I Wish

I wish I could see past the blackness surrounding
Covering me like a veil
I wish I could…

I wish I’d escape myself before the world comes crashing down
Trapped in my minds walls
I wish I would…

And I know that I’m wrong
It’s not a simple thing to find
And I know that I can
I want to leave that past behind

And I want to go
I want to be able to stand up tall
I want to turn it all around
I don’t ever want to fall (again)

But I run and I fall and I crash and I burn
And I go so fast that there’s no return
And I want to believe that I can find you
But I can’t go another step without you

And it licks and I feel and it hurts and there’s pain
And I don’t ever want to go through all that again
But it’s hard and I’m tired and I want to go home
I don’t care anymore; it hurts less alone

I wish I’d find the reason why all people leave
Like they always have
I wish I knew…

I wish I had the strength to leave you before you go away
Like I know you will
Like you always do...
Like they always do…