pretending we've never felt the warmth
your lips. my touch.
you twist and you fold. no one even knows.
storys of my heart are broken
crying in a fit of uncontrolled rage.
"i gave him all that i could give, and still i wasnt good enough."
we'll stand in the cold.
my hair in my face, and the wind across my skin
your hand in mine. my eyes on you.
nothing ever seems to go my way.
you'll confide in me when nights grow long
and your broken heart is no longer strong.
i will not lose myself in you this time.
i've played this game, and lost my soul to many times.
my lungs are filled with smoke.
tears weep out from my pores.
the night is still early and filled with hope.
but as it wears on my eyes fall with disappointment.
my head on my pillow is filled with sweet dreams.
memories and tragedies ..
lost hope with blood, and cruel jokes for fun.
a night to define the past ..
laughter rings to drown out the silence.
awkwardness never tasted so sweet.
i'll give you all that i could ever give ...
but i guess its up to you if i will ever be good enough for you.
just ..
forever remember the taste of my tongue
for tomarrow i could always be gone.
another intoxicated night brings shame
i've known you what? two weeks ....
and already i hate you for what you've done
whos to say its even your fault?
knowledge doesnt surface when my bodys become numb
your lips move over my existence in such a sloppy manner
do you still remember my four lettered name?
a scarff around your bare neck
pants undone and ready to rip
my hands explore as you bite on my neck
how could i say im not a whore?
four months passed without a change
build up the lies and forget the undieing shame
you listened to every single word i spoke
but you fumbled through my closest to find the right emotions to stroke
smoke in my hair and beer on your tongue
shes home alone without an ounce of hope
but she'll play along
im sure shes really not that dumb
you love to love her, and hate to want me
she is your security blanket and i am your storm
give me one more month and my mind will be made
sent you a postcard that said "i've been great"
my phone doesnt ring with you on the line
i've denied you access and im doing fine
but still theres those nights when i lie awake
and question if everything was painfully fake
you'll see me again with my hand in his
will it kill you to see my lifes become bliss?
your brought me down farther than i thought i could go
but i came out a winner. this is something i now know
a thick skin of insecurities
forgotten by a core of brutal honesty
she'll slip her hair and smile
shes been here before
broken and wild
pale skin melts on your lips
dies on your tongue
this innocent texture reaks of havoc
so she'll hide the scares on her eyes
and bandage the burns on her fingertips
pull back her skin to show you more
a bloody interior and powder soft bones
she hides these cuts deep in her eyes
a moment so simple in a disgusting disguise
her hands never stop shaking
a cigarette to make things move
lips the bruise and teeth that tear
a lonely little girl with nothing more to bear
her stomach in ties
and her feet in tangles
walking never seemed this hard
but when shes all alone the good things die
and she cant remember
she throws you off with one flip of her tongue
and cuts you deep with a simple nights love
but everything she trys to hide
surface on her beautiful eyes
the creases of her face never fail
placed there with one simple task
to give her away and make her yell
about all the reasons she should leave
and all the things that make her decieve
loneliness is nothing but a disease
to eat at her insides and make everything bleed
shes grown accustom to the pale blue pills
one more for you, hun, and we'll all be gone
seal her lips with one spoken words
break her back with the wieght of your demands
shes crawling across this floor of glass
sliceing her knees and forgetting the pain in her back
these lips grow lold
and this body cheap
but atleast now the one you love can finally sleep
simple girl i am all that you need
im there when you're "dead"
im there when you sleep
you look at me through glass that reflects
and eyes that no longer can remember tolook back
lonely girl i am here by your side
because all you have is you and your selfish mind
shes leaving me to rot
and wishing she was the same
because here i stand crying
trying to feel this forsaken rain.