| 6AM, I await the sun. If I were the sun I would stay away as long as possible. I try to hide from myself, but I�m always there. I�m the shadow from which you can�t escape. As long as the sun doesn�t shine that shadow can�t be cast. I trade one darkness for another. I�ve spent my whole life trying to get lost. But I�m never quite sure where I�ve come from. My thoughts are clouded, when will they clear? I�m ready to give you it all. Rejection is all that�s left to fear. You�re so far away from me now, only once I found you cared. Your beauty surpasses all that I see. I feel that for you I�d give you all I had, And it would last for an eternity. Slate gray streaks across the sky, The wind rolls past me. I offer it my cares, but it�s too late it�s already gone. Calm. I am amazed by the stillness. How it remains still with all the muddled confusion I have to offer. Paradise discarded. She is afraid, I try to hide my fear. But in this time of darkness, I cannot help but shed this tear. This lavish mortar ghost town embraces my solitude. I ask my questions silently, They�re answered back with silence. I feel like a rock, who�s become aware of erosion bringing it�s slow decay. I�m alone again, I�m happier here without you. This technicolor wall I�ve built grows higher, But still reflecting only blue. The words I�m told mean nothing, They�re here only to be contradicted later. I feel cold, naked and wet. Like a newborn begging to be returned. I�ve treaded water for too long, seeking something to keep me afloat. Greeted only with lead life preservers� Tossed to me from a sinking boat. |
| paradise discarded |