WriTtEn By sHaLeNe McNeiL
Why Was Happiness Taking So Long?
I Tried To Be Caring, I Tried To Be True,
I Tried My Best, I Did Everything For You.
Why Is The World So Cruel,
Why Must Beauty Be The #1 Rule?
How Could I Let You Hurt Me, How Didn't I See,
Everything That You Were Doing To Me.
My Heart Got Broken, So I Closed The Door,
Shut Out My Life, The One I Have No More.
There's A Bruise On My Heart, Left By Them
But Don't You Worry, They'll Never See It Again.
They Have No Idea, Of Their Effects On You,
Or The Pain They Cause By What They Do.
Cold And Lonely, Try Not To Cry,
Prentend You're Happy Even If It's A Lie.
I Want To Cry, I Really Do...
Why Is It, That I Mean Nothing To You?
Down My Cheeks The Tears Now Run,
As I Realize What I've Done.
My Life Has Too Much Heartache And Pain,
And I'm The Only One Left To Blame.
What Was It Really, That I Did Wrong??
Why Is It, That You're Gone?
All Around Me, There They Are.
Talking, Laughing, Full Of Glee,
I See Them, But They Don't See Me.
I'd Like To Be Like Them, I Really Would,
If I Only Could...
Let Go Of The Hate, Hurt, Lies and Tears.
If I Could Only Find Meaning ,
In This Life I'm Living.
All Alone In A Crowd,
Drifting Around Like A Cloud.
Everyday, Like The Last,
I've Made Nothing Of The Past.
How Can I Live, As I Am?
I'm Not Sure, If I Can.
There Is Nothing To Help Them And I Unite,
Forever I Will Lay, Out Of Sight.
Can't Hold Back These Tears,
Can't Keep Inside, The Hate, The Secrets, Lies, And Fears,
Can No Longer Brush Off The Hurtful Words,
I Have No Strength Left To Try,
No Strength Left To Even Cry.
Every Hurtful Word Is Another Thing That Makes Her Weak,
She Puts Down Her Head, Her Brown Hair Covers Her Face,
And She Wonders "Why Was I Put Here In This Big Opened Space?"
All Alone, Un-Caring And Cold,
What's The Point Of Growing Old?
She Wants To Die And Finally Be Free.
She Looks In The Mirror, And I Realize....
That Girl Is Me.