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THE TIME OF THE LAMB

The changing of decade, from the earthquake plagued eighties, to the A.I.D.S. horrified ninety was even more significant then I thought it would be. The changing would catch everyone's attention so it would be a good time to bring excaliber to the public's attention. After resting for a year in the AlphA meetings and gaining much support from Cathy and her friends. I began my Manhattan campaign in Central Park in an area called the "Sheep's Meadow" named after the fact it was once where sheep were kept. It's in the center of the Park behind Tavern on the green. It is the location where the movie "Wall Street" shoot the last scene when Mike Douglas was punched out.

I saw a person selling cold drinks and they had on a gold necklace which the image of Jesus holding a sheep and surrounded by other sheep. I felt that this was the best place to try to become a good shepherd. As I was thinking that I saw a German Shepherd dog who came over to me and reminded me of the fact Dog and God are like "live and evil", both like the yin yang sign. I told the dog my name was Ralph which is really my middle name and is the sound dogs make. It is a Hebrew word coming from Raffia which means the Healer and is also the name of the third highest angel Raphael.

While I was talking to the good shepherd I was recognized by a friend who I had known in Boston his name Logan Evens and we had attended Harvard University together. It seemed odd that Logan means "the word" and he was suspicious about me talking to the dog. He reminded me that dogs are only extensions of their masters and to judge a dog by its owner not its first appearance.

I was not surprised to find that Logan was also working on the coming of the New Age which he called the "New Reality." He was running a Paragon cable acess show on channel 16 at 2:00 pm thursday and Monday 1:30 A.M. the show was about the coming of the new age, which he called "The Four Horsemen" from the Revelations of John.

Logan was a history major so I had no problem explaining the political and historical aspects of what the copyrights to the calendar were. He very well understood the meaning of the phrase "The Return of Excaliber." Particularly because he had been an Episcopalian student at Trinity High School on 91 st, Street, Manhattan. Which is a English Church run School with the crossed P symbol displayed and taught as Kingdom come.

The importance of Logen's "New Reality" philosophy meant that he had now reached a mind over matter state. In fact his company was called M.S.O. which was the abbreviation for a latin expression meaning Mind over matter. Mennos supri onos?

The fact is that I had little to explain to him except that the word is Love and it is the meaning of my name Phil, I would add that with Logan I felt the power of the force higher then mine which is the cross iron rod the Philip-head Excalibur.

He was a lacrosse player and the name on his stick was Excaliber. Logan who believe that all occurrence are part of our thought process. Found it interesting when I called to his attention that the name Lacrosse means "the Cross" and the game was founded between the settlers of America and the natives Mohawk tribe. As a game to convince them about the power of the cross.

The real meaning of Logen's part in what I considered my mission was; his new reality concept meant that the New Age or Rapture was now taking place. This fact of the new age meant that both the Jewish and Christian people would have to accept Logen as the word of their Messiah and Christ. In my opinion I have accepted that Christ the Messiah sits at the right hand of God and that is where my Philip's head is in my right hand so therefore Christ is the cross of Iron.

The Jewish people who did not believe in Jesus now had to contend with the New Age Philosophy and therefore the time of the Messiah had come. Also the war in the Mideast was picking up and after the shooting of seven Palestinian by what the news called a deranged Israel men. The world was starting to look towards Israel and its friend the United States as a problem.

In a Daily News Article on the second page with a full picture which appeared in Saturday May 26, 1990 paper, there was a picture of Orthodox Jews holding a picture of Yaser Arofat and are quoted as saying that the problem is with the Conservatives Jews who are trying to build a Jewish state before the coming of the Messiah. Logen and I took our philosophy to the public on T.V. and then in person.

The man who we find to be best suited for helping use do so is a man named Baird Jones who is titled Party give of the decade. In so much as the decade was changing to the nineties Baird was interested in the calendar idea. He invited me to his parties and I gave out the invitations to the new calendar installation party I was scheduling to take place in Minneapolis for 1999. At which time we would go to the new year zero.

I could realistically end this Book of Life at Logan's New Reality, however there was the up coming party which I was calling the super Star New Years. The changing of a decade was to be the beginning of my personal experience with the person I've been referring to in this book as the special child Lamb herself.

I soon found I wasn't the only person waiting for a great party. Now that I was looking I found that the New Years babies were the most excited about new years. I meet one of these special babies at a Baird Jones Party the night before Thanksgiving 1989 the place was Nick Grove on the upper east side. The special one's names Shena and she was very excited about my book especially because she could identify to the child born New Years, because she was a New years babe herself. It was my meeting her which made me realize that in this new reality the spacial child which I wrote about who's birthday was new years was the person I was meeting.

It was the timelessness of the next age which I saw when I looked at her. Shena is a singer and prides her self on being appealing. She was very complementary toward me and gained my attention. Soon I thought she was the Lamb who I had been waiting for. I tried thinking of her as my baby daughter. However Shena who was 47 at that time found me to be more like her child and soon the reality that we*ere to become lovers struck both of us.

I some ways our relationship became a public affair. For one thing my calendar copyrights were getting me attention alone with my piping. Also Shena was planing a big New Year Christmas birthday party. I was soon coming together how special she was and I even started to call Christmas Trees, "Shena's Birthday Bushes."

Shena was born in Philadelphia and she had a room share with a man from Philadelphia who was named David. He was going to have his 49 th birthday after new years. This meant that he and Shena were Capricorns which are half Goat and fish. Interesting is that the sign capricorn is considered the Knees of the Astrological Person. Therefore I myself being the Head the Ram, I naturally thought that they were foundation and part of the master plan.

The apartment which this party was to take place was on the fourteenth floor of the LandMark apartments on 66 st. and Amsterdam Ave. however it was really the thirteenth floor this building was one of those which fore superstitious reasons had no thirteenth floor. Shena told me she had seen a ghost hand come threw the wall of the bathroom once when she was taking a shower.

