To Melanie (if you ever read this)
Belfast, Ireland
April 1999
Dear Melanie,
When I first created this site a year ago, I didn't know the profound affect it would have on people; on Melanie-lovers, on homosexuals and heterosexuals alike, on those confused about their sexuality and identity, and indeed, even on myself. You have helped change alot of views and opinions of those who once were narrow-minded.
As the more tolerant of my readers will admit, I have opened their eyes as to what could be and what may be in regard to the sexuality of any one of us, including you, and have actually witnessed a tolerance that wasn't there before. This site, and the suggestion that you might be gay has spurred people to question themselves and their morals, and made alot of them better people because of it.
If you are gay or bisexual Melanie, you can help alot of people, and give them the opportunity to see that there is nothing wrong with being who you are. So many people are going through self-hatred for thinking those feelings are wrong and dirty, yet people like you could help abolish that. You are a role model, and people respect your opinion, so you don't have to join those who despise their sexuality. Maybe you too are suffering like we do?
On the other hand, I know I could be wrong. It seems to me that for every indication we get about your possible homosexuality, we get another one confirming that you are straight. It doesn't really matter what you are Mel, but it would be so great if you could just put us all out of our misery and come out with it for once and for all.
If you confirm what the majority of people believe, i.e. you are an open-minded heterosexual, then maybe we'll leave you alone. For me, I would destroy the "gay" part of this website if you were to tell ME personally that I've got it all wrong. If you are straight, I apologize and hang my head in shame.
Melanie, you know this is not a malicious website, and no offence is intended to you in any way at all. I am sorry if my opinions hurt anyone, especially you, but I do believe I have the distinct right to voice my own views. Nothing in my evidence is concrete, it is based on suspicion alone, therefore I am not intent on slandering your name, or making you something you are not. I just believe people might want to see for themselves, you know? I'm so sorry if this hurts you.
So in conclusion I'd like to offer you the consolation that you are adored by millions, and thousands of them do believe you are not heterosexual. Of most of your fans, virtually all of them will still adore you, no matter what your sexual orientation. We will support you throughout your career regardless.
So many people love you Mel, you could never fail.
Once again, I am sorry if I caused you harm, please continue to be you, the Spice Girl we all love. Good luck with your future career, we all hope you find love and happiness
Yours with love and best wishes
Gemma 'SpiceGem' Boden
P.S. Should you ever wish to explore your sexuality, I think you have my number!!