JOURNAL...  


"If I just breathe.. let it fill the space between.. I'll know everything is alright. Breathe.. every little piece of me.. you'll see everything is alright. If I just breathe.."   -excerpt from "BREATHE" by Michelle Branch


REALIZATION - Jan. 12, 2004. I finally finished revising the program I've been working on for almost 4 days. After over 6 months of going live, the program has been revised 5 times. Users keep changing their mind. It's frustrating when your heart's not into it. Ever since I did my group's thesis in college, I'd sworn to give up programming after graduation. Ironic that I end up working as one right now. But after over a year of doing it, I know it's time to really go after my dreams.

..my earring

AN OMEN(?) - Jan. 5, 2004. Today I lost an earring. I can't help but think this is some kind of an omen. A warning of not-so-good things to come. On my 23rd birthday, my parents gave me a pair of earrings and a ring. Less than a week after my birthday, I lost the stone in my ring. That kinda shook me because I fell in love (sort of) with the ring the moment I saw it. It was a solitaire. Mom gave the ring back to the jeweller to find a stone with the same cut as those in my earrings. And now.. I lost the earring. Not just the stone this time but the whole damn thing. Worse is, I don't know where I lost it. The earring has a lock and.. it just fell off?? This is supposed to be my year (monkey) and things aren't exactly... well, they just leave me feeling like there's something that's gonna happen. Something that's not... gonna leave me feeling grateful. I can only hope I'm being paranoid. This is one situation where I want to be proven wrong. *sigh* I was starting to like this particular pair of earrings. The last thing I wanna do is cry over an earring... but that's how I feel.


SICK LEAVE - Dec. 27, 2003. This is my last day of leave. After being on (sick) leave since dec. 8, just thinking about going back to work on Monday tires me.


GUITAR - Nov. 2, 2003. After almost 2 years (1 year and 10 months to be exact) I finally had my guitar fixed-- that would be last week of August 2003. I don't know why. It's been collecting dust inside my closet eversince I broke a string. 5 days after my 23rd birthday, I enrolled myself at this guitar lesson, which I never finished. I only attended 6 out of 12 lessons. And yes, the lesson was paid in full and was not refundable if you decide not to finish the lesson..

me practicing guitar. good thing you can't hear me. i really suck at it. but hey, i'm just into it :o)

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