The fact that my love for Shena had grown into a feeling like I have never understood before. She has her own business which is called "Shena's Up Town Dog Walking" she was independent and I helped her wake the dogs. As I spent time with her I recalled my reading about the church in Philadelphia. Particularly the verse "I will make those people who say they are Jews but liars which in Revelation's letter to the church in Philadelphia state that it was these liars that would keen the Rider of the White Horse who has the name."

I was a little surprised to find that it was these same people who were refereed to as dogs and the practices of falsehoods in the Book of Revelations, now I was learning how fake their religion was. How little the know about the Old Testimony and the Prophets we christians love and study.

I told them about Excaliber which was also the Iron Rod of Israel and the New age which meant that their Messiah had come. However there concern was with money and material wealth. Law to them are tools to manipulate people. Much like Joel Sternberg did as he did not practice what he preached.

It was at this point in time that I learned about the Ego and what Logan called "Power playing the Power Players" which meant there was a game going on and I was with my calendar and the fife now a part of. The rules of the game were dog eat dog and the fact that I was not circumcision was now become a issue. If it weren't for passages from the Bible I would have to use the sword to fight this issue. However St. Paul and Kimg David said it with words. In Psalms 22 David denounces men who are like dogs, interesting this is the psalm that Jesus quotes on the cross. Also Paul in the letter to the Philippians calls the circumcision act flesh mutilation.

I was confronted with the fornicator and as was written in the letter to Tyatera Rev. 2 the woman who was thrown in to a sick bed and would lose her babies. The one the Rider of the White Horses with the Iron rod. Would tolerate. Shena was once a go dance, in fact she was the dance at the Metrapole during the time when Gene Kruper the drummer was playing there in 1963, the time when I used to go there because I was a studying drummer and I wanted to see the great Gene Kruper. I remembered Shena who was about five years older then I. She was the first go go girl I had ever seen and I was instantly in love with her. Much like a school boy's crush.

Now twenty six years latter I was with her. She showed me pictures of herself and she was indeed the dancer I remembered. But now I was also seeing her in another way as the special child born Christmas time. I was wiped out by feeling that know men ever felt before. Shena was special and she knew it she was a great singer. He ear was natural and she didn't need training.

She had just moved into an apartment with David and they were so much the same that I began to remember the passage about David's wives and how the profit Nathen told David that his wives will lay in the sight of the Sun with. One who would have the sword of Uria. The fact was that I began to feel like the third party in a marriage. However Shena was special enough for me to tolerate, this adulterous feeling.

David was a canter and he was shocked by the fact that I was claiming to be the Messiah. It was for this reason that he and Shena began a talk against my credibility. They were as many of the Christians not willing to give up the title in fear of loosing their ego. David and Shena tried a anti Phil is the Messiah. My love and lust for Shena would be the power play. So I was set up for the greatest lustful hurt and longing.

The falsehoods began as Shena was miss quoting me to people to try to discredit my being eligible for the title of the Messiah. Little did she and David knew that in Genesis it was written "that the scepter of Israel will depart from Juhda when he who it belongs to comes and takes it" and the Philip's head was mine.

This conflict would have ended as just another conquest eccept this time it was not some brain damaged drunkard from local bar. David and Shena were my choosen people "Philadelphiians Jews." And I tried an experiment and let myself become at peace with Satan. I believe that like Ho Che Mien I would have to understand the thinking of Satan and find its weekness.

As I stated before Shena is special and this attack on my credibility was to me just an obstacle for me to prove my devotion and wanting of her support on the calendar and like wise with David. I consider them in some ways my keens, because they were both Capricorns which are the keens of the cosmic man and I was the Ram the head. Interesting also was that they were to be the ones that the Bible in the letter to Philadelphia were to get on their keens. So I remained focused on they approval.

There was one peace of common ground that Shena and I had left after are brake up that was the King of Poland Statue in Central Park near the great lawn. On Sundays there was folk dancing their and it was something that we both ebjoyed. I liked the music and was learning to dance. On the other hand she was a very good dancer would even lead the line.

There was one interesting thing about the statue which was that the King who was riding the most beautiful horse, was also holding two swords to make a cross. This was always one of my favorite statues because I reminded me of myself when I crossed my fife with the Philip's head screw drive and played percussion. I sure startled the dance when I stood in front of the statue on my white bicycle and held the cross fife and Philip's head over my head looking just like the King. As I watched the dance of the women who drove David crazy with lust, the women who shook his reign.

The realization that this whole preoccupation with astrological signs was of the Devil and the horns on my own head being a Ram born April 5 connived on the forth of July. I was raming heads with the goat who was even my Devil then I and there were to against one like a married couple teaming against me just to bring out the devil in me and lust was my week point. As is written in the letter to the Church in Tyatera which is where the Jezebel temps the ruler of the Nations who I am. My gust for the Lamb was a dead end in my own ego and sex fault. I need to reexamine my searching pattern and this time I looked to John's description of Jesus. I knew also that Israel was not a Nation but it is a man as was before the man who wrestled with God and was touched on the thigh.

The fact was not only did I have the thumbprint of Israel on my thigh but I was also born the year Israel became a nation. The way I saw it was that the lamb was Lord of all, the mark on my thigh was the color of bronze. So I believe that the color of the lamb was to be bronze. I found it interesting that the people from Africa were the same color as my mark. I had always been amazed by the way the African people gave so little resistance to slavery. They were good herted and gave up their freedom without a straggle. Much the way Jesus did at the cross. Interesting also was that the Bible called Jesus the second Adam. Adam was a African and his return seem to be another pointer towards the African being the Lamb my boss.