Have You Ever Walked Into a Crowded Room
by GOD

Have you ever walked into a crowded room and in that first moment, your eyes instantly lock onto someone standing in the far corner. You felt their energy the moment you walked through the threshold. You do not know this person but immediately you want to meet them.

As you watch, you notice that there is nothing special that seems to stand out, their dress is average, this person is just having a quiet conversation with a few people. Yet, you continue to watch while you are trying to pretend to scan the room (you try not to stare, but, it�s impossible) you notice that everyone else is also trying not to stare.

The room�s ebb and flow is going to and coming from this person�s energy, their energy owns the room. You begin to calculate how you are going to be able to speak to this person, but then, again, you realize so is everyone else. �What is it that draws me and everyone else to this person?� you ask yourself. You continue to look out of the corner of your eye, still trying not to be rude and be caught staring. However, their smile is so sincere and a relaxed peace exudes off every inch of their body.

�What is it?� you ask yourself repeatedly. The first half-hour has gone by, and you cannot stand it any longer, you just have to meet them. You start making your move, to at least, be able to nod and say hello, and at most be able to converse for a few moments. You barely manage to out-maneuver someone that has also been slyly staring, and you slip into the only slot available around this person, for there are many conversing with this person already. You stand there and stare, for now it is okay to look straight at them and have it not be construed as staring. Anyone looking on would say that you are only being polite and giving your full attention to the conversation and are sincerely interested in what this person is saying.

You cannot get enough, you hang onto every word they speak, you are in total awe. There is nothing-profound coming out of their mouth; the conversation is on how beautiful the weather has been the last few days, just small polite conversation. Yet, you want more, you want to know everything they know, everything! Their eyes are locked into the eyes of the person they are speaking with, and this person chuckles a soft chuckle at the appropriate moments. �God!� you say to yourself, �I�ve got to get into this conversation�, and so, you start to plot how and what you are going to say at the first opportunity. You look over your right shoulder to the person you have just out-maneuvered as they also are hanging onto every word this person is saying. You smile your insincere smile and are exceedingly happy that you got this space and they did not.

Your chance arrives and you speak your words, and instantly you wish you were in the spot of the person you just out-maneuvered. �How dumb!� you say to yourself, �of all the things I could have said, why oh why did I say that!� You feel yourself shrinking smaller and smaller and as you turn to slink away, you hear this person speaking back to you. And the words are so kind, the voice so gentle. You slowly start to straighten yourself out of the accordion position and your ears listen intently and again hang on to every word this person speaks. You think to yourself �Great! I guess I didn�t make a fool of myself.�

You step back into your original position because the person you just out-maneuvered thought you were leaving and was ready to jump into your spot. You speak again and again and they continually answer with the same loving, unassuming words. Someone behind you jumps into the conversation and the focus totally turns to them. �Whoa,� you giddily say to yourself as you begin to figure out what it is about this person that attracts you. �This person is lovingly centered.� You stay on that line of thought and you start studying their face. �Yes, that is what it is, this person is centered, this person has no defense about them, there�s no fight in them, this person doesn�t seem to have to prove anything. The only energy I feel from this person is love.�

As you are pondering this description of them in your mind, you are also wondering what it would it take? How could you become as this person? You would love to be this centered, you would love to be this loving, and you would love to have this energy exude off you. As you look back at the person you out-maneuvered you notice a crowd gathering behind them and all eyes are focused on this loving, centered person. The conversation has now turned to when the autumn comes and the beauty of the leaves that fall. You can barely stay focused on the conversation because all you want to do is ask, �What is it about you that love exudes off every inch of your body, and that there seems to be no fight in you, and it seems you don�t have to defend yourself and it seems that you are in total peace. How did you get this way, who are you?� All of a sudden, this person turns toward you and their eyes pierce yours. You realize not only did you think about these questions, but, you actually blurted the words out. There is a still in the air and it seems like seconds turn into hours and the contact between your eyes make every moment worth it. Everything is in slow motion, the room has fallen silent and you see a warm smile on their face just before you hear the most loving of words

I AM GOD��


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