINI very much!!!! *mwwaahhsss* darlin'! ;*
Update: 15/06/02 ----->> Hon!! It's the June Holidays! And for us, it's been a whoppin' 15 months of lurvin'!! *winks* For you to know, dear, i hav been here for you all the way.And never hav i ever had a teeny weeny thought of regret for being with you. Forget what other people say about us, I know we are facing the storm hugging each other on our love boat. I've endured and survived your Thailand trip coz you called me every single day. I've endured and survived some weekends you hav to be in camp for some reasons. I've endured not being with you some of the times we can't meet each other due to our individual business. But Baby, i'm still yours. For eternity. p/s:Thanks for the Guess Watch you bought me for my birthday.
Update: 25/03/02 ----->> BabyDear!! I've spent a whole year with you, in your arms, by your side, and you have showered me with your intangible emotion and affection. LOVE is strong where we're headed and i really love to spend my whole life being yours and yours only. Happy 1 year anniversary Sayang. Take care of yourself in camp and i'll always wait for your booking out for you to come home to me. Never will I leave your side. I LOVE YOU ZAINI DEAR!
Update: 10/02/02 ----->> Oh Wowee! It's the new year. If you're wondering if we are still together, i shall update you that INDEED we are. Yes, i have to admit that there are squabbles now and then but I believe that little mistakes make our relationship stronger. The special thing about our relationship is that we NEVER let a misunderstanding affect us ongoing. We will resolve, kiss and make up there and then without letting it stretch to the next day. He's the sweetest thing i could ask for....just perfect. And it's past our 10 months.... the longest relationship i'm ever in! *smilessss*
Update: 25/10/01 ------>> Lo And Behold!!! It's our 7-month anniversary!! Yes a whalloping 7 months have passed! And we are still as Loving as before! I have never felt this way ever! And Gosh am i The happiest Girl Alive! Wheeee!!! Ultimately, we have been enduring with hands held tight. Never letting go... I wish you care and Love, Baby. We will make it through..... I love you.
UpDate: 11/9/01 ----->> Today's the day whereby my dear has gone to his field camp. As i sit here in front of this glarin' screen, i think to myself..is my baby gonna be allright? The sweetest thing he did was to call me this morning at 5:25 am to wish his take cares, love you's and goodbye. As i placed my head back on my pillow this morning, my heart yearns for him, calls out to him... yes... i Am missing him already. 4 more days of idle insanity without my love...i'm waiting patiently.....
UpDate: 10/8/01 ----->> Alas, the day has come whereby my Love has to serve his training. His BMT starts today and, well, i'm very much missing him right now. Whatever it is, i'll always pray for his well-being and safety. We've been goin on strong lately, facing the challenges ahead. And with God's will, we can go through this obstacle and still be together in a few years to come. Hope He's doing fine in Army. Love him a lot and miss him terribly.......
UpDate: 27/6/01 ------>> My better half has gone to serve the country recently. *:_< We have been trying to make the best of our times together and also to prolong the jinxy date. But alas, the time has arrived for him. Nevertheless, our three months of lovin' bliss have been extremely fantastic for me. I'm sure there will be more to come in the future.
Shekha's message to Zaini: babydear, i love you. And i'll be here waiting for you when you come home. Remember our promise to each other to not let go and stay strong whatever happens? Remember our date one year from now at the seaside to watch the stars? I'll be waiting for that very day. :> You take care now honey. listen to yr sergeant k. 2+3 years is a very long time but i'm confident that we'll be the best that we can be. I'm missin you terribly here. wish you could be here with me. I'm countin the days for your return, baby. Lovin you passionately..... -SheZai/25.
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