~In Loving Memory of Jim
Wood~
Not long ago, my step-father
passed away. Although his death taught me a lot,
what he left behind taught me more. Since then, I have adopted a new
outlook.Following
society's lead,I had always placed great value on material
wealth. I spent
so much precious time caring for and obtaining these items.
Though it was a hard lesson,
I learned that it is not the material success in life
that lives after a person,
but the love a person leaves behind that creates his or
her legacy. Like an ancient
treasure chest, the dusty, old trunk waited silently in
the shadows of our storage
shop. To me, it was a treasure chest filled with all of
the secrets of his life,
even before he came to live with us when I was five. My
step-father had always kept
all of his important memories and belongings there.
He had carefully wrapped
pictures, cards, letters, books, and other things close to
him and placed them safely
in the trunk. He never allowed us children to rummage
through it freely. We had seen
just enough to whet my curiosity. Sometimes I think
that he kept it closed as
a symbol that the past would forever live in that musty,
wooden box. But, he was
gone. I am not really sure why I even wanted to sort
through something he was
so secretive about. Somehow, I felt like I was invading
his privacy. However, I
also felt the need to see and touch and know the things
that were important
enough for him to save. Maybe it was just part of the
mourning process.
Maybe it was like a hug, after giving that last extra tight
squeeze, it is impossible
to let go. I seated myself on a sturdy red crate and ran
my hand across the dusty,
splintered top of the trunk. The rusty hinges squealed
in protest as I lifted the
lid. That old trunk swelled with memoriesand I became
eager to see the contents.On
top of a myriad of unfamiliar items, lay piles of torn,
tattered crumbling pictures.
Each picture was a memory. Although they were not
my own, they often brought
my own to mind and made them more vivid. A picture
of him at nineteen in a crisp,white
uniform reminded me of the stories he would tell
of the Navy.Another made
me recall all of the Sunday afternoons he would devote
to watching car races on
television and the stories he would tell of being a race
car driver substitute. Through
my hands slipped other pictures and trinkets that
held no signifigants to
me, but surely did to him.I found report cards and crayon
drawings. Near the bottom
were yellowing napkins from weddings and postcards
from people I never
knew.I discovered a rusting tin filled with doilies that his
mother had made. A wedding
band and the crumbled, ashen flowers that had been
salvaged from his father's funeral.
With each item, I would pause and imagine him.
I gently closed the lid
as the rusted hinges let out one last dying whimper, and I
knew I had closed more than
just a trunk of memories. I sighed and watched the
dust filter through the fading
sunlight that forced it's way through the dirty window
panes. With the dust,
my gaze fell upon a picture that had slipped from an old
photo album. A picture of
my family, including my step father, giggling under piles
of shredded wrapping paper
on Christmas Eve. Page after page of silly, happy
photos taken at birthdays,
vacations, and other moments, passed before me and
pulled me into the past.
I realized that these were part of my own treasure chest. I
had spent so much time obtaining
item after item believing that these things make
me a better, more valued
person. That old trunk is packed away somewhere now,
along with all of his memories.I
have learned that all of my belongings that I value
so much may be meaningless
to others. I learned that I did not need to touch,and
feel and know the
things in that trunk because I was already surrounded with
those things that were most
important to him... his family.It is now my goal that my
friends and family will never
have to search through my things, my treasure chest,
in order to find out what
was important to me.I hope that they will know that they
are part of it: they are my treasure.
written by ~Amber Michelle~
I thank my God upon every remembrance of you!
Philippians 1:3