WARNING: This chapter contains sexual situations/descriptions suited for a mature audience. Remember: You will not be warned of further sexual content from this point on. To Be Desired Chapter 23 You want love? we�ll make it I know you�re mine all mine all mine But you look so good it hurts sometimes Your body is a wonderland The following days proceeded uneventfully. Concerts were sparser and spirits higher. The tour was nearing it�s end. Only one week left. Paul was acting sweeter to me. Maybe not sweeter...he was always sweet but like grateful to me... No, I dunno I couldn�t explain it, he was just acting with a hint of something extra. He hadn�t made any moves on me, I dunno if I was glad for that or unhappy. My nerves were high, I was going to England in one week! and going to Paul�s house and I�d meet his family later and it scared me. I tried to forget about that and have fun with the rest of the guys. Paul and I had slid into our room during one of their famous( or infamous) parties. The girls had been literally all over Paul. Some had elbowed me and pushed me out of the way. My stomach which earlier had contact with a elbow still had a dull pain and my shoulder hurt. I guess they got worse at the end. Paul shut the door behind us and locked it. �Those fans are brutal� I said lying on the bed. �Are you alright, Luv?� He asked walking up to the bed. �Yeah, yeah, I�m fine� I said. He laid down next to me. �I�m sorry, I-� He started. �Never mind, Paul, It�s fine� I said waving it away. He traced circles on my stomach. �I love you, Sarah� He said. �I love you too, Paul� I said sitting up and hugging him to me. I kissed him quickly. �I�m going to get changed.� I said standing up. He nodded smally. I grabbed my sweat shorts and a tank top and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth, combed my hair, changed, and such. I turned out the light as I walked into the other room. Paul was sitting up a bit in bed with just boxers on and a bare chest. I smiled. God, so very very sexy. I got in bed, pulling the covers over me and snuggling close to Paul. I was very warm and laid my head on his shoulder. He smiled at me and kissed my forehead. �You look nice, without a shirt on, you know.� I said smiling. He smiled back. �Why thank you.� He said before kissing me sweetly and slowly. I kissed him back harder, running my hands slowly over the warm skin of his chest. The kissed become more intense and demanding, Paul steadily increasing their emotivity. I was pressed against him with my arm around his neck. I felt him pressing against my leg slightly. He slid his hand up my stomach and teased my breasts. I moaned into his mouth and moved against him. My hand was on his waist and for the first time ever I had the overwhelming impulse to feel him. I had never touched a guy and had no knowledge on how to go about it. But before I knew it my hand was sliding slowly down his stomach. I moved a fraction of an inch away and slid my hand hesitantly in his boxers. I felt him turn from firm to hard in my hand. That frightened me to a degree, realizing what I was doing. I slid my hand slowly back up his chest and kissed him sweeter. He took my hand and set it back on his boxers. I pulled away from his kiss slowly. �I�m sorry, Paul� I started quietly. �I didn�t mean to start anything, I still don�t-� I went on. He squeezed my fingers. �It�s alright, Luv� He started. �That�s not gunna happen tonight, I promise. I wouldn�t do that to you. Just-�, �Just touch me� He finished in a husky voice that sent shivers down my spine. He squirmed impatiently under my hand while I hesitated momentarily. I slid my hand down his boxers again and touched him self-consciously, like. �Yeah� He said softly in a shivery voice. I discovered him as he got bigger and harder in my hand. His hands roamed over my body slowly. He stopped and his hands went up to my shoulders. He rolled us over so suddenly, I startled and my heart was beating wildly. He was on top of me and I slid my arms around his neck. He moved above me swiftly and I could feel him on my belly. I felt him tense subtly before he cried out and his wetness spread across me. He collapsed atop me. His breathing was almost gasps in my ear and I kissed his face quietly. I played idly with the hair on the back of his head. when I didn�t think I could stand his weight on me anymore he rolled over off me. I snuggled nearer to him and kissed him sweetly. I pushed his bangs from his face and kissed his forehead. He Put one arm around me and kissed me on the lips. I ran my hand through his hair. He pushed me back. �Your turn� He said. I slid my hand to his chest. �Naw, that�s alright� I said �Alright� he said kissing my cheek. �I�d rather take a bath.