No More Time
No more time for us
But a time for remorse
Yes, A time to cry
A time when I would prefer to die
No need to reason out the whys
When enshrouded in a cloak of darkness
Pain is the only thing that can be seen
It`s your only focus!
When you have done past that point of 
no return
When your life no longer seems to count
By then, It`s surely time to let go?

The Pain, The Pain
Only so long can you live with the pain
It slowly eats away your heart and soul
Taking away laughter and joy
Until you no longer care
Nothing in life matters anymore!
Nothing Remains but the pain
The Pain remains!

Death beckons
  Whispering to me...
with his wicked grin...
"I am your only friend"
"I offer you oblivion!"
"Don`t you want this pain to end?"
"Do you not realize? In this life of yours,
There`s no way to win!?"
I long to reach out and take Deaths` hand...
I want to beleive...As I once beleived in you...
But I can`t
For within me there is no trust
It has become just a meaningless word
remembered from my past
I know I once possessed it
but, like everything else
It did not last
Now, not even the promises of Death
Seem real to me, Only more lies
Lies that seek to destroy
just as yours have destroyed me
And just as death makes its own rules to follow
So do you...
And for you, I have now broken mine

So What now? 
I find, I do not really care
Just surviving this day right here...
Is all I can for the moment bare...

The Pain, The Pain
Oh yes, the pain will forever remain
Unless those whispered promises of death hold true
And I someday find that blessed peace of oblivion
that I so desperately seek...
freeing me of these painful thoughts and
stabbing swords!
Yes, the pain is real
Even though you cannot see it
you cannot feel it
This pain of mine
It cannot be healed
You have destroyed the last remnant of my heart! 
You shredded it apart!
with no regard for me,
Or the trust I had so cautiously given you
You asked me too, you know
"Trust Me" Isn`t that what you said??

  Oh, the pain, the pain...
will forever remain...
Was it so important to you?
Whatever it was you thought to gain?????

You do know the reason it hurts me so?
I know I`ve told you so
I love you still...
Even though to you
It was just a game that you like to play 
What was once a beautiful feeling to me
Now makes me feel so ugly inside! 
I wonder how many women you have used?
I feel so dirty now, so abused
Oh, Why? 
Why am I like this?
Why do I have to be such a pathetic fool?
Why with me does the heart have to rule?
Why can I not be more like You??
And make all my own rules? 
Then I could change them whenever I needed to...

Well, Time does go on
Just not for me
For I no longer have you!
And when the pain is this intense,
  Nothing at all seems to make sense!
And Time has not the ability 
To heal this heart of mine!
The most I can hope for 
Is for my heart to eventually harden...
Never to feel again what I felt for you...
So with these words
I will let the story end
Because
For Me...There is no way to win
  Or even to Begin again...