MY ILLUSIVE JOURNAL

June 12, 2002

Morning shows the day. The incident of  waking from sleep in the morning make me assured that the nature loves me so much but it is a fact that she makes her way in her own wishes; in this point of view she is barely selfish. In the beginning of the day, the morning sky of my mind has been colored by the hue of a strange thought, I ever felt. I felt that day would be splendid and full of mercy indeed. If a person is asked, for our well being, who should be hated- sin or the sinner. The person will answer with no delay from his or her common sense that the sin must be. Sin has the intrinsic value and is superimposed on human for it's action, thus they can be distinguished. The proper physical example of the separate existence of sin and the sinner can be cited as: the doctor treats the sickness of a murderer without hating him or her from the core of his heart because he knows if the sin is eliminated, sinner will be an angel. In the same way a correction officer can deal with the criminals. The same idea can be implied on the two separate existence of beauty and the beautiful. When nature impose beauty on it's creation, it is called as beautiful. Beautiful always needs some solid on non-abstract livings or non-livings. On the other hand beauty has an absolute intrinsic value by which anybody can create a beautiful thing. So the worshiper of beauty can make a mind in the sense of beauty, whose boundary is not limited but the lover of beautiful has a great chance to be confined inside the four walls of it's physical existence. In other word, we can say the adoration of the beautiful is something like materialistic addiction. Human demands randomly changes their phases that's why the old one is overwhelmed and discarded and new beautiful thing fills the empty space. Lot of incidents are happening for human relationship and behavior, what we are experiencing in our everyday life. Man and woman are attracted to each other by the spiritual stimulation through the mind, which end it's journey in the physical response and their actions by means of physical stimulants, such as endocrine secretions. The human ego is responsible to add human a separate identity as an individual and established a realm made of five senses and other physical means governed by the ego which disconnect the communication with spirit, the primary producer of all stimulation. Ego is a complicated and unknown emotional as well as mathematical programming in human mind. Very soon the human is reached the point of its overwhelming edge, then by its inherent oscillating properties  jumps from one option to another so far, in terms of sex from one body to another. I firmly believe, it can not be happened if we do not lose our connection with the primary stimulant of all our activities. It is possible by judging the living or non-living beings or relationship by means of its intrinsic values. What is meant by the term intrinsic values, can be cited by an example, when a particular human relation is being older, some overwhelming or annoying feelings are imposed on the relationship, it is possible to eliminate those feelings by evaluating him or her by the unconditional properties or characters, as  the man has power to conceive the beauty of the wings of a flying bird or the lady feels dreamy by the fragrance of wild flowers.    

June 15, 2002

One evening I was wandering in my mind. All on a sudden, I met a man near a lonely farm , sowing seed of some crops in his own land with undivided attention. I asked the fellow, what are you doing with so deep concentration. He replied, I am sowing the seeds of wisdom, which will come out as enormous, bottomless dimension of wisdom after some days. Those are simple seeds of crops, why you say those things as seeds of wisdom. He exclaimed, well, you see I am handling now some seeds; I don't know all the information, existing inside the seeds; if I start unveiling the secrets, I am sure it will not be finished in future; it is called the wisdom, which has no confined boundaries. I am so pleased with your answer sir; if you don't mind, can I ask you a small question which I am rising in my mind for a long time. Can you give me very simple definition of time, conceivable for all sorts of people. I think you throw me into a big trouble, even I try for you, he replied. You know better, example is better than perception, so you may pick up your definition from the example. We conceive time in three different ways, present, past and future but reality is somewhat deviated from our conception. Let say you are driving your car at particular speed. you are driving by looking forward, watching some objects are proceeding towards you or you are moving towards the object. When driving, the object or place where you are not yet, is like your future. Car is moving forward and you are watching backward, things are getting apart from you; the things or place, departing from you is like the past. sometimes you are staring along the side window of the moving car and notice that objects or place is moving with you; it is like your present. When you come out of your car, every thing and all places are with you, nothing seems to you different. In the same way you can say, time is only one, there is no present past or future. Let me explain how these conception about time comes into being. A mathematician or a physicist can explain time in more logical way. Let us look at our body,  all physiological functions of our body systems are periodic or oscillatory, same incidents are happening periodically such as respiration, heart bits, hunger even emotions of mind also. Our loving persons die, we get shock and again come back to normal life, we like a number of material things and after some time we dislike them and again our likings go to the former after some period have been passed. The conception of time come to us by our our oscillatory body functions, metal emotions as well as oscillatory nature of our surroundings. Time is a linear function but the incidents are happening in our universe are recurrent in nature, thus our mind fix with the idea that time is a periodic function and come back again and again but it is not the fact, no birthday of Nancy or Charley comes back periodically.   

 

          June 24, 2002

Goodnight Steve! See you tomorrow. Hi, Shaikh, take care, bye! If you don't mind, can I ask you something. You look so pale, anything wrong, don't you like the job or something else. O! no Steve, everything ok. Actually I stay in the trance of my work inside my mind.   

 

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