You have turned my world cataclysmically upside down.
I was different without you, simple, happy.
But now that I have you, or technically don't have you, I feel trapped.
At first it was sweet, I was scared, and then it changed.
I couldn't let you go, even if I wanted to.
Today I love you, tomorrow I hate you, and then I couldn't care half less.
It's been ten months, days, hours, minutes, time wasted all on you.
I carry on this masqurade, hoping, waiting, blindly putting my faith and trust in you.
In the real world you treat me as if you would everyone else, pretending you don't care.
But when we're just you and me, I get to know you, and you're different.
So you keep hiding your feelings around your friends and continue to be something you're not.
So, I'll laugh with everyone at the clown you are, and yet I'll know you're not.
Secrets we'll keep together, locked in my room, locked in my heart.
How many of my hopes will you shatter again, my friend, my enemy.
Time will pass you by faster than you think, when you look back you'll have nothing.
You're wasting your life, never commiting, always giving false hope.
You wonder why people say what they do about you, take a look through my eyes and you'd find out.
You're overconfident, you're stubborn, you're smotheringly sweet.
You've stabbed me with words, and you don't even realize it.
You've hurt my confidence, and you've broken my stride.
So bring on the pain, the hate, the torture, bring on you.
Your secret behind the door,
Your once a week tease.