� I said smilishly looking down at my front. He smiled back. �Yeah, sorry bout that-� he said. �Oh, that�s alright, I didn�t like this shirt anyway� I said shrugging mock nonchalantly. Still smiling �It�s not ruined� he said. �No thanks� I said running my hand through the wetish. �You can have it back.� I said smearing it across his cheek. He raised his eyebrows laughing. �No, no, really I insist.� He said smearing some from his chest unto me. I looked at him mock indignant and smeared more across his arms. And soon I was very sticky. I burst out laughing. �I really think we should consider a bath� I said. Paul nodded with a sarcastic glint in his eye. He stood up and walked past me to the bathroom. �You started it� He said quietly as he did. I smiled to myself. I heard the water turn on and I shivered, standing up. I walked into the bathroom and over to Paul, checking the water temp. I wrapped my arms around his waist. He turned and wrapped his arms around me and kissed me. �I love you, Sarah� He said. �I love you too, Paulie� I said. He kissed the corner of my mouth. I kissed his cheek and looked at the tub, The water got to the top and he turned it off. Now we had to take our clothes off... Paul stepped up to me and kissed me deeply. His hands slid down to my shorts and he hesitated on the hem. I slid them off and stepped out of them. I had no problem with taking off shorts, no. His hand slid to my panties and stopped. I hesitated too. I didn�t want to do this really, take my clothes off, but it�s the only way to take a bath init? I slid them down my legs and stepped out of them too. Now I slid my hand to Paul�s boxers and didn�t hesitate too very long. I knew he had no inhibitions about any of this. I slid them down his legs. He kissed me and hugged me to him. Our lower bodies touched and it felt good. His hand ran under the hem of my shirt. I had never been naked with a guy, or so close to it. I hesitated before I pulled it over my head. I dropped it to the floor and Paul held me at arms length looking at me. �Mmmm, Beautiful� He said, �your gorgeous�. I smiled and blushed. �oh, Thanks� I said. He smiled and kissed me. �Let�s get in then� He said. He stepped into the tub sinking into the water. I watched him and smiled wickedly to myself. He was very sexy all naked like that. I got in and sat between his legs, he pulled me back to his chest. His hands moved over my body. It was silent besides the sound of softly lapping water as Paul�s hands trailed across me. His hand rubbed me between my legs. �I�ll have you someday� He said softly, jokingly with mock determination. But I didn�t take it that way. My cheeks burned. �I�m sorry Paul, You know how much I love you but I just don�t-� I started. �Hey, Luv-� He interrupted. �I was just kidding, I understand. I know you love me. You don�t hafto do anything until your ready.� He said hugging me to him closer. �How understanding of you� I said jokingly. �I thought so� He replied just as such. �Thanks Paul� I said, all joking aside. �Anytime, Luv, Anytime� He said. We got clean and then got into bed and fell asleep quickly. The next few days went by quickly. Paul and I fooled around in bed but I had stopped him, or he had stopped himself before we done anything serious. But my wanting of him had increased every day, every minute I was with him. I wanted him bad. One night my aching want overrode my virgin fears. I came out of the bathroom and turned off the light, finished getting ready. I took a look at Paul and a shock went through me. I smiled slowly to myself. He was wearing black pants and a dark green turtleneck sweater. I had this thing with turtlenecks. I thought they were very sexy. Put the sexiest guy on earth in one and rarr! I slid my hands up his chest and around his neck. �You know I think you look incredibly sexy right now� I said smiling at him. �Do you?� He smiled back. �Oh yeah� I said, �I have this thing with turtlenecks� I said smiling wider. �A thing?� He asked his smile widening too, amused. I nodded. �Yeah, I think they are really sexy� I said. �really?� He said. I nodded. �straight up� I said. He smiled. �Well isn�t that lucky for me� He said. �Even luckier for me� I said. The day went by quickly I couldn�t keep my eyes off Paul. Sexy. I thought a lot about us. I was laying in bed. Paul was in the common room, doing something with the rest of the guys. I had thought I was tired until I actually laid down. I was wide awake. I missed Paul and he was just in the next room. It was odd. I loved him so much it almost hurt. I knew I told him that I didn�t want to sleep with him. That would not be a smart thing to do. Sleep with Paul McCartney. But no matter how smart it was. It was very inviting. I loved him a lot. I don�t know really what it was that held me back. Maybe it was thinking about all his one night stands you knew he had. I mean I knew I wasn�t a one night stand. I knew he loved me. Maybe that�s what it was. I liked how we could have a relationship without it. But just because we could, didn�t mean it was better that way. I liked Paul loving me not for what I did to him, or for him, He loved me without that. That somehow made it more. But I really loved him and he really loved me and that was all that really mattered. And I had known the whole time. I would do it. I wanted Paul and I wasn�t waiting any longer. I wasn�t letting Paul brake down my morals. He told me he would wait. I believe him, he would. I don�t want to anymore. If we love each other it doesn�t matter. I took a deep breath and laid back. I snuggled into the covers and laid still. Something started in the pit of my stomach. A feeling. I don�t know what. Dread, warning, anxiousness, love, nervousness. Maybe a little bit of all. The door opened quietly and shut just as such. I could hear Paul pulling off his shoes and clothing. He slid into bed next to me in his boxers and undershirt. He reached for the light next to the bed. I grabbed his arm. He startled a bit. �You�re up� he said. I smiled and nodded. �yes I am� I said. He smiled and laid back. I leaned to him and kissed him. He kissed me back. I ran my had up in his shirt and touched his warm skin. We pulled back to breathe. He looked at me. I laid my head on his shoulder. He smelled so good. He put a strong arm around me. �I love you Sarah� he said simply yet deeply, kissing the top of my head softly. I took a deep breathe. �I love you too, Paul� I said. I suppose now I should tell him. I kissed his softly again. �I�m ready, Paul� I whispered. He just looked at me. I smiled and laid down, my face in his hair. �I�m ready� I repeated. �To sleep with you, if you want.� I said. I decided that sounded stupid as soon as I said it. Oh well. �It�s not what I want, Luv� He said his arm rubbing my back. �I want to be sure it�s what you want, that you�re ready.� he said. �I am� I said. �I don�t want you to regret this.� He went on. �I don�t want you to wake up tomorrow and regret this, I told you I�d wait, you don�t hafto do this� He said. I smiled wider and kissed him. �I want to, If I regret this, slap me and do it again� I said. He smiled and kissed me. �Alright.� he said giving in. I kissed him harder. A searching kiss. He responded and kissed me back, demanding. I ran my hands on his chest under his shirt. I grabbed the bottom and yanked it up. �I�ll get this for you.� I said quietly half and inch away from his face. I pulled his shirt up and he helped pulling it over his head before finding my mouth with his and kissing me again deeper than before. I threw it on the floor and ran my hands across his warm skin. �You�re sure?� He murmured against my lips. I nodded. �Yes� I said. �He ran his hands down my hips slowly. A feeling jumped around my stomach, almost impatience. I took a deep breath as he ran his fingers around the hem of my shorts. He pushed them down my hips and I helped them off. He kissed me again and I kissed him back deep, demanding. He kissed down my neck, and farther. I was glad he knew what he was doing because I certainly didn�t. He tugged on the bottom of my shirt. �Can I help you with this?� He asked. I nodded and grabbed the bottom hem. I pulled it over my head and dropped it to the floor. Paul looked at me. �God you�re so beautiful.� He said kissing me. He was kind of leaning over me and I wrapped my arms around his neck kissing him back. His hand slid up my stomach slowly and I shivered. He cupped my breast in his hand and ran his thumb across my nipple. He pinched and played with me between his fingers. It felt so good. I arched my back and moaned into his mouth. He kissed me all over my face and then down my neck again. I loosened my arms around his neck. He took me in his mouth and played with me with his tongue. I arched my back higher and ran my hands through his hair tugging on it. He slid a hand to my hip and moved to my other breast. �oh, Paul� I sighed tugging his hair. He came back to my mouth kissing me demandingly. I searched his mouth with my tongue as I played with the hair on the back of his neck inconsciently. I could feel his hard-on pressing into my thigh and shivered. Fear overcame me before I pushed it away firmly. I slid my hand down slowly between us and touched him through his boxers. Paul inhaled sharply. I rubbed my hand over him and squeezed him gently. He moaned lowly, breathing quickly. I wanted to really feel him and slid my hand in his shorts. I rubbed him and felt him grow harder in my hand. He moaned deeply and I kissed him quickly. �You don�t really need these� I said smiling, pulling his boxers down his legs. He pulled them off and I stared a couple seconds I had been too embarrassed before to really look at him, now I didn�t care. I moved closer to him and stroked him delicately. He moaned and moved against my hand. I massaged him gently and he moaned with pleasure. It made me feel so special to make him feel like that. I slid my hand up to his hair and kissed him intensely, melting into him. He kissed me back and slid his hand under the strap of my panties. He pushed them down and I pulled them off and tossed them aside. The covers were already scrunched to the bottom of the bed and the sheets were soon abandoned too. He slid his hand down my stomach and I tensed. Not noticeably but he could feel it. He kissed me delicately. �Relax, Luv, I wont hurt you. I promise� He said softly. I trusted him I just dunno. I took a deep breath and relaxed. �Do you want to stop?� He asked softly. I shook my head. �Oh, no� I said, �I want you� I whispered. �Mmm, I want you too� He said in his husky voice that drove me wild. �Then take me� I whispered. He touched me and slid his finger in me slowly. I kissed Paul harder pulling on his hair gently. I was so wet for him. I moaned and sighed into his mouth. I moved against his hand lost in waves of feeling. I had never felt like this before. It was fantastic. I slid my hand down between us and touched him softly. He slid both his hand to my shoulders suddenly and pushed me all the way on my back. He moved on top of me and kissed me feverishly. I could feel him between my legs. My stomach clenched in fear, overwhelming my intense wanting. He slid one hand to my hip. �Luv, Everything will be OK, I Love you.� He said sweetly. �I love you too, Paul.� I whispered back into his ear, letting go of my fears and trusting him with me. I squirmed under him now anxious for him to get inside me. He pushed into me slowly. I felt a sharp tug and gasped softly. He stopped and waited. � Are you alright?� He asked quietly. It had hurt but I wanted to feel him more. I lifted my hips and smiled at him. �Yeah� I whispered back. He pushed farther into me and then out, thrusting slowly. I was breathing harder and an intense feeling started at the very pit of my stomach. I moved under him slowly. �Ohh, Yeah� He plunged into me with slowly increasing speed. I tangled my hands in Paul�s hair. He vociferated my name with every thrust. I melted. It made me feel so special for him to be calling my name, to know that I made him feel good. I was moaning and sighing his name over again. His momentum was quick and he thrust in hard. Ripples of pleasure exploded through my body. I cried out his name and he silenced me with his mouth, kissing me vehemently. I shook in quiet aftershocks as Paul started his thrusts again gaining his speed much quicker than before. He cried out as he exploded inside me. His arms seemed to give and he collapsed on top of me. My breath left me in an �oof�. His dead weight was almost crushing but it felt good. I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him to me tightly as he breathed heavily in my ear. I breathed into his sweaty hair. God, that was incredible. His breathing almost regulated. He moved posture so he was supporting his own weight but we were still connected. I kissed him gently, sweetly, and much more chaste than before. He kissed back. He pushed my hair away from my face and touched my cheek. �I love you so much, Sarah� He said softly, so heartfelt. It squeezed my heart and I felt like crying. I loved him so much. The tears sprung to my eyes before I could stop them and ran down my cheeks. �oh, Luv, what�s wrong?� He said quietly. �Did I hurt you?� He asked quickly. wiping the tears off my face. I shook my head. and kissed him intensely. I hugged him to me so tightly, my face in his neck. � I love you so much, Paul� I said quietly in his ear with a tremor in my voice. �It�s hard to describe, And I dunno if you feel the same way. I�ve never felt like this ever, But I feel like this isn�t real and sometimes I�m afraid to tell myself it is.� I said truthfully. �look at me� He said quietly. I was almost afraid to but I raised my head and looked at him. He pushed my hair from my face, tucking it behind my ear and cupped my jaw in his hand. I saw the love in his eyes and my heart jumped. �I feel the exact same way, Sarah, don�t ever think I don�t. This is real. We are together and that�s how it�s going to stay. I love you, I�m not kidding when I tell you. I love you more than anything, anyone, I�ve ever known. I want you to know that� he said soulfully. I choked and nodded. The tears found their way down my face again. He wiped them away. �Don�t cry, it makes me feel bad.� He said. I smiled. �It�s Ok, these are happy tears.� I said wiping my eyes. I felt so spent and so emotionally tired. The silence was short lived. �It was the sweater wasn�t it?� he asked. I laughed. �No, it was just you� I said. �But the sweater helped.� I said. �Very sexy� I added. �Mmm, well I�ll be sure to wear it quite often then� he said. I laid my head on his shoulder and my arm across his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled a sheet over us. I turned and looked out the glass doors to the velvet sky outside, sparkling with diamonds. Paul pulled me tighter to him and his breathing regulated softly. I stared at the sky drowsily. I saw a shooting star light up the sky and I wished, and I prayed, and I dreamed. I listened to him breathe as I fell asleep happier than I�ve ever been in my life. I awoke slowly the next morning. I felt sticky and sweaty. I looked around the room. The sun streamed through the curtains and it looked late. I was glad this was a day off. I looked at Paul. Sleeping peacefully, his arm still around me. I smiled and mused his bangs. I kissed him gently on his sleeping lips and ran my fingers down his stubblish cheek. He stirred groggily. His eyes fluttered open and I smiled at him. He smiled back and pulled me to him, kissing me loverly. I ran my hand through his messy hair. he yawned and stretched his arms above his head. �Morning, Luv� He said. �Good morning� I said. He pulled me to him. �Any regrets?� He asked gently. �Not a one� I said matter-of-factly. He smiled. �I was hoping you�d say that� he said. �That was too good to regret� I said. �I agree� He smiled wickedly. He hugged me. I kissed him. �I need a shower.� I said. I got up. �So do I� He said. I smiled. �Then come on� I said walking towards the bathroom. He smiled. �I�ll be right there� he said. I went to the bathroom and brushed my hair out waiting for the water to warm up. I stepped in. Mmmm warm. Paul dropped something on the counter and went to the bathroom as I wet my hair all the way. I put shampoo in my hair and Paul came in and got his hair wet. We switched spots and I rinsed my hair. �Lemme wash your hair� I said. He smiled and handed the shampoo to me. I put some in my hands and messaged it through his hair. �Mmm that feels good� He said. I smiled and switched spots for him to rinse his hair out. We kissed under the spray and washed each other, spending more time in the shower than necessary. Fun times. I dried off and found a white terry robe on the back of the door. I slid it on and wrapped my hair in the towel. Paul rubbed his hair vigorously with the towel and wrapped it around his waist. I brushed me teeth quickly so he could shave. I blew dry my hair very quickly leaving a natural wave in it. I just put on my black sweat shorts and a white spaghetti strap. Paul came out smooth-cheeked and smelling good. He changed quickly into jeans and a tee-shirt. I shivered a bit. I found Paul�s dress shirt on the chair and pulled it on buttoning one or two buttons. �I�m starving� Paul announced. I nodded in agreement and we left to get breakfast. Everyone was sitting around the table casually, eating breakfast. Day-off�s were precious and far between though soon they�d have quite a while off. We sat down at the table. We exchanged cheery good morning�s with everyone. I felt giddy almost, It felt like Paul�s fingerprints were all over my body, glowing. I could notice the spring in Paul�s step, so to speak. His mood apparent. I obviously wasn�t the only to notice. I was pouring a cup of tea. John was looking intently at Paul. �Someone�s got laid� John said almost sing song. Oh great. I looked up. John winked at me. �So, how was she, mate?� He asked Paul. Oh god. �Ah, I can tell from that grin on yer face.� John said. I hoped I wasn�t blushing too much. �But, was she as good as you told me you thought she would be?� He asked raising his eyebrows. Paul blushed and sideglanced me before giving John an evil stare. �John, shut up.� Paul said seriously. �Hey, I was just playing with you guys.� He said holding up his hands defensively. �I�m sure she was even better.� He added winking. �But, how was Paul?� John asked. �I�ve heard some awful rumors...� He trailed off. I put my hand to Johns ear and whispered my response looking at Paul. I pulled back and John looked at me with raised eyebrows. I nodded smiling. John looked at Paul with his eyebrows raised and Paul looked at me Like �what the hell did you tell him?�. I just smiled and sat back, taking a sip of tea. a/n: Ok all, Hoped you liked my sad attempt at sexy writing. Sorry it�s so sucky. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF PAUL SIGN MY DREAMBOOK AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!!!!!! PLEASE!!!! Home Chapter 24 � Copyright 2002 by Sarah Lucey. 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