[lyrics by Exposé]
~When you wake up and find me gone tomorrow
Don't think I meant to hurt you
I just did what we knew I had to do~
I'd loved him ever since I first laid eyes on him--my God, has it really been five years? Have any of us changed? Hai, some of us have.
Quatre and Trowa are still so good together. They hardly even need words; everything is right there between them. Quatre is so much more confident--hell,
when his father forbade him to see Trowa anymore, he actually told the old man to let him live his own damn life for a change and stormed out. I was never
prouder of him than at that moment. Trowa... well, Trowa smiles more. Even if he's busy, his eyes light up when Quatre enters a room. I pray that they'll be
together for a long, long time.
Heero.... If only he could have changed, even a little. But no. He's still the perfect soldier: no feelings, no emotions, focused on the mission.
The mission. Ha. He had the gall to tell me that I was never more than a personal mission. Maybe
that's what made me open my eyes.
But... I truly believe he loved me once, in his own way. That's why I couldn't tell him good-bye.
~~Oh, and all the time we knew
The time was never right for us
Time to leave this love behind
But I could never leave you
Baby if I see you cry~
I feel almost like I ran away. The war had just ended; we were all going to go our separate ways anyway. Come the morning, I'd have to say good-bye to
Heero, the one who'd stolen my heart and could offer nothing in return. Trowa and
Quatre were going off together (that was just after the incident with Quatre's father, and they were going to stay with Catherine for a while).
Heero was going to Relena. He'd already made that perfectly clear. And I couldn't stand the thought that I was losing him to her. I have no personal
grudge against the girl; hell, I actually kinda like her--I wouldn't flirt with her, even a bit, if I didn't. But... I didn't want to admit that I was losing
him. I told myself that it would be easier this way.
I waited until everyone had gone off to bed before I left. I'd packed everything I cared to take with me earlier that day; the duffel bag was sitting
by my door, and all I had to do was grab it and go. But I still couldn't just walk out.
I had to make him understand why I chose to leave in this way.
~Please realize how hard it is to do this
I'm trying to make it through this
Say good-bye just as gently as I can~
I found myself outside his room, bag in hand, reaching for the doorknob. I kept
saying to myself 'What the hell are you *doing*, Duo?! Just turn around, walk away and forget him!' As much as I wanted to listen to that voice telling me to
walk away, I had to see him one last time.
Before I knew I'd done it, I was in his room. Heero's always seemed so much more at peace when he's sleeping. The cold façade fades away, leaving an
innocent-looking young man who should never have had to fight in the first place. So much like all of us, I suppose. He was always beautiful to me, those
rare moments of peace are something that I'll carry with me and treasure for the
rest of my life.
~Please try and understand
This time's just not the time for us
We knew I couldn't stay
But that don't make it easier to leave you
So while I can find the strength~
I paused next to the bed, gazing down at his peaceful, sleeping face. I knew if
I stayed for much longer, he could awaken, ask me what I thought I was doing. I
would fall into those deep blue eyes again and be unable to do what I had to.
A tear rolled down my cheek, and I wiped it away, surprised. I hadn't even realized that I'd begun to cry. If I stayed, I knew I'd never be able to follow
through with this. I drew in a deep breath, and bent down, keeping my eyes on his subtle beauty, drinking in the sight of Heero Yuy for what I knew would be
the very last time.
~Before your arms embrace me
Before your kisses take me
Before your eyes can make me stay....~
I pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, lingering for just a moment while I whispered, "I'll always love you, Heero."
~I'll say good-bye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I'll kiss you softly one last time and say good-bye
Like I know we must~
I kissed him one more time, whispered the word, "Good-bye." Then I stood and walked out of the room. I didn't look back, because I knew if I did, I would
stay.
~I'll wait till you're asleep to say good-bye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I'll kiss you softly one last time and say good-bye
Like I know we must
There's just no other way
And I couldn't bear to see your heart break
So I'll wait till you're asleep to say good-bye~
I left that night without a word to anyone. I left a note for Quatre and Trowa,
but when I'd slipped past your room, you were already gone yourself. I never even thought about it at the time. I've had a lot of time to think since I
left, though. And I think... that maybe I fell in love with the wrong person.
~When you wake up and find me gone tomorrow
Don't think I meant to hurt you~
I hope I'll find you again some day. I see Trowa and Quatre all the time; I don't have any clue where Heero and Relena are. But when I find you, Wufei
Chang, I'm not letting you leave again. I won't let you slip away like I did so
long ago, fool that I was then.
And I promise you one more thing. You'll never have to hear me say
~Good-bye~
OWARI