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| This page is dedicated to the little girl I should have had. Her name is Emily Noelle and would have been born Dec 1st, 1995, but instead her life was taken April 13, 1995. For reasons between myself and God, I chose to take your life before it even had a chance to start. This is a decision I struggle with EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. Regardless of why I did it, I'm sorry that was the path I chose. If I could go back, I would have never have done it. But now it is something I have to live with, which isn't easy to do. Even though I have finally come to terms with what I have done, I still miss you everyday that goes by. I sit and wonder what you would have looked like, the things you would have enjoyed doing, and what cartoons you would have loved watching. I wonder what your fears would have been , would you like puppies or kittens best, and what your hair would have smelled like as you lay in my lap as I held you. These are the things I will never know about you, but in my heart I know that one day I will get to see you again in the next life. The picture I have put on this page, reminds me of what you may have looked like. Everytime I look at it, I cry. My tears are no longer for guilt over what I did, they are for you. For the daughter I will never get to hold in my arms. Please know that I love you........ |