guess what!! ......... jovi has a date ....... how refreshing!
so after i sat on here and cried my heart out about how bitter i am because im cooped up at home .... i got out.
sandy and al came and picked me up and we went to the apartment. it was aight. there was a lot of drama. but then again when isnt there when alcohols involved??
i got home around 5am. and got up about an hour ago.
fuck, i hella needed last night. finally able to talk to people who are NOT family.
hello my name is jovi, and im an alcoholic. : )
this whole thing is rather pathetic. a site about me. a site that i only made because i have so much time on my hands; and a mind that tends to work over time. i needed to do something with it. before it ruined me.
its 10:19 on a thursday summer night. fresno's heat has finally left the touch of my skin. im sitting in my parents room. on the computer. wasting away my every thought into this damn site.
i must sound rather bitter. im not.
im just tired of being cooped up in this god forsaken house. you see. im "not grounded. just not trusted." therefore i go nowhere. i just waste.
this site is my wasted time. so enjoy. ha. what am i saying?
i was hopeing to escape tonight, but it doesnt look as though that is happening.
im too much hassel for my friends anymore, and i dont make an effort to change that.
you've caught me at the wrong time of day. this is the time of day i become utterly bitter because usually i'd be out. but im not. im suffocating at home.
im really not this emo. its an act. a five star motha fuckin